[{"id":9076097,"name":"I'd Rather You Cheat","trackName":"I'd Rather You Cheat","artistName":"Songer","albumName":"The Sunrise Project","duration":203.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"I said to you that I was in my darkest ever place\nAnd I told you I was struggling\nBut you could only ever play the victim\nSo you went and told your friends that he's a prick\nBut I'm in love with him\nPrick or not was crying out for help\nIf you really gave a shit you wouldn't leave me there to melt\nPutting tweets up as if I'm tryna benefit myself\nYou can hate me but to blatantly ignore my cries to listen\nYou can undermine my love but never never undermine my health\nI'd just rather you cheat\n\nYeah, I never called you over night because I'd rather you sleep\nBut you would never do the same because you'd rather I speak\nYou don't want a heart to love\nYou want a heart you can keep\nYeah, and you saw me at my lowest tryna handle my grief\nSo why the fuck you can't acknowledge when my pains at it's peak\nThat's the single fucking reason that I struggle to speak\nI'm not alcohol dependant it just helps me escape\nI slip into train of thoughts and then I'm in them for days\nThe way my head would pound it ain't no minimum wage\nI know my sister understands and she just know me as James\nBoys will open up but once they're over the phase\nEvery time I open up I get it thrown in my face\nCouple months and my emotions are all over the place\nThis is true all over England and all over the States\nMental trouble ain't a thing that just a story can heal\nYou can post what you want but that don't mean that you're real\nIt means you know the fucking person you want people to see\nHow many people do you check on when they struggle to sleep\nHow many people do you check on when they're quite at work\nWe just stigmatise the truth and tell our idols to twerk\nAll we do is work for money, sell our data to scum\nSince my best friend passed I'm never buying the Sun\nThis album's been a mess cos I've been lower than low\nAnd my only plan of action is fucking go with the flow\nSlowly cooking all my thoughts\nI bet they fall off the bone\nEverybody knows the devil I think they call it a phone\nI ain't dropped shit in a minute but they'll call me the goat\nAnd I don't know if goats can swim but me I'm barely afloat\nIf I die who takes the crown cos I'm the heir to the thrown\nMy biggest problem is myself and when I'm sat on my own\nI don't know what fucking happened man I used to be blessed\nI guess a year can change a lot cos now I'm fucking depressed\nBut cool you probably think they're lyrics I just get off my chest\nThese aren't lyrics these are thoughts man I'm living with stress\nIf you saw me at the pub you'd think I'm chatting the most\nHow you cocky and depressed bruv I don't even know\nAnd there ain't an ounce of fear when I'm out with my bros\nBut anxieties a killer when I'm back in my home\nI distract myself by chasing after beautiful women\nI ain't ever felt depressed when there's a worldie I'm kissing\nAnd to you I'll say I'm sorry I just wish it was different\nI didn't mean to write this song but if I didn't I'm tripping\nImperfection or I'm perfection, that depends if I've got space or not\nFuck a PCR test and fuck a lateral flow\nJust play my music and you'll see if they've got taste or not\nI've got new bars smudged up covering my palm\nLike the logo on my angels top\nI guess I'll die by my lyrics cos my veins will pop\nI guess I'll die by my lyrics cos my veins will pop, yeah\n\nI said to you that I was in my darkest ever place\nAnd I told you I was struggling\nBut you could only ever play the victim\nSo you said to all your friends that he's a prick\nBut I'm in love with him\nPrick or not was crying out for help\nIf you really gave a shit you wouldn't leave me there to melt\nPutting tweets up as if I'm tryna benefit myself\nYou can hate me but to blatantly ignore my cries to listen\nYou can undermine my love but never never undermine my health\nI'd just rather you cheat","syncedLyrics":null,"lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: I'd Rather You Cheat\n  artist: Songer\n  album: The Sunrise Project\n  duration_ms: 203000\n  instrumental: false\nlines: []\nplain: |-\n  I said to you that I was in my darkest ever place\n  And I told you I was struggling\n  But you could only ever play the victim\n  So you went and told your friends that he's a prick\n  But I'm in love with him\n  Prick or not was crying out for help\n  If you really gave a shit you wouldn't leave me there to melt\n  Putting tweets up as if I'm tryna benefit myself\n  You can hate me but to blatantly ignore my cries to listen\n  You can undermine my love but never never undermine my health\n  I'd just rather you cheat\n\n  Yeah, I never called you over night because I'd rather you sleep\n  But you would never do the same because you'd rather I speak\n  You don't want a heart to love\n  You want a heart you can keep\n  Yeah, and you saw me at my lowest tryna handle my grief\n  So why the fuck you can't acknowledge when my pains at it's peak\n  That's the single fucking reason that I struggle to speak\n  I'm not alcohol dependant it just helps me escape\n  I slip into train of thoughts and then I'm in them for days\n  The way my head would pound it ain't no minimum wage\n  I know my sister understands and she just know me as James\n  Boys will open up but once they're over the phase\n  Every time I open up I get it thrown in my face\n  Couple months and my emotions are all over the place\n  This is true all over England and all over the States\n  Mental trouble ain't a thing that just a story can heal\n  You can post what you want but that don't mean that you're real\n  It means you know the fucking person you want people to see\n  How many people do you check on when they struggle to sleep\n  How many people do you check on when they're quite at work\n  We just stigmatise the truth and tell our idols to twerk\n  All we do is work for money, sell our data to scum\n  Since my best friend passed I'm never buying the Sun\n  This album's been a mess cos I've been lower than low\n  And my only plan of action is fucking go with the flow\n  Slowly cooking all my thoughts\n  I bet they fall off the bone\n  Everybody knows the devil I think they call it a phone\n  I ain't dropped shit in a minute but they'll call me the goat\n  And I don't know if goats can swim but me I'm barely afloat\n  If I die who takes the crown cos I'm the heir to the thrown\n  My biggest problem is myself and when I'm sat on my own\n  I don't know what fucking happened man I used to be blessed\n  I guess a year can change a lot cos now I'm fucking depressed\n  But cool you probably think they're lyrics I just get off my chest\n  These aren't lyrics these are thoughts man I'm living with stress\n  If you saw me at the pub you'd think I'm chatting the most\n  How you cocky and depressed bruv I don't even know\n  And there ain't an ounce of fear when I'm out with my bros\n  But anxieties a killer when I'm back in my home\n  I distract myself by chasing after beautiful women\n  I ain't ever felt depressed when there's a worldie I'm kissing\n  And to you I'll say I'm sorry I just wish it was different\n  I didn't mean to write this song but if I didn't I'm tripping\n  Imperfection or I'm perfection, that depends if I've got space or not\n  Fuck a PCR test and fuck a lateral flow\n  Just play my music and you'll see if they've got taste or not\n  I've got new bars smudged up covering my palm\n  Like the logo on my angels top\n  I guess I'll die by my lyrics cos my veins will pop\n  I guess I'll die by my lyrics cos my veins will pop, yeah\n\n  I said to you that I was in my darkest ever place\n  And I told you I was struggling\n  But you could only ever play the victim\n  So you said to all your friends that he's a prick\n  But I'm in love with him\n  Prick or not was crying out for help\n  If you really gave a shit you wouldn't leave me there to melt\n  Putting tweets up as if I'm tryna benefit myself\n  You can hate me but to blatantly ignore my cries to listen\n  You can undermine my love but never never undermine my health\n  I'd just rather you cheat\n"}]