[{"id":16910797,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"Dave Radio","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave\n  album: Dave Radio\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10390\n  end_ms: 13950\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13950\n  end_ms: 15960\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15960\n  end_ms: 19310\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19310\n  end_ms: 22380\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22380\n  end_ms: 24070\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24070\n  end_ms: 26690\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26690\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32610\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32610\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36790\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36790\n  end_ms: 38660\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38660\n  end_ms: 40430\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40430\n  end_ms: 42030\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42030\n  end_ms: 43350\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43350\n  end_ms: 44700\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44700\n  end_ms: 45910\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45910\n  end_ms: 48440\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48440\n  end_ms: 51200\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51200\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59970\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59970\n  end_ms: 61710\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61710\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64420\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521520\n  end_ms: 522830\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522830\n  end_ms: 525240\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525240\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529990\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529990\n  end_ms: 531790\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531790\n  end_ms: 533590\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533590\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536360\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536360\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539840\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539840\n  end_ms: 541940\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541940\n  end_ms: 544920\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":972358,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.32] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.99] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.32] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.37] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.09] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.60] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.47] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.97] But she said, she said\n[00:48.41] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.54] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.91] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.75] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.18] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.43] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.45] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.89] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.42] She's in a situation\n[01:12.87] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.78] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.55] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.26] All the signs were there\n[01:22.70] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.17] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.63] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.60] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.07] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.10] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.81] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.57] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.36] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.48] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.27] More to the story than that\n[01:55.60] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.51] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.98] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.00] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.55] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.08] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.82] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.73] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.53] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.70] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.12] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.43] There's no income\n[02:26.88] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.37] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.45] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.89] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.34] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.67] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.96] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.55] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.55] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.20] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.56] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.58] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.01] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.53] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.01] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.32] \n[03:08.57] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.59] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.19] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.09] Late in December\n[03:18.22] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.83] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.88] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.65] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.30] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.19] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.12] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.38] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.85] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.82] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.62] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.89] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.27] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.75] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.74] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.81] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.75] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.20] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.88] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.86] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.38] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.74] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.08] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.35] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.26] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.65] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.45] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.43] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.58] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.54] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.79] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.32] I don't know myself\n[04:27.15] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.78] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.73] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.48] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.16] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.57] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.43] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.01] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.51] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.86] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.83] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.95] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.64] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.59] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.83] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.77] What the fuck?\n[05:26.76] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.41] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.34] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.32] You just wanna love\n[05:34.87] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.35] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.68] One more line, before\n[05:43.83] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.15] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.56] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.91] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.87] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.01] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.42] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.06] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.12] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.63] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.05] And give it to me,\n[06:10.20] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.71] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.04] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.30] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.77] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.11] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.53] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.82] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.13] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.94] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.38] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.68] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.54] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.69] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.14] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.51] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.75] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.72] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.12] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.64] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.54] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.99] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.49] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.65] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.43] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.95] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.65] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.40] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.16] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.80] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.66] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.07] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.32] I don't know myself\n[07:41.32] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.97] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.24] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.71] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.46] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.88] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.55] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.94] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.70] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.44] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.19] They said her baby was\n[08:14.33] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.91] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.56] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.05] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.32] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.45] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.02] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.84] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.51] You see, this time that\n[08:33.50] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.71] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.59] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.88] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.27] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.15] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.73] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.54] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.39] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.78] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.99] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.96] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.49] Angel without wings\n[09:23.09] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.23] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.86] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.59] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.59] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.64] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.52] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.21] A child without a name\n[10:01.02] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.41] \n[10:22.80] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.33] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.25] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.50] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.52] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.93] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.05] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.42] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.16] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.40] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.19] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.08] And are in control\n[11:06.49] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10320\n  end_ms: 13990\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13990\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15930\n  end_ms: 19320\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19320\n  end_ms: 22370\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22370\n  end_ms: 24090\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24090\n  end_ms: 26600\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26600\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32630\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32630\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36700\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36700\n  end_ms: 38690\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38690\n  end_ms: 40470\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40470\n  end_ms: 42060\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42060\n  end_ms: 43340\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43340\n  end_ms: 44710\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45970\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45970\n  end_ms: 48410\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48410\n  end_ms: 51220\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51220\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57540\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57540\n  end_ms: 59910\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59910\n  end_ms: 61750\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61750\n  end_ms: 63180\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63180\n  end_ms: 64430\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64430\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68450\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68450\n  end_ms: 69890\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69890\n  end_ms: 71420\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71420\n  end_ms: 72870\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72870\n  end_ms: 75780\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75780\n  end_ms: 78550\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78550\n  end_ms: 81260\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81260\n  end_ms: 82700\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82700\n  end_ms: 85170\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85170\n  end_ms: 86630\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86630\n  end_ms: 88600\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88600\n  end_ms: 90070\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90070\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97100\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97100\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102810\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102810\n  end_ms: 105570\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105570\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110360\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110360\n  end_ms: 111480\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111480\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114270\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114270\n  end_ms: 115600\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115600\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119510\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119510\n  end_ms: 120980\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120980\n  end_ms: 122000\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122000\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127550\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127550\n  end_ms: 129080\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129080\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132820\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132820\n  end_ms: 134730\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134730\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140530\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140530\n  end_ms: 142700\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142700\n  end_ms: 144120\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144120\n  end_ms: 145430\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145430\n  end_ms: 146880\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146880\n  end_ms: 148370\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148370\n  end_ms: 149450\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149450\n  end_ms: 150890\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150890\n  end_ms: 153340\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153340\n  end_ms: 154670\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154670\n  end_ms: 155960\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155960\n  end_ms: 157550\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157550\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160550\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160550\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163200\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163200\n  end_ms: 165560\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165560\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172580\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172580\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178010\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178010\n  end_ms: 180530\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180530\n  end_ms: 183010\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183010\n  end_ms: 186320\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186320\n  end_ms: 188570\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188570\n  end_ms: 191590\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191590\n  end_ms: 195190\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195190\n  end_ms: 197090\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197090\n  end_ms: 198220\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198220\n  end_ms: 199830\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199830\n  end_ms: 202880\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202880\n  end_ms: 204650\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204650\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208300\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208300\n  end_ms: 210190\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210190\n  end_ms: 212120\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212120\n  end_ms: 213380\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213380\n  end_ms: 214850\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214850\n  end_ms: 215820\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215820\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218620\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218620\n  end_ms: 219890\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219890\n  end_ms: 221270\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221270\n  end_ms: 222750\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222750\n  end_ms: 223740\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223740\n  end_ms: 224810\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224810\n  end_ms: 226750\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226750\n  end_ms: 229200\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229200\n  end_ms: 231880\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231880\n  end_ms: 233860\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233860\n  end_ms: 235380\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235380\n  end_ms: 236740\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236740\n  end_ms: 240080\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240080\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246350\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246350\n  end_ms: 248260\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248260\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251650\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251650\n  end_ms: 253450\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253450\n  end_ms: 256430\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256430\n  end_ms: 257580\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257580\n  end_ms: 259540\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259540\n  end_ms: 261790\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261790\n  end_ms: 264320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264320\n  end_ms: 267150\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267150\n  end_ms: 269780\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269780\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272730\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272730\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277480\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277480\n  end_ms: 279160\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279160\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282570\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282570\n  end_ms: 284430\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284430\n  end_ms: 287010\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287010\n  end_ms: 288510\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288510\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292860\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292860\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305830\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305830\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311950\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311950\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315640\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315640\n  end_ms: 316590\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316590\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324830\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324830\n  end_ms: 325770\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325770\n  end_ms: 326760\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326760\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329410\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329410\n  end_ms: 331340\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331340\n  end_ms: 333320\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333320\n  end_ms: 334870\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334870\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340350\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340350\n  end_ms: 342680\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342680\n  end_ms: 343830\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343830\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349150\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349150\n  end_ms: 350560\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350560\n  end_ms: 352910\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352910\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355870\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355870\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359010\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359010\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362420\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362420\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365060\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365060\n  end_ms: 366120\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366120\n  end_ms: 367630\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367630\n  end_ms: 369050\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369050\n  end_ms: 370200\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370200\n  end_ms: 371710\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371710\n  end_ms: 373040\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373040\n  end_ms: 374300\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374300\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379770\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379770\n  end_ms: 381110\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381110\n  end_ms: 382530\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382530\n  end_ms: 383820\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383820\n  end_ms: 385130\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385130\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387940\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387940\n  end_ms: 389380\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389380\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394680\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394680\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397540\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397540\n  end_ms: 398690\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398690\n  end_ms: 400140\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400140\n  end_ms: 401510\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401510\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404750\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404750\n  end_ms: 406720\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406720\n  end_ms: 408120\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408120\n  end_ms: 409640\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409640\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413540\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413540\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421990\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421990\n  end_ms: 423490\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423490\n  end_ms: 424650\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424650\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433430\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433430\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437950\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437950\n  end_ms: 440650\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440650\n  end_ms: 442400\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442400\n  end_ms: 444160\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444160\n  end_ms: 445800\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445800\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450660\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450660\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456070\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456070\n  end_ms: 458320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458320\n  end_ms: 461320\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461320\n  end_ms: 463970\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463970\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469240\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469240\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474710\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474710\n  end_ms: 476460\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476460\n  end_ms: 477880\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477880\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480550\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480550\n  end_ms: 484940\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484940\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488700\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488700\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491440\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491440\n  end_ms: 493190\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493190\n  end_ms: 494330\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494330\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496910\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496910\n  end_ms: 498560\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498560\n  end_ms: 500050\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500050\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503320\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503320\n  end_ms: 505450\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505450\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509020\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509020\n  end_ms: 510840\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510840\n  end_ms: 512510\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512510\n  end_ms: 513500\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513500\n  end_ms: 515710\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515710\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521590\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521590\n  end_ms: 522880\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522880\n  end_ms: 525270\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525270\n  end_ms: 528150\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528150\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531730\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531730\n  end_ms: 533540\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533540\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536390\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536390\n  end_ms: 538780\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538780\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541990\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541990\n  end_ms: 544960\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544960\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558490\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558490\n  end_ms: 563090\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563090\n  end_ms: 565230\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565230\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571860\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571860\n  end_ms: 574590\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574590\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581590\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581590\n  end_ms: 584640\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584640\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591520\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591520\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597210\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597210\n  end_ms: 601020\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601020\n  end_ms: 605410\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605410\n  end_ms: 622800\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622800\n  end_ms: 625330\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625330\n  end_ms: 629250\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629250\n  end_ms: 632500\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632500\n  end_ms: 634520\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634520\n  end_ms: 636930\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636930\n  end_ms: 641050\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641050\n  end_ms: 644420\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644420\n  end_ms: 648160\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648160\n  end_ms: 654400\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654400\n  end_ms: 658190\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658190\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665080\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665080\n  end_ms: 666490\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666490\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":19546592,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":665.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.32] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.99] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.32] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.37] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.09] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.60] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.47] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.97] But she said, she said\n[00:48.41] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.54] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.91] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.75] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.18] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.43] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.45] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.89] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.42] She's in a situation\n[01:12.87] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.78] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.55] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.26] All the signs were there\n[01:22.70] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.17] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.63] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.60] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.07] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.10] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.81] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.57] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.36] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.48] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.27] More to the story than that\n[01:55.60] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.51] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.98] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.00] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.55] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.08] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.82] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.73] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.53] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.70] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.12] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.43] There's no income\n[02:26.88] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.37] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.45] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.89] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.34] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.67] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.96] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.55] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.55] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.20] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.56] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.58] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.01] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.53] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.01] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.32] \n[03:08.57] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.59] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.19] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.09] Late in December\n[03:18.22] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.83] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.88] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.65] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.30] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.19] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.12] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.38] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.85] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.82] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.62] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.89] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.27] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.75] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.74] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.81] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.75] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.20] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.88] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.86] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.38] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.74] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.08] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.35] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.26] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.65] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.45] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.43] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.58] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.54] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.79] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.32] I don't know myself\n[04:27.15] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.78] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.73] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.48] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.16] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.57] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.43] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.01] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.51] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.86] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.83] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.95] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.64] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.59] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.83] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.77] What the fuck?\n[05:26.76] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.41] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.34] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.32] You just wanna love\n[05:34.87] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.35] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.68] One more line, before\n[05:43.83] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.15] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.56] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.91] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.87] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.01] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.42] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.06] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.12] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.63] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.05] And give it to me,\n[06:10.20] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.71] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.04] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.30] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.77] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.11] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.53] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.82] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.13] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.94] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.38] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.68] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.54] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.69] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.14] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.51] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.75] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.72] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.12] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.64] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.54] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.99] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.49] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.65] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.43] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.95] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.65] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.40] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.16] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.80] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.66] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.07] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.32] I don't know myself\n[07:41.32] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.97] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.24] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.71] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.46] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.88] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.55] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.94] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.70] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.44] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.19] They said her baby was\n[08:14.33] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.91] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.56] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.05] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.32] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.45] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.02] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.84] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.51] You see, this time that\n[08:33.50] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.71] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.59] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.88] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.27] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.15] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.73] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.54] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.39] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.78] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.99] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.96] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.49] Angel without wings\n[09:23.09] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.23] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.86] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.59] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.59] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.64] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.52] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.21] A child without a name\n[10:01.02] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.41] \n[10:22.80] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.33] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.25] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.50] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.52] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.93] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.05] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.42] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.16] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.40] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.19] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.08] And are in control\n[11:06.49] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 665000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10320\n  end_ms: 13990\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13990\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15930\n  end_ms: 19320\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19320\n  end_ms: 22370\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22370\n  end_ms: 24090\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24090\n  end_ms: 26600\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26600\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32630\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32630\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36700\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36700\n  end_ms: 38690\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38690\n  end_ms: 40470\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40470\n  end_ms: 42060\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42060\n  end_ms: 43340\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43340\n  end_ms: 44710\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45970\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45970\n  end_ms: 48410\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48410\n  end_ms: 51220\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51220\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57540\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57540\n  end_ms: 59910\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59910\n  end_ms: 61750\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61750\n  end_ms: 63180\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63180\n  end_ms: 64430\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64430\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68450\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68450\n  end_ms: 69890\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69890\n  end_ms: 71420\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71420\n  end_ms: 72870\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72870\n  end_ms: 75780\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75780\n  end_ms: 78550\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78550\n  end_ms: 81260\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81260\n  end_ms: 82700\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82700\n  end_ms: 85170\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85170\n  end_ms: 86630\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86630\n  end_ms: 88600\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88600\n  end_ms: 90070\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90070\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97100\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97100\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102810\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102810\n  end_ms: 105570\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105570\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110360\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110360\n  end_ms: 111480\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111480\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114270\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114270\n  end_ms: 115600\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115600\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119510\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119510\n  end_ms: 120980\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120980\n  end_ms: 122000\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122000\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127550\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127550\n  end_ms: 129080\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129080\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132820\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132820\n  end_ms: 134730\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134730\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140530\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140530\n  end_ms: 142700\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142700\n  end_ms: 144120\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144120\n  end_ms: 145430\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145430\n  end_ms: 146880\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146880\n  end_ms: 148370\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148370\n  end_ms: 149450\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149450\n  end_ms: 150890\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150890\n  end_ms: 153340\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153340\n  end_ms: 154670\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154670\n  end_ms: 155960\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155960\n  end_ms: 157550\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157550\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160550\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160550\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163200\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163200\n  end_ms: 165560\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165560\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172580\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172580\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178010\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178010\n  end_ms: 180530\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180530\n  end_ms: 183010\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183010\n  end_ms: 186320\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186320\n  end_ms: 188570\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188570\n  end_ms: 191590\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191590\n  end_ms: 195190\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195190\n  end_ms: 197090\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197090\n  end_ms: 198220\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198220\n  end_ms: 199830\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199830\n  end_ms: 202880\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202880\n  end_ms: 204650\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204650\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208300\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208300\n  end_ms: 210190\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210190\n  end_ms: 212120\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212120\n  end_ms: 213380\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213380\n  end_ms: 214850\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214850\n  end_ms: 215820\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215820\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218620\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218620\n  end_ms: 219890\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219890\n  end_ms: 221270\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221270\n  end_ms: 222750\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222750\n  end_ms: 223740\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223740\n  end_ms: 224810\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224810\n  end_ms: 226750\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226750\n  end_ms: 229200\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229200\n  end_ms: 231880\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231880\n  end_ms: 233860\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233860\n  end_ms: 235380\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235380\n  end_ms: 236740\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236740\n  end_ms: 240080\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240080\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246350\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246350\n  end_ms: 248260\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248260\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251650\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251650\n  end_ms: 253450\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253450\n  end_ms: 256430\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256430\n  end_ms: 257580\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257580\n  end_ms: 259540\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259540\n  end_ms: 261790\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261790\n  end_ms: 264320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264320\n  end_ms: 267150\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267150\n  end_ms: 269780\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269780\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272730\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272730\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277480\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277480\n  end_ms: 279160\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279160\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282570\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282570\n  end_ms: 284430\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284430\n  end_ms: 287010\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287010\n  end_ms: 288510\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288510\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292860\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292860\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305830\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305830\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311950\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311950\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315640\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315640\n  end_ms: 316590\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316590\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324830\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324830\n  end_ms: 325770\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325770\n  end_ms: 326760\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326760\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329410\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329410\n  end_ms: 331340\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331340\n  end_ms: 333320\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333320\n  end_ms: 334870\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334870\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340350\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340350\n  end_ms: 342680\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342680\n  end_ms: 343830\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343830\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349150\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349150\n  end_ms: 350560\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350560\n  end_ms: 352910\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352910\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355870\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355870\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359010\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359010\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362420\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362420\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365060\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365060\n  end_ms: 366120\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366120\n  end_ms: 367630\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367630\n  end_ms: 369050\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369050\n  end_ms: 370200\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370200\n  end_ms: 371710\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371710\n  end_ms: 373040\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373040\n  end_ms: 374300\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374300\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379770\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379770\n  end_ms: 381110\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381110\n  end_ms: 382530\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382530\n  end_ms: 383820\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383820\n  end_ms: 385130\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385130\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387940\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387940\n  end_ms: 389380\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389380\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394680\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394680\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397540\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397540\n  end_ms: 398690\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398690\n  end_ms: 400140\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400140\n  end_ms: 401510\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401510\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404750\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404750\n  end_ms: 406720\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406720\n  end_ms: 408120\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408120\n  end_ms: 409640\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409640\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413540\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413540\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421990\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421990\n  end_ms: 423490\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423490\n  end_ms: 424650\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424650\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433430\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433430\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437950\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437950\n  end_ms: 440650\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440650\n  end_ms: 442400\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442400\n  end_ms: 444160\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444160\n  end_ms: 445800\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445800\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450660\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450660\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456070\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456070\n  end_ms: 458320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458320\n  end_ms: 461320\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461320\n  end_ms: 463970\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463970\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469240\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469240\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474710\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474710\n  end_ms: 476460\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476460\n  end_ms: 477880\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477880\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480550\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480550\n  end_ms: 484940\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484940\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488700\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488700\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491440\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491440\n  end_ms: 493190\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493190\n  end_ms: 494330\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494330\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496910\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496910\n  end_ms: 498560\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498560\n  end_ms: 500050\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500050\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503320\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503320\n  end_ms: 505450\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505450\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509020\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509020\n  end_ms: 510840\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510840\n  end_ms: 512510\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512510\n  end_ms: 513500\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513500\n  end_ms: 515710\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515710\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521590\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521590\n  end_ms: 522880\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522880\n  end_ms: 525270\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525270\n  end_ms: 528150\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528150\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531730\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531730\n  end_ms: 533540\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533540\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536390\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536390\n  end_ms: 538780\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538780\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541990\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541990\n  end_ms: 544960\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544960\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558490\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558490\n  end_ms: 563090\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563090\n  end_ms: 565230\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565230\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571860\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571860\n  end_ms: 574590\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574590\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581590\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581590\n  end_ms: 584640\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584640\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591520\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591520\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597210\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597210\n  end_ms: 601020\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601020\n  end_ms: 605410\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605410\n  end_ms: 622800\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622800\n  end_ms: 625330\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625330\n  end_ms: 629250\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629250\n  end_ms: 632500\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632500\n  end_ms: 634520\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634520\n  end_ms: 636930\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636930\n  end_ms: 641050\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641050\n  end_ms: 644420\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644420\n  end_ms: 648160\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648160\n  end_ms: 654400\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654400\n  end_ms: 658190\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658190\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665080\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665080\n  end_ms: 666490\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666490\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":14919312,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"11:08","duration":667.68,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave\n  album: 11:08\n  duration_ms: 667680\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10390\n  end_ms: 13950\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13950\n  end_ms: 15960\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15960\n  end_ms: 19310\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19310\n  end_ms: 22380\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22380\n  end_ms: 24070\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24070\n  end_ms: 26690\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26690\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32610\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32610\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36790\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36790\n  end_ms: 38660\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38660\n  end_ms: 40430\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40430\n  end_ms: 42030\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42030\n  end_ms: 43350\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43350\n  end_ms: 44700\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44700\n  end_ms: 45910\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45910\n  end_ms: 48440\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48440\n  end_ms: 51200\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51200\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59970\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59970\n  end_ms: 61710\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61710\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64420\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521520\n  end_ms: 522830\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522830\n  end_ms: 525240\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525240\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529990\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529990\n  end_ms: 531790\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531790\n  end_ms: 533590\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533590\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536360\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536360\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539840\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539840\n  end_ms: 541940\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541940\n  end_ms: 544920\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":39288164,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"Ruelle","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.32]Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.99]And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93]The same background or same place\n[00:19.32]But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.37]I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.09]I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.60]To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61]Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63]One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32]And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70]She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69]And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.47]How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06]But she needs it\n[00:43.34]I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71]When it's the weekend\n[00:45.97]But she said, she said\n[00:48.41]\"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22]I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74]She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.54]But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.91]Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.75]And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.18]But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.43]Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86]Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.45]And she can't even see it\n[01:09.89]But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.42]She's in a situation\n[01:12.87]Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.78]So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.55]Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.26]All the signs were there\n[01:22.70]But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.17]Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.63]Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.60]I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.07]But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35]Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72]To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.10]'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25]But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.81]You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.57]Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91]He was all that she had\n[01:50.36]Until they had an argument\n[01:51.48]And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89]And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.27]More to the story than that\n[01:55.60]'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93]But according to that\n[01:58.21]He went missing one day\n[01:59.51]In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.98]She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.00]Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45]'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95]It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45]Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.55]Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.08]But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12]Cared for her\n[02:12.82]When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.73]\"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49]I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.53]Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.70]It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.12]I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.43]There's no income\n[02:26.88]My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.37]So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.45]Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.89]And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.34]And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.67]Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.96]Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.55]Young and neglected\n[02:39.03]Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.55]She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65]So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.20]Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.56]But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37]It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91]Clinical depression\n[02:52.58]Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35]And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.01]'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.53]There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.01]So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.32]\n[03:08.57]\"I don't know myself\n[03:11.59]I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.19]But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.09]Late in December\n[03:18.22]Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.83]She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.88]Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.65]Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24]Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.30]And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.19]So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.12]I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.38]You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.85]You're a mum forever\n[03:35.82]Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01]Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.62]If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.89]You shoulda done together\n[03:41.27]She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.75]Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.74]And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.81]Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.75]She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.20]Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.88]Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.86]'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.38]But most of them are never around\n[03:56.74]She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.08]Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92]That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.35]So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.26]Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81]Can you call me back?\n[04:11.65]I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.45]You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.43]I been feelin' like\n[04:17.58]I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.54]I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.79]But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.32]I don't know myself\n[04:27.15]I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.78]It's 3:30\n[04:31.15]Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.73]But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83]Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.48]Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.16]Have that conversation\n[04:40.55]Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.57]Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.43]Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.01]Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.51]Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64]Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.86]Touched her destination\n[04:54.42]Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82]She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13]She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11]What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78]Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33]Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.83]'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23]And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88]Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.95]But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50]And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.64]\"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.59]But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88]So she bursts in\n[05:19.28]Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89]Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20]Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.83]You're pregnant?\n[05:25.77]What the fuck?\n[05:26.76]You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96]I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.41]What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.34]Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.32]You just wanna love\n[05:34.87]Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71]I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.35]And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.68]One more line, before\n[05:43.83]I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39]Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.15]And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.56]\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.91]Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78]Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.87]Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29]Fitter than me\n[05:59.01]To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00]I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.42]And you did this to me\n[06:03.69]What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.06]For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.12]I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.63]But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.05]And give it to me,\n[06:10.20]The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.71]I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.04]But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.30]Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04]Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52]Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.77]White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.11]When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.53]I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.82]I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.13]Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81]Quick as could be\n[06:27.94]He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.38]I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60]Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08]I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.68]With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15]I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.54]I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.69]Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.14]Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.51]Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89]The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.75]\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.72]There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.12]And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.64]Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38]She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.54]And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98]If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84]But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44]So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.99]Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.49]Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.65]Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34]Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11]It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.43]It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06]And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.95]So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.65]Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.40]Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.16]Can you call me back?\n[07:25.80]I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59]You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.66]I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38]I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.07]But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.32]I don't know myself\n[07:41.32]I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.97]She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76]Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.24]Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96]Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.71]Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.46]Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.88]Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96]She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.55]Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.94]Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64]But when I heard about\n[08:08.70]What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38]Her nose was gone\n[08:11.44]Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.19]They said her baby was\n[08:14.33]The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88]She's dozing off\n[08:16.91]Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.56]Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.05]And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36]Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.32]And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.45]But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03]She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.02]And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.84]But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.51]You see, this time that\n[08:33.50]I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.71]Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32]It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03]I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.59]If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.88]I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.27]And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.15]Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90]Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.73]And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.54]I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66]Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.39]Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.78]This shit's awful\n[08:59.80]No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.99]Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.96]In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44]How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98]\n[09:18.49]Angel without wings\n[09:23.09]Like the day without the night\n[09:25.23]To bring her peace\n[09:28.70]A song without a voice\n[09:31.86]A spark without a flame\n[09:34.59]A child without a name\n[09:38.27]Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.59]Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.64]A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10]How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.52]A song without a voice\n[09:54.89]A spark without a flame\n[09:57.21]A child without a name\n[10:01.02]Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.41]\n[10:22.80]Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.33]Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.25]Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.50]And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.52]To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.93]In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.05]You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.42]I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.16]But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.40]So you're always welcome\n[10:58.19]I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05]Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.08]And are in control\n[11:06.49]","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave\n  album: Ruelle\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10320\n  end_ms: 13990\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13990\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15930\n  end_ms: 19320\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19320\n  end_ms: 22370\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22370\n  end_ms: 24090\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24090\n  end_ms: 26600\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26600\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32630\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32630\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36700\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36700\n  end_ms: 38690\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38690\n  end_ms: 40470\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40470\n  end_ms: 42060\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42060\n  end_ms: 43340\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43340\n  end_ms: 44710\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45970\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45970\n  end_ms: 48410\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48410\n  end_ms: 51220\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51220\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57540\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57540\n  end_ms: 59910\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59910\n  end_ms: 61750\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61750\n  end_ms: 63180\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63180\n  end_ms: 64430\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64430\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68450\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68450\n  end_ms: 69890\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69890\n  end_ms: 71420\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71420\n  end_ms: 72870\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72870\n  end_ms: 75780\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75780\n  end_ms: 78550\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78550\n  end_ms: 81260\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81260\n  end_ms: 82700\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82700\n  end_ms: 85170\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85170\n  end_ms: 86630\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86630\n  end_ms: 88600\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88600\n  end_ms: 90070\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90070\n  end_ms: 91350\n- 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116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119510\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119510\n  end_ms: 120980\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120980\n  end_ms: 122000\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122000\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127550\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127550\n  end_ms: 129080\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129080\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132820\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132820\n  end_ms: 134730\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134730\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140530\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140530\n  end_ms: 142700\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142700\n  end_ms: 144120\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144120\n  end_ms: 145430\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145430\n  end_ms: 146880\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146880\n  end_ms: 148370\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148370\n  end_ms: 149450\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149450\n  end_ms: 150890\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150890\n  end_ms: 153340\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153340\n  end_ms: 154670\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154670\n  end_ms: 155960\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155960\n  end_ms: 157550\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157550\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160550\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160550\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163200\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163200\n  end_ms: 165560\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165560\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172580\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172580\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178010\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178010\n  end_ms: 180530\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180530\n  end_ms: 183010\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183010\n  end_ms: 186320\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186320\n  end_ms: 188570\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188570\n  end_ms: 191590\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191590\n  end_ms: 195190\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195190\n  end_ms: 197090\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197090\n  end_ms: 198220\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198220\n  end_ms: 199830\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199830\n  end_ms: 202880\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202880\n  end_ms: 204650\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204650\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208300\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208300\n  end_ms: 210190\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210190\n  end_ms: 212120\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212120\n  end_ms: 213380\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213380\n  end_ms: 214850\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214850\n  end_ms: 215820\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215820\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218620\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218620\n  end_ms: 219890\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219890\n  end_ms: 221270\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221270\n  end_ms: 222750\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222750\n  end_ms: 223740\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223740\n  end_ms: 224810\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224810\n  end_ms: 226750\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226750\n  end_ms: 229200\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229200\n  end_ms: 231880\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231880\n  end_ms: 233860\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233860\n  end_ms: 235380\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235380\n  end_ms: 236740\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236740\n  end_ms: 240080\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240080\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246350\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246350\n  end_ms: 248260\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248260\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251650\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251650\n  end_ms: 253450\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253450\n  end_ms: 256430\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256430\n  end_ms: 257580\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257580\n  end_ms: 259540\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259540\n  end_ms: 261790\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261790\n  end_ms: 264320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264320\n  end_ms: 267150\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267150\n  end_ms: 269780\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269780\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272730\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272730\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277480\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277480\n  end_ms: 279160\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279160\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282570\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282570\n  end_ms: 284430\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284430\n  end_ms: 287010\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287010\n  end_ms: 288510\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288510\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292860\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292860\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305830\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305830\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311950\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311950\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315640\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315640\n  end_ms: 316590\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316590\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324830\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324830\n  end_ms: 325770\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325770\n  end_ms: 326760\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326760\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329410\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329410\n  end_ms: 331340\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331340\n  end_ms: 333320\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333320\n  end_ms: 334870\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334870\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340350\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340350\n  end_ms: 342680\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342680\n  end_ms: 343830\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343830\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349150\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349150\n  end_ms: 350560\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350560\n  end_ms: 352910\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352910\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355870\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355870\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359010\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359010\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362420\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362420\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365060\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365060\n  end_ms: 366120\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366120\n  end_ms: 367630\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367630\n  end_ms: 369050\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369050\n  end_ms: 370200\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370200\n  end_ms: 371710\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371710\n  end_ms: 373040\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373040\n  end_ms: 374300\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374300\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379770\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379770\n  end_ms: 381110\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381110\n  end_ms: 382530\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382530\n  end_ms: 383820\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383820\n  end_ms: 385130\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385130\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387940\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387940\n  end_ms: 389380\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389380\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394680\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394680\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397540\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397540\n  end_ms: 398690\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398690\n  end_ms: 400140\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400140\n  end_ms: 401510\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401510\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404750\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404750\n  end_ms: 406720\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406720\n  end_ms: 408120\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408120\n  end_ms: 409640\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409640\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413540\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413540\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421990\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421990\n  end_ms: 423490\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423490\n  end_ms: 424650\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424650\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433430\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433430\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437950\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437950\n  end_ms: 440650\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440650\n  end_ms: 442400\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442400\n  end_ms: 444160\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444160\n  end_ms: 445800\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445800\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450660\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450660\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456070\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456070\n  end_ms: 458320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458320\n  end_ms: 461320\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461320\n  end_ms: 463970\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463970\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469240\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469240\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474710\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474710\n  end_ms: 476460\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476460\n  end_ms: 477880\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477880\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480550\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480550\n  end_ms: 484940\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484940\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488700\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488700\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491440\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491440\n  end_ms: 493190\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493190\n  end_ms: 494330\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494330\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496910\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496910\n  end_ms: 498560\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498560\n  end_ms: 500050\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500050\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503320\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503320\n  end_ms: 505450\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505450\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509020\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509020\n  end_ms: 510840\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510840\n  end_ms: 512510\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512510\n  end_ms: 513500\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513500\n  end_ms: 515710\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515710\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521590\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521590\n  end_ms: 522880\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522880\n  end_ms: 525270\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525270\n  end_ms: 528150\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528150\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531730\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531730\n  end_ms: 533540\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533540\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536390\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536390\n  end_ms: 538780\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538780\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541990\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541990\n  end_ms: 544960\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544960\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558490\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558490\n  end_ms: 563090\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563090\n  end_ms: 565230\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565230\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571860\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571860\n  end_ms: 574590\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574590\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581590\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581590\n  end_ms: 584640\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584640\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591520\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591520\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597210\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597210\n  end_ms: 601020\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601020\n  end_ms: 605410\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605410\n  end_ms: 622800\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622800\n  end_ms: 625330\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625330\n  end_ms: 629250\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629250\n  end_ms: 632500\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632500\n  end_ms: 634520\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634520\n  end_ms: 636930\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636930\n  end_ms: 641050\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641050\n  end_ms: 644420\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644420\n  end_ms: 648160\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648160\n  end_ms: 654400\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654400\n  end_ms: 658190\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658190\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665080\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665080\n  end_ms: 666490\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666490\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":29902961,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave & Ruelle","albumName":"11:08","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave & Ruelle\n  album: 11:08\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10390\n  end_ms: 13950\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13950\n  end_ms: 15960\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15960\n  end_ms: 19310\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19310\n  end_ms: 22380\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22380\n  end_ms: 24070\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24070\n  end_ms: 26690\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26690\n  end_ms: 29610\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29610\n  end_ms: 32610\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32610\n  end_ms: 35320\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35320\n  end_ms: 36790\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36790\n  end_ms: 38660\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38660\n  end_ms: 40430\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40430\n  end_ms: 42030\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42030\n  end_ms: 43350\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43350\n  end_ms: 44700\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44700\n  end_ms: 45910\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45910\n  end_ms: 48440\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48440\n  end_ms: 51200\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51200\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59970\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59970\n  end_ms: 61710\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61710\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64420\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521520\n  end_ms: 522830\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522830\n  end_ms: 525240\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525240\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529990\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529990\n  end_ms: 531790\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531790\n  end_ms: 533590\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533590\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536360\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536360\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539840\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539840\n  end_ms: 541940\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541940\n  end_ms: 544920\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":23424719,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave (403)","albumName":"Psychodrama","duration":666.934156,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.37] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.98] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.33] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.06] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.62] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.67] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.36] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.67] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.44] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.36] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.99] But she said, she said\n[00:48.43] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.77] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.93] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.74] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.49] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.89] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.49] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.86] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.46] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.75] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.22] All the signs were there\n[01:22.77] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.18] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.60] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.64] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.00] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.37] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.76] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.17] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.27] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.83] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.50] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.93] He was all that she had\n[01:50.30] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.42] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.83] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.24] More to the story than that\n[01:55.64] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.91] But according to that\n[01:58.26] He went missing one day\n[01:59.58] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.09] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.47] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.48] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.54] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.02] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.45] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.56] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.75] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.14] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.40] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.47] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.83] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.39] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.94] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.52] Young and neglected\n[02:39.01] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.56] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.67] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.25] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.92] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.33] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.02] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.57] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.50] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.51] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.12] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.02] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.89] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.86] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.66] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.31] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.32] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.84] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.65] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.23] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.76] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.75] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.89] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.72] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.26] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.87] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.85] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.70] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.93] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.30] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.27] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.85] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.62] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.40] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.45] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.51] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.57] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.71] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.36] I don't know myself\n[04:27.19] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.79] It's 3:30\n[04:31.17] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.70] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.41] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.12] Have that conversation\n[04:40.58] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.50] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.46] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.55] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.65] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.88] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.18] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.74] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.31] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.46] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.69] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.53] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.26] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.86] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.23] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.85] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.74] What the fuck?\n[05:26.70] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.47] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.31] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.38] You just wanna love\n[05:34.85] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.33] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.61] One more line, before\n[05:43.87] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.19] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.92] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.73] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.88] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.25] Fitter than me\n[05:59.04] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.49] And you did this to me\n[06:03.62] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.15] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.62] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.01] And give it to me,\n[06:10.22] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.07] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.51] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.75] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.10] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.58] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.86] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.84] Quick as could be\n[06:27.98] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.32] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.65] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.06] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.61] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.55] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.63] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.18] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.54] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.72] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.74] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.18] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.33] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.53] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.85] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.45] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.97] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.42] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.61] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.31] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.14] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.46] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.41] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.82] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.53] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.63] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.05] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.39] I don't know myself\n[07:41.34] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.99] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.77] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.28] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.98] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.70] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.43] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.87] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.56] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.92] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.72] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.37] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.83] She's dozing off\n[08:16.99] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.55] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.06] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.31] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.38] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.09] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.01] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.80] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.53] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.55] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.80] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.21] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.14] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.52] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.67] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.31] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.82] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.93] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.91] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.28] To bring her peace\n[09:28.78] A song without a voice\n[09:31.85] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.54] A child without a name\n[09:38.29] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.54] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.61] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.19] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.56] A song without a voice\n[09:54.82] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.04] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.43] \n[10:22.88] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.28] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.54] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.54] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:37.00] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.45] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.14] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.41] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.13] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.06] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.05] And are in control\n[11:06.46] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave (403)\n  album: Psychodrama\n  duration_ms: 666934\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10370\n  end_ms: 13980\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13980\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15930\n  end_ms: 19330\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19330\n  end_ms: 22380\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22380\n  end_ms: 24060\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24060\n  end_ms: 26620\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26620\n  end_ms: 29670\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29670\n  end_ms: 32630\n- text: One day we ended up speaking\n  start_ms: 32630\n  end_ms: 35360\n- text: And I would talk about college\n  start_ms: 35360\n  end_ms: 36700\n- text: She would talk about meetings\n  start_ms: 36700\n  end_ms: 38670\n- text: And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38670\n  end_ms: 40440\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40440\n  end_ms: 42060\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42060\n  end_ms: 43360\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43360\n  end_ms: 44710\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45990\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45990\n  end_ms: 48430\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48430\n  end_ms: 51220\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51220\n  end_ms: 54770\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54770\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59930\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59930\n  end_ms: 61740\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61740\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64490\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64490\n  end_ms: 65890\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65890\n  end_ms: 68490\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68490\n  end_ms: 69860\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69860\n  end_ms: 71460\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71460\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75750\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75750\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81220\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81220\n  end_ms: 82770\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82770\n  end_ms: 85180\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85180\n  end_ms: 86600\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86600\n  end_ms: 88640\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88640\n  end_ms: 90000\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90000\n  end_ms: 91370\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91370\n  end_ms: 94760\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94760\n  end_ms: 97170\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97170\n  end_ms: 100270\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100270\n  end_ms: 102830\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102830\n  end_ms: 105500\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105500\n  end_ms: 108930\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108930\n  end_ms: 110300\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110300\n  end_ms: 111420\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111420\n  end_ms: 112830\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112830\n  end_ms: 114240\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114240\n  end_ms: 115640\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115640\n  end_ms: 116910\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116910\n  end_ms: 118260\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118260\n  end_ms: 119580\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119580\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122090\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122090\n  end_ms: 123470\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123470\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126480\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126480\n  end_ms: 127540\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127540\n  end_ms: 129020\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129020\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137450\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137450\n  end_ms: 140560\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140560\n  end_ms: 142750\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142750\n  end_ms: 144140\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144140\n  end_ms: 145400\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145400\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149470\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149470\n  end_ms: 150830\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150830\n  end_ms: 153390\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153390\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155940\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155940\n  end_ms: 157520\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157520\n  end_ms: 159010\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159010\n  end_ms: 160560\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160560\n  end_ms: 161670\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161670\n  end_ms: 163250\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163250\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170920\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170920\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175330\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175330\n  end_ms: 178020\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178020\n  end_ms: 180570\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180570\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188500\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188500\n  end_ms: 191510\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191510\n  end_ms: 195120\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195120\n  end_ms: 197020\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197020\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199890\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199890\n  end_ms: 202860\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202860\n  end_ms: 204660\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204660\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208310\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208310\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213320\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213320\n  end_ms: 214840\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214840\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218650\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218650\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221230\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221230\n  end_ms: 222760\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222760\n  end_ms: 223750\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223750\n  end_ms: 224890\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224890\n  end_ms: 226720\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226720\n  end_ms: 229260\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229260\n  end_ms: 231870\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231870\n  end_ms: 233850\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233850\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236700\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236700\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242930\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242930\n  end_ms: 246300\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246300\n  end_ms: 248270\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248270\n  end_ms: 249850\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249850\n  end_ms: 251620\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251620\n  end_ms: 253400\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253400\n  end_ms: 256450\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256450\n  end_ms: 257510\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257510\n  end_ms: 259570\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259570\n  end_ms: 261710\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261710\n  end_ms: 264360\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264360\n  end_ms: 267190\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267190\n  end_ms: 269790\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269790\n  end_ms: 271170\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271170\n  end_ms: 272700\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272700\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277410\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277410\n  end_ms: 279120\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279120\n  end_ms: 280580\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280580\n  end_ms: 282500\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282500\n  end_ms: 284460\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284460\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288550\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288550\n  end_ms: 290650\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290650\n  end_ms: 292880\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292880\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300180\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300180\n  end_ms: 301740\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301740\n  end_ms: 303310\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303310\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313460\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313460\n  end_ms: 315690\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315690\n  end_ms: 316530\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316530\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319260\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319260\n  end_ms: 320860\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320860\n  end_ms: 323230\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323230\n  end_ms: 324850\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324850\n  end_ms: 325740\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325740\n  end_ms: 326700\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326700\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329470\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329470\n  end_ms: 331310\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331310\n  end_ms: 333380\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333380\n  end_ms: 334850\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334850\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340330\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340330\n  end_ms: 342610\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342610\n  end_ms: 343870\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343870\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349190\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349190\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352920\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352920\n  end_ms: 353730\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353730\n  end_ms: 355880\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355880\n  end_ms: 358250\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358250\n  end_ms: 359040\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359040\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362490\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362490\n  end_ms: 363620\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363620\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366150\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366150\n  end_ms: 367620\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367620\n  end_ms: 369010\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369010\n  end_ms: 370220\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370220\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373070\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373070\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378510\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378510\n  end_ms: 379750\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379750\n  end_ms: 381100\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381100\n  end_ms: 382580\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382580\n  end_ms: 383860\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383860\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386840\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386840\n  end_ms: 387980\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387980\n  end_ms: 389320\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389320\n  end_ms: 390650\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390650\n  end_ms: 393060\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393060\n  end_ms: 394610\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394610\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397550\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397550\n  end_ms: 398630\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398630\n  end_ms: 400180\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400180\n  end_ms: 401540\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401540\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404720\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404720\n  end_ms: 406740\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406740\n  end_ms: 408180\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408180\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412330\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412330\n  end_ms: 413530\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413530\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417850\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417850\n  end_ms: 420450\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420450\n  end_ms: 421970\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421970\n  end_ms: 423420\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423420\n  end_ms: 424610\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424610\n  end_ms: 426310\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426310\n  end_ms: 428140\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428140\n  end_ms: 433460\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433460\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442410\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442410\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445820\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445820\n  end_ms: 447530\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447530\n  end_ms: 450630\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450630\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456050\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456050\n  end_ms: 458390\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458390\n  end_ms: 461340\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461340\n  end_ms: 463990\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463990\n  end_ms: 466770\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466770\n  end_ms: 469280\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469280\n  end_ms: 471980\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471980\n  end_ms: 474700\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474700\n  end_ms: 476430\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476430\n  end_ms: 477870\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477870\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480560\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480560\n  end_ms: 484920\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484920\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488720\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488720\n  end_ms: 490370\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490370\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495830\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495830\n  end_ms: 496990\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496990\n  end_ms: 498550\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498550\n  end_ms: 500060\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500060\n  end_ms: 501310\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501310\n  end_ms: 503380\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503380\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507090\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507090\n  end_ms: 509010\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509010\n  end_ms: 510800\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510800\n  end_ms: 512530\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512530\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521550\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521550\n  end_ms: 522800\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522800\n  end_ms: 525210\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525210\n  end_ms: 528140\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528140\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533520\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533520\n  end_ms: 534670\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534670\n  end_ms: 536310\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536310\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539820\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539820\n  end_ms: 541930\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541930\n  end_ms: 544910\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544910\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565280\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565280\n  end_ms: 568780\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568780\n  end_ms: 571850\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571850\n  end_ms: 574540\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574540\n  end_ms: 578290\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578290\n  end_ms: 581540\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581540\n  end_ms: 584610\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584610\n  end_ms: 587190\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587190\n  end_ms: 591560\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591560\n  end_ms: 594820\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594820\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601040\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601040\n  end_ms: 605430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605430\n  end_ms: 622880\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622880\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629280\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629280\n  end_ms: 632540\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632540\n  end_ms: 634540\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634540\n  end_ms: 637000\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 637000\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644450\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644450\n  end_ms: 648140\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648140\n  end_ms: 654410\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654410\n  end_ms: 658130\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658130\n  end_ms: 660060\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660060\n  end_ms: 665050\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665050\n  end_ms: 666460\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666460\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":10725754,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave, Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave, Ruelle\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: 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text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40430\n  end_ms: 42030\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42030\n  end_ms: 43350\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43350\n  end_ms: 44700\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44700\n  end_ms: 45910\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45910\n  end_ms: 48440\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48440\n  end_ms: 51200\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51200\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59970\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59970\n  end_ms: 61710\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61710\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64420\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521520\n  end_ms: 522830\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522830\n  end_ms: 525240\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525240\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529990\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529990\n  end_ms: 531790\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531790\n  end_ms: 533590\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533590\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536360\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536360\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539840\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539840\n  end_ms: 541940\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541940\n  end_ms: 544920\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":34682252,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":557.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave Ruelle\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 557000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10390\n  end_ms: 13950\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13950\n  end_ms: 15960\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15960\n  end_ms: 19310\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  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48440\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48440\n  end_ms: 51200\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51200\n  end_ms: 54740\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54740\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59970\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59970\n  end_ms: 61710\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61710\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64420\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521520\n  end_ms: 522830\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522830\n  end_ms: 525240\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525240\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529990\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529990\n  end_ms: 531790\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531790\n  end_ms: 533590\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533590\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536360\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536360\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539840\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539840\n  end_ms: 541940\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541940\n  end_ms: 544920\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":3683979,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave feat. Ruelle","albumName":"Psychodrama","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.38] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.94] The same background or same place\n[00:19.30] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.39] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.02] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.68] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.65] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.31] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.72] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.48] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.05] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.95] But she said, she said\n[00:48.40] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.28] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.76] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.58] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.94] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.78] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.12] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.45] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.85] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.45] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.29] All the signs were there\n[01:22.72] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.14] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.68] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.65] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.03] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.33] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.78] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.15] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.87] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.52] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.31] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.86] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.22] More to the story than that\n[01:55.62] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.57] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.92] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.03] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.43] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.98] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.59] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.04] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.19] Cared for her\n[02:12.87] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.78] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.50] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.73] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.17] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.46] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.44] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.82] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.38] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.95] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.58] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.59] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.66] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.26] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.97] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.31] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.00] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.56] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.13] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.05] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.84] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.60] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.32] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.33] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.82] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.83] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.64] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.78] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.78] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.85] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.74] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.84] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.81] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.39] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.75] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.02] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.28] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.84] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.68] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.44] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.44] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.59] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.59] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.34] I don't know myself\n[04:27.12] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.73] It's 3:30\n[04:31.16] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.75] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.85] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.17] Have that conversation\n[04:40.50] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.59] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.47] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.08] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.57] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.62] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.82] Touched her destination\n[04:54.47] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.86] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.16] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.72] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.37] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.88] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.26] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.85] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.93] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.45] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.60] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.58] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.85] So she bursts in\n[05:19.29] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.84] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.28] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.81] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.75] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.33] You just wanna love\n[05:34.82] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.74] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.30] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.60] One more line, before\n[05:43.81] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.13] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.98] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.77] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.20] Fitter than me\n[05:59.03] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.04] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.46] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.10] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.69] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.06] And give it to me,\n[06:10.24] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.09] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.33] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.00] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.56] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.17] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.59] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.10] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.99] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.31] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.62] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.00] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.63] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.50] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.12] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.55] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.82] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.76] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.70] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.19] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.59] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.95] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.94] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.44] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.68] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.47] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.64] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.46] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.89] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.58] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.62] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.32] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.08] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.38] I don't know myself\n[07:41.30] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.90] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.23] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.72] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.45] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.98] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.97] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.76] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.32] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.34] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.95] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.59] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.38] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.33] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.48] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.05] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.03] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.87] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.58] You see, this time that\n[08:33.55] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.36] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.05] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.56] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.82] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.29] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.95] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.58] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.63] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.32] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.74] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.98] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.97] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.42] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.96] \n[09:18.43] Angel without wings\n[09:23.02] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.21] To bring her peace\n[09:28.79] A song without a voice\n[09:31.81] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.53] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.55] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.62] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.12] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.59] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.20] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.86] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.36] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.29] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.52] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.99] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.06] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.43] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.13] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.44] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.17] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.09] And are in control\n[11:06.50] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave feat. 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how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  start_ms: 38690\n  end_ms: 40480\n- text: How she hates what she does\n  start_ms: 40480\n  end_ms: 42050\n- text: But she needs it\n  start_ms: 42050\n  end_ms: 43340\n- text: I asked her what she would do\n  start_ms: 43340\n  end_ms: 44710\n- text: When it's the weekend\n  start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45950\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45950\n  end_ms: 48400\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48400\n  end_ms: 51280\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51280\n  end_ms: 54760\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54760\n  end_ms: 57580\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57580\n  end_ms: 59940\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59940\n  end_ms: 61780\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61780\n  end_ms: 63120\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63120\n  end_ms: 64450\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64450\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69850\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69850\n  end_ms: 71450\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71450\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81290\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81290\n  end_ms: 82720\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82720\n  end_ms: 85140\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85140\n  end_ms: 86680\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86680\n  end_ms: 88650\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88650\n  end_ms: 90030\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90030\n  end_ms: 91330\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91330\n  end_ms: 94780\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94780\n  end_ms: 97150\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97150\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102870\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102870\n  end_ms: 105520\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105520\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110310\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110310\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112860\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112860\n  end_ms: 114220\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114220\n  end_ms: 115620\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115620\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119570\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119570\n  end_ms: 120920\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120920\n  end_ms: 122030\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122030\n  end_ms: 123430\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123430\n  end_ms: 124980\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124980\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127590\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127590\n  end_ms: 129040\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129040\n  end_ms: 131190\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131190\n  end_ms: 132870\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132870\n  end_ms: 134780\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134780\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140500\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140500\n  end_ms: 142730\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142730\n  end_ms: 144170\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144170\n  end_ms: 145460\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145460\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149440\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149440\n  end_ms: 150820\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150820\n  end_ms: 153380\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153380\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155950\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155950\n  end_ms: 157580\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157580\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160590\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160590\n  end_ms: 161660\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161660\n  end_ms: 163260\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163260\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170970\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170970\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175310\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175310\n  end_ms: 178000\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178000\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188560\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188560\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195130\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195130\n  end_ms: 197050\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197050\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202840\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202840\n  end_ms: 204600\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204600\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208320\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208320\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213330\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213330\n  end_ms: 214820\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214820\n  end_ms: 215830\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215830\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218640\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218640\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222780\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222780\n  end_ms: 223780\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223780\n  end_ms: 224850\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224850\n  end_ms: 226740\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226740\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231840\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231840\n  end_ms: 233810\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233810\n  end_ms: 235390\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235390\n  end_ms: 236750\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236750\n  end_ms: 240020\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240020\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248280\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248280\n  end_ms: 249840\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249840\n  end_ms: 251680\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251680\n  end_ms: 253440\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253440\n  end_ms: 256440\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256440\n  end_ms: 257590\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257590\n  end_ms: 259590\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259590\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264340\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264340\n  end_ms: 267120\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267120\n  end_ms: 269730\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269730\n  end_ms: 271160\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271160\n  end_ms: 272750\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272750\n  end_ms: 274850\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274850\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279170\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279170\n  end_ms: 280500\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280500\n  end_ms: 282590\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282590\n  end_ms: 284470\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284470\n  end_ms: 287080\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287080\n  end_ms: 288570\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288570\n  end_ms: 290620\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290620\n  end_ms: 292820\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292820\n  end_ms: 294470\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294470\n  end_ms: 296860\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296860\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300160\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300160\n  end_ms: 301720\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301720\n  end_ms: 303370\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303370\n  end_ms: 305880\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305880\n  end_ms: 307260\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307260\n  end_ms: 309850\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309850\n  end_ms: 311930\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311930\n  end_ms: 313450\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313450\n  end_ms: 315600\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315600\n  end_ms: 316580\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316580\n  end_ms: 317850\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317850\n  end_ms: 319290\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319290\n  end_ms: 320840\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320840\n  end_ms: 323280\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323280\n  end_ms: 324810\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324810\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326750\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326750\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333330\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333330\n  end_ms: 334820\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334820\n  end_ms: 337740\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337740\n  end_ms: 340300\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340300\n  end_ms: 342600\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342600\n  end_ms: 343810\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343810\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349130\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349130\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352980\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352980\n  end_ms: 353770\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353770\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358200\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358200\n  end_ms: 359030\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359030\n  end_ms: 361040\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361040\n  end_ms: 362460\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362460\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366100\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366100\n  end_ms: 367690\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367690\n  end_ms: 369060\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369060\n  end_ms: 370240\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370240\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373090\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373090\n  end_ms: 374330\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374330\n  end_ms: 377000\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377000\n  end_ms: 378560\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378560\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381170\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381170\n  end_ms: 382590\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382590\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385100\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385100\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387990\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387990\n  end_ms: 389310\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389310\n  end_ms: 390620\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390620\n  end_ms: 393000\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393000\n  end_ms: 394630\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394630\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397500\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397500\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400120\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400120\n  end_ms: 401550\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401550\n  end_ms: 402820\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402820\n  end_ms: 404760\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404760\n  end_ms: 406700\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406700\n  end_ms: 408190\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408190\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413590\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413590\n  end_ms: 414950\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414950\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421940\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421940\n  end_ms: 423440\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423440\n  end_ms: 424680\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424680\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433470\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433470\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440640\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440640\n  end_ms: 442460\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442460\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445890\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445890\n  end_ms: 447580\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447580\n  end_ms: 450620\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450620\n  end_ms: 453320\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453320\n  end_ms: 456080\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456080\n  end_ms: 458380\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458380\n  end_ms: 461300\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461300\n  end_ms: 463900\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463900\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469230\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469230\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474720\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474720\n  end_ms: 476450\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476450\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478980\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478980\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484970\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484970\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488760\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488760\n  end_ms: 490320\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490320\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494340\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494340\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496950\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496950\n  end_ms: 498590\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498590\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501380\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501380\n  end_ms: 503330\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503330\n  end_ms: 505480\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505480\n  end_ms: 507050\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507050\n  end_ms: 509030\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509030\n  end_ms: 510870\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510870\n  end_ms: 512580\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512580\n  end_ms: 513550\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513550\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517360\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517360\n  end_ms: 520050\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520050\n  end_ms: 521560\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521560\n  end_ms: 522820\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522820\n  end_ms: 525290\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525290\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529950\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529950\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533580\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533580\n  end_ms: 534630\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534630\n  end_ms: 536320\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536320\n  end_ms: 538740\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538740\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541980\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541980\n  end_ms: 544970\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544970\n  end_ms: 547420\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547420\n  end_ms: 550960\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550960\n  end_ms: 558430\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558430\n  end_ms: 563020\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563020\n  end_ms: 565210\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565210\n  end_ms: 568790\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568790\n  end_ms: 571810\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571810\n  end_ms: 574530\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574530\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581550\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581550\n  end_ms: 584620\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584620\n  end_ms: 587120\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587120\n  end_ms: 591590\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591590\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597200\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597200\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622860\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622860\n  end_ms: 625360\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625360\n  end_ms: 629290\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629290\n  end_ms: 632520\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632520\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636990\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636990\n  end_ms: 641060\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641060\n  end_ms: 644430\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644430\n  end_ms: 648130\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648130\n  end_ms: 654440\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654440\n  end_ms: 658170\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658170\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665090\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665090\n  end_ms: 666500\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666500\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":35236744,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave 및 Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.37] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.98] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.33] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.06] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.62] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.67] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.36] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.67] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.44] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.36] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.99] But she said, she said\n[00:48.43] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.77] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.93] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.74] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.49] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.89] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.49] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.86] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.46] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.75] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.22] All the signs were there\n[01:22.77] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.18] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.60] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.64] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.00] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.37] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.76] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.17] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.27] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.83] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.50] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.93] He was all that she had\n[01:50.30] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.42] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.83] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.24] More to the story than that\n[01:55.64] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.91] But according to that\n[01:58.26] He went missing one day\n[01:59.58] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.09] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.47] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.48] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.54] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.02] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.45] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.56] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.75] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.14] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.40] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.47] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.83] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.39] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.94] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.52] Young and neglected\n[02:39.01] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.56] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.67] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.25] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.92] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.33] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.02] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.57] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.50] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.51] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.12] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.02] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.89] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.86] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.66] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.31] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.32] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.84] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.65] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.23] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.76] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.75] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.89] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.72] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.26] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.87] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.85] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.70] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.93] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.30] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.27] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.85] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.62] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.40] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.45] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.51] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.57] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.71] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.36] I don't know myself\n[04:27.19] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.79] It's 3:30\n[04:31.17] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.70] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.41] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.12] Have that conversation\n[04:40.58] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.50] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.46] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.55] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.65] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.88] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.18] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.74] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.31] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.46] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.69] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.53] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.26] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.86] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.23] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.85] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.74] What the fuck?\n[05:26.70] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.47] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.31] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.38] You just wanna love\n[05:34.85] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.33] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.61] One more line, before\n[05:43.87] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.19] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.92] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.73] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.88] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.25] Fitter than me\n[05:59.04] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.49] And you did this to me\n[06:03.62] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.15] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.62] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.01] And give it to me,\n[06:10.22] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.07] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.51] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.75] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.10] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.58] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.86] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.84] Quick as could be\n[06:27.98] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.32] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.65] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.06] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.61] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.55] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.63] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.18] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.54] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.72] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.74] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.18] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.33] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.53] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.85] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.45] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.97] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.42] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.61] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.31] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.14] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.46] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.41] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.82] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.53] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.63] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.05] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.39] I don't know myself\n[07:41.34] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.99] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.77] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.28] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.98] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.70] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.43] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.87] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.56] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.92] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.72] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.37] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.83] She's dozing off\n[08:16.99] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.55] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.06] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.31] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.38] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.09] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.01] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.80] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.53] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.55] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.80] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.21] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.14] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.52] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.67] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.31] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.82] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.93] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.91] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.28] To bring her peace\n[09:28.78] A song without a voice\n[09:31.85] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.54] A child without a name\n[09:38.29] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.54] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.61] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.19] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.56] A song without a voice\n[09:54.82] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.04] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.43] \n[10:22.88] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.28] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.54] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.54] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:37.00] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.45] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.14] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.41] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.13] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.06] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.05] And are in control\n[11:06.46] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave 및 Ruelle\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10370\n  end_ms: 13980\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13980\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  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start_ms: 44710\n  end_ms: 45990\n- text: But she said, she said\n  start_ms: 45990\n  end_ms: 48430\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 48430\n  end_ms: 51220\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 51220\n  end_ms: 54770\n- text: She used to be the life of the party for true\n  start_ms: 54770\n  end_ms: 57520\n- text: But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  start_ms: 57520\n  end_ms: 59930\n- text: Her man got her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59930\n  end_ms: 61740\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61740\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64490\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64490\n  end_ms: 65890\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65890\n  end_ms: 68490\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68490\n  end_ms: 69860\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69860\n  end_ms: 71460\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71460\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75750\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75750\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81220\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81220\n  end_ms: 82770\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82770\n  end_ms: 85180\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85180\n  end_ms: 86600\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86600\n  end_ms: 88640\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88640\n  end_ms: 90000\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90000\n  end_ms: 91370\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91370\n  end_ms: 94760\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94760\n  end_ms: 97170\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97170\n  end_ms: 100270\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100270\n  end_ms: 102830\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102830\n  end_ms: 105500\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105500\n  end_ms: 108930\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108930\n  end_ms: 110300\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110300\n  end_ms: 111420\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111420\n  end_ms: 112830\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112830\n  end_ms: 114240\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114240\n  end_ms: 115640\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115640\n  end_ms: 116910\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116910\n  end_ms: 118260\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118260\n  end_ms: 119580\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119580\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122090\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122090\n  end_ms: 123470\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123470\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126480\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126480\n  end_ms: 127540\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127540\n  end_ms: 129020\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129020\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137450\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137450\n  end_ms: 140560\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140560\n  end_ms: 142750\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142750\n  end_ms: 144140\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144140\n  end_ms: 145400\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145400\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149470\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149470\n  end_ms: 150830\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150830\n  end_ms: 153390\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153390\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155940\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155940\n  end_ms: 157520\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157520\n  end_ms: 159010\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159010\n  end_ms: 160560\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160560\n  end_ms: 161670\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161670\n  end_ms: 163250\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163250\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170920\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170920\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175330\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175330\n  end_ms: 178020\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178020\n  end_ms: 180570\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180570\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188500\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188500\n  end_ms: 191510\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191510\n  end_ms: 195120\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195120\n  end_ms: 197020\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197020\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199890\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199890\n  end_ms: 202860\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202860\n  end_ms: 204660\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204660\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208310\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208310\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213320\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213320\n  end_ms: 214840\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214840\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218650\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218650\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221230\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221230\n  end_ms: 222760\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222760\n  end_ms: 223750\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223750\n  end_ms: 224890\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224890\n  end_ms: 226720\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226720\n  end_ms: 229260\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229260\n  end_ms: 231870\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231870\n  end_ms: 233850\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233850\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236700\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236700\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242930\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242930\n  end_ms: 246300\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246300\n  end_ms: 248270\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248270\n  end_ms: 249850\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249850\n  end_ms: 251620\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251620\n  end_ms: 253400\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253400\n  end_ms: 256450\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256450\n  end_ms: 257510\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257510\n  end_ms: 259570\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259570\n  end_ms: 261710\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261710\n  end_ms: 264360\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264360\n  end_ms: 267190\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267190\n  end_ms: 269790\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269790\n  end_ms: 271170\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271170\n  end_ms: 272700\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272700\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277410\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277410\n  end_ms: 279120\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279120\n  end_ms: 280580\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280580\n  end_ms: 282500\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282500\n  end_ms: 284460\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284460\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288550\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288550\n  end_ms: 290650\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290650\n  end_ms: 292880\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292880\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300180\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300180\n  end_ms: 301740\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301740\n  end_ms: 303310\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303310\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313460\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313460\n  end_ms: 315690\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315690\n  end_ms: 316530\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316530\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319260\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319260\n  end_ms: 320860\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320860\n  end_ms: 323230\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323230\n  end_ms: 324850\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324850\n  end_ms: 325740\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325740\n  end_ms: 326700\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326700\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329470\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329470\n  end_ms: 331310\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331310\n  end_ms: 333380\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333380\n  end_ms: 334850\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334850\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340330\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340330\n  end_ms: 342610\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342610\n  end_ms: 343870\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343870\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349190\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349190\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352920\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352920\n  end_ms: 353730\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353730\n  end_ms: 355880\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355880\n  end_ms: 358250\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358250\n  end_ms: 359040\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359040\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362490\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362490\n  end_ms: 363620\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363620\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366150\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366150\n  end_ms: 367620\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367620\n  end_ms: 369010\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369010\n  end_ms: 370220\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370220\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373070\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373070\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378510\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378510\n  end_ms: 379750\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379750\n  end_ms: 381100\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381100\n  end_ms: 382580\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382580\n  end_ms: 383860\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383860\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386840\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386840\n  end_ms: 387980\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387980\n  end_ms: 389320\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389320\n  end_ms: 390650\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390650\n  end_ms: 393060\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393060\n  end_ms: 394610\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394610\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397550\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397550\n  end_ms: 398630\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398630\n  end_ms: 400180\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400180\n  end_ms: 401540\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401540\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404720\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404720\n  end_ms: 406740\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406740\n  end_ms: 408180\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408180\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412330\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412330\n  end_ms: 413530\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413530\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417850\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417850\n  end_ms: 420450\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420450\n  end_ms: 421970\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421970\n  end_ms: 423420\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423420\n  end_ms: 424610\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424610\n  end_ms: 426310\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426310\n  end_ms: 428140\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428140\n  end_ms: 433460\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433460\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442410\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442410\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445820\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445820\n  end_ms: 447530\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447530\n  end_ms: 450630\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450630\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456050\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456050\n  end_ms: 458390\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458390\n  end_ms: 461340\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461340\n  end_ms: 463990\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463990\n  end_ms: 466770\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466770\n  end_ms: 469280\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469280\n  end_ms: 471980\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471980\n  end_ms: 474700\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474700\n  end_ms: 476430\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476430\n  end_ms: 477870\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477870\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480560\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480560\n  end_ms: 484920\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484920\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488720\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488720\n  end_ms: 490370\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490370\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495830\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495830\n  end_ms: 496990\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496990\n  end_ms: 498550\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498550\n  end_ms: 500060\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500060\n  end_ms: 501310\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501310\n  end_ms: 503380\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503380\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507090\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507090\n  end_ms: 509010\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509010\n  end_ms: 510800\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510800\n  end_ms: 512530\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512530\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521550\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521550\n  end_ms: 522800\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522800\n  end_ms: 525210\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525210\n  end_ms: 528140\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528140\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533520\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533520\n  end_ms: 534670\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534670\n  end_ms: 536310\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536310\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539820\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539820\n  end_ms: 541930\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541930\n  end_ms: 544910\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544910\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565280\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565280\n  end_ms: 568780\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568780\n  end_ms: 571850\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571850\n  end_ms: 574540\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574540\n  end_ms: 578290\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578290\n  end_ms: 581540\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581540\n  end_ms: 584610\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584610\n  end_ms: 587190\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587190\n  end_ms: 591560\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591560\n  end_ms: 594820\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594820\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601040\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601040\n  end_ms: 605430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605430\n  end_ms: 622880\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622880\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629280\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629280\n  end_ms: 632540\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632540\n  end_ms: 634540\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634540\n  end_ms: 637000\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 637000\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644450\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644450\n  end_ms: 648140\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648140\n  end_ms: 654410\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654410\n  end_ms: 658130\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658130\n  end_ms: 660060\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660060\n  end_ms: 665050\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665050\n  end_ms: 666460\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666460\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":34790653,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave and Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.37] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.98] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.33] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.06] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.62] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.67] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.36] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.67] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.44] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.36] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.99] But she said, she said\n[00:48.43] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.77] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.93] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.74] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.49] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.89] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.49] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.86] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.46] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.75] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.22] All the signs were there\n[01:22.77] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.18] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.60] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.64] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.00] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.37] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.76] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.17] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.27] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.83] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.50] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.93] He was all that she had\n[01:50.30] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.42] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.83] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.24] More to the story than that\n[01:55.64] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.91] But according to that\n[01:58.26] He went missing one day\n[01:59.58] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.09] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.47] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.48] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.54] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.02] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.45] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.56] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.75] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.14] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.40] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.47] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.83] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.39] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.94] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.52] Young and neglected\n[02:39.01] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.56] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.67] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.25] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.92] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.33] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.02] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.57] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.50] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.51] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.12] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.02] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.89] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.86] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.66] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.31] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.32] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.84] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.65] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.23] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.76] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.75] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.89] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.72] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.26] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.87] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.85] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.70] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.93] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.30] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.27] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.85] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.62] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.40] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.45] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.51] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.57] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.71] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.36] I don't know myself\n[04:27.19] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.79] It's 3:30\n[04:31.17] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.70] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.41] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.12] Have that conversation\n[04:40.58] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.50] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.46] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.55] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.65] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.88] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.18] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.74] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.31] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.46] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.69] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.53] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.26] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.86] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.23] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.85] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.74] What the fuck?\n[05:26.70] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.47] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.31] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.38] You just wanna love\n[05:34.85] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.33] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.61] One more line, before\n[05:43.87] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.19] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.92] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.73] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.88] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.25] Fitter than me\n[05:59.04] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.49] And you did this to me\n[06:03.62] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.15] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.62] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.01] And give it to me,\n[06:10.22] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.07] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.51] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.75] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.10] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.58] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.86] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.84] Quick as could be\n[06:27.98] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.32] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.65] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.06] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.61] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.55] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.63] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.18] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.54] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.72] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.74] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.18] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.33] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.53] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.85] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.45] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.97] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.42] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.61] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.31] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.14] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.46] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.41] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.82] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.53] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.63] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.05] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.39] I don't know myself\n[07:41.34] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.99] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.77] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.28] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.98] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.70] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.43] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.87] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.56] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.92] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.72] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.37] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.83] She's dozing off\n[08:16.99] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.55] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.06] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.31] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.38] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.09] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.01] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.80] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.53] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.55] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.80] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.21] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.14] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.52] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.67] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.31] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.82] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.93] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.91] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.28] To bring her peace\n[09:28.78] A song without a voice\n[09:31.85] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.54] A child without a name\n[09:38.29] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.54] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.61] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.19] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.56] A song without a voice\n[09:54.82] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.04] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.43] \n[10:22.88] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.28] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.54] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.54] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:37.00] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.45] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.14] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.41] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.13] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.06] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.05] And are in control\n[11:06.46] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave and Ruelle\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: false\nlines:\n- text: Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  start_ms: 10370\n  end_ms: 13980\n- text: And it must be true because we ain't from\n  start_ms: 13980\n  end_ms: 15930\n- text: The same background or same place\n  start_ms: 15930\n  end_ms: 19330\n- text: But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  start_ms: 19330\n  end_ms: 22380\n- text: I'm talkin' every day\n  start_ms: 22380\n  end_ms: 24060\n- text: I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  start_ms: 24060\n  end_ms: 26620\n- text: To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  start_ms: 26620\n  end_ms: 29670\n- text: Two different worlds in the same location\n  start_ms: 29670\n  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her in the yard forever\n  start_ms: 59930\n  end_ms: 61740\n- text: And her friends wanna help\n  start_ms: 61740\n  end_ms: 63130\n- text: But it's hard to tell her\n  start_ms: 63130\n  end_ms: 64490\n- text: Hard to let her know that\n  start_ms: 64490\n  end_ms: 65890\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65890\n  end_ms: 68490\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68490\n  end_ms: 69860\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69860\n  end_ms: 71460\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71460\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75750\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75750\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81220\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81220\n  end_ms: 82770\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82770\n  end_ms: 85180\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85180\n  end_ms: 86600\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86600\n  end_ms: 88640\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88640\n  end_ms: 90000\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90000\n  end_ms: 91370\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91370\n  end_ms: 94760\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94760\n  end_ms: 97170\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97170\n  end_ms: 100270\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100270\n  end_ms: 102830\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102830\n  end_ms: 105500\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105500\n  end_ms: 108930\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108930\n  end_ms: 110300\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110300\n  end_ms: 111420\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111420\n  end_ms: 112830\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112830\n  end_ms: 114240\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114240\n  end_ms: 115640\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115640\n  end_ms: 116910\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116910\n  end_ms: 118260\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118260\n  end_ms: 119580\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119580\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122090\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122090\n  end_ms: 123470\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123470\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126480\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126480\n  end_ms: 127540\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127540\n  end_ms: 129020\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129020\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137450\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137450\n  end_ms: 140560\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140560\n  end_ms: 142750\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142750\n  end_ms: 144140\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144140\n  end_ms: 145400\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145400\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149470\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149470\n  end_ms: 150830\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150830\n  end_ms: 153390\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153390\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155940\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155940\n  end_ms: 157520\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157520\n  end_ms: 159010\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159010\n  end_ms: 160560\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160560\n  end_ms: 161670\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161670\n  end_ms: 163250\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163250\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170920\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170920\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175330\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175330\n  end_ms: 178020\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178020\n  end_ms: 180570\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180570\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188500\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188500\n  end_ms: 191510\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191510\n  end_ms: 195120\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195120\n  end_ms: 197020\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197020\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199890\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199890\n  end_ms: 202860\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202860\n  end_ms: 204660\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204660\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208310\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208310\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213320\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213320\n  end_ms: 214840\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214840\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218650\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218650\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221230\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221230\n  end_ms: 222760\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222760\n  end_ms: 223750\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223750\n  end_ms: 224890\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224890\n  end_ms: 226720\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226720\n  end_ms: 229260\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229260\n  end_ms: 231870\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231870\n  end_ms: 233850\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233850\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236700\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236700\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242930\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242930\n  end_ms: 246300\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246300\n  end_ms: 248270\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248270\n  end_ms: 249850\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249850\n  end_ms: 251620\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251620\n  end_ms: 253400\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253400\n  end_ms: 256450\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256450\n  end_ms: 257510\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257510\n  end_ms: 259570\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259570\n  end_ms: 261710\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261710\n  end_ms: 264360\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264360\n  end_ms: 267190\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267190\n  end_ms: 269790\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269790\n  end_ms: 271170\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271170\n  end_ms: 272700\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272700\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277410\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277410\n  end_ms: 279120\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279120\n  end_ms: 280580\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280580\n  end_ms: 282500\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282500\n  end_ms: 284460\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284460\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288550\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288550\n  end_ms: 290650\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290650\n  end_ms: 292880\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292880\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300180\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300180\n  end_ms: 301740\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301740\n  end_ms: 303310\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303310\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313460\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313460\n  end_ms: 315690\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315690\n  end_ms: 316530\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316530\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319260\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319260\n  end_ms: 320860\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320860\n  end_ms: 323230\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323230\n  end_ms: 324850\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324850\n  end_ms: 325740\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325740\n  end_ms: 326700\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326700\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329470\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329470\n  end_ms: 331310\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331310\n  end_ms: 333380\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333380\n  end_ms: 334850\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334850\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340330\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340330\n  end_ms: 342610\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342610\n  end_ms: 343870\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343870\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349190\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349190\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352920\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352920\n  end_ms: 353730\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353730\n  end_ms: 355880\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355880\n  end_ms: 358250\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358250\n  end_ms: 359040\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359040\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362490\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362490\n  end_ms: 363620\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363620\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366150\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366150\n  end_ms: 367620\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367620\n  end_ms: 369010\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369010\n  end_ms: 370220\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370220\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373070\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373070\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378510\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378510\n  end_ms: 379750\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379750\n  end_ms: 381100\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381100\n  end_ms: 382580\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382580\n  end_ms: 383860\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383860\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386840\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386840\n  end_ms: 387980\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387980\n  end_ms: 389320\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389320\n  end_ms: 390650\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390650\n  end_ms: 393060\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393060\n  end_ms: 394610\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394610\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397550\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397550\n  end_ms: 398630\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398630\n  end_ms: 400180\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400180\n  end_ms: 401540\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401540\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404720\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404720\n  end_ms: 406740\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406740\n  end_ms: 408180\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408180\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412330\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412330\n  end_ms: 413530\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413530\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417850\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417850\n  end_ms: 420450\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420450\n  end_ms: 421970\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421970\n  end_ms: 423420\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423420\n  end_ms: 424610\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424610\n  end_ms: 426310\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426310\n  end_ms: 428140\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428140\n  end_ms: 433460\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433460\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442410\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442410\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445820\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445820\n  end_ms: 447530\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447530\n  end_ms: 450630\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450630\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456050\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456050\n  end_ms: 458390\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458390\n  end_ms: 461340\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461340\n  end_ms: 463990\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463990\n  end_ms: 466770\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466770\n  end_ms: 469280\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469280\n  end_ms: 471980\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471980\n  end_ms: 474700\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474700\n  end_ms: 476430\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476430\n  end_ms: 477870\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477870\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480560\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480560\n  end_ms: 484920\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484920\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488720\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488720\n  end_ms: 490370\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490370\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495830\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495830\n  end_ms: 496990\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496990\n  end_ms: 498550\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498550\n  end_ms: 500060\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500060\n  end_ms: 501310\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501310\n  end_ms: 503380\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503380\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507090\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507090\n  end_ms: 509010\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509010\n  end_ms: 510800\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510800\n  end_ms: 512530\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512530\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521550\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521550\n  end_ms: 522800\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522800\n  end_ms: 525210\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525210\n  end_ms: 528140\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528140\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533520\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533520\n  end_ms: 534670\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534670\n  end_ms: 536310\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536310\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539820\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539820\n  end_ms: 541930\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541930\n  end_ms: 544910\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544910\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565280\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565280\n  end_ms: 568780\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568780\n  end_ms: 571850\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571850\n  end_ms: 574540\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574540\n  end_ms: 578290\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578290\n  end_ms: 581540\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581540\n  end_ms: 584610\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584610\n  end_ms: 587190\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587190\n  end_ms: 591560\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591560\n  end_ms: 594820\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594820\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601040\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601040\n  end_ms: 605430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605430\n  end_ms: 622880\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622880\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629280\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629280\n  end_ms: 632540\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632540\n  end_ms: 634540\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634540\n  end_ms: 637000\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 637000\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644450\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644450\n  end_ms: 648140\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648140\n  end_ms: 654410\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654410\n  end_ms: 658130\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658130\n  end_ms: 660060\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660060\n  end_ms: 665050\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665050\n  end_ms: 666460\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666460\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":35554120,"name":"Lesley","trackName":"Lesley","artistName":"Dave i Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.37] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.98] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.33] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.06] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.62] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.67] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.36] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.67] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.44] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.36] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.99] But she said, she said\n[00:48.43] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.77] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.93] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.74] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.49] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.89] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.49] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.86] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.46] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.75] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.22] All the signs were there\n[01:22.77] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.18] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.60] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.64] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.00] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.37] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.76] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.17] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.27] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.83] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.50] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.93] He was all that she had\n[01:50.30] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.42] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.83] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.24] More to the story than that\n[01:55.64] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.91] But according to that\n[01:58.26] He went missing one day\n[01:59.58] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.09] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.47] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.48] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.54] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.02] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.45] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.56] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.75] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.14] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.40] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.47] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.83] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.39] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.94] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.52] Young and neglected\n[02:39.01] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.56] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.67] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.25] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.92] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.33] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.02] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.57] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.50] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.51] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.12] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.02] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.89] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.86] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.66] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.31] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.32] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.84] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.65] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.23] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.76] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.75] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.89] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.72] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.26] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.87] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.85] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.70] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.93] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.30] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.27] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.85] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.62] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.40] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.45] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.51] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.57] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.71] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.36] I don't know myself\n[04:27.19] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.79] It's 3:30\n[04:31.17] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.70] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.41] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.12] Have that conversation\n[04:40.58] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.50] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.46] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.55] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.65] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.88] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.18] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.74] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.31] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.46] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.69] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.53] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.26] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.86] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.23] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.85] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.74] What the fuck?\n[05:26.70] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.47] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.31] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.38] You just wanna love\n[05:34.85] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.33] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.61] One more line, before\n[05:43.87] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.19] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.92] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.73] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.88] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.25] Fitter than me\n[05:59.04] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.49] And you did this to me\n[06:03.62] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.15] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.62] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.01] And give it to me,\n[06:10.22] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.07] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.51] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.75] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.10] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.58] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.86] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.84] Quick as could be\n[06:27.98] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.32] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.65] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.06] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.61] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.55] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.63] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.18] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.54] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.72] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.74] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.18] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.33] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.53] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.85] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.45] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.97] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.42] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.61] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.31] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.14] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.46] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.41] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.82] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.53] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.63] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.05] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.39] I don't know myself\n[07:41.34] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.99] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.77] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.28] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.98] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.70] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.43] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.87] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.56] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.92] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.72] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.37] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.83] She's dozing off\n[08:16.99] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.55] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.06] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.31] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.38] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.09] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.01] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.80] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.53] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.55] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.80] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.21] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.14] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.52] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.67] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.31] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.82] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.93] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.91] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.28] To bring her peace\n[09:28.78] A song without a voice\n[09:31.85] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.54] A child without a name\n[09:38.29] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.54] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.61] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.19] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.56] A song without a voice\n[09:54.82] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.04] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.43] \n[10:22.88] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.28] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.54] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.54] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:37.00] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.45] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.14] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.41] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.13] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.06] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.05] And are in control\n[11:06.46] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley\n  artist: Dave i Ruelle\n  album: PSYCHODRAMA\n  duration_ms: 668000\n  instrumental: 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start_ms: 65890\n  end_ms: 68490\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68490\n  end_ms: 69860\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69860\n  end_ms: 71460\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71460\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75750\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75750\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81220\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81220\n  end_ms: 82770\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82770\n  end_ms: 85180\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85180\n  end_ms: 86600\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86600\n  end_ms: 88640\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88640\n  end_ms: 90000\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90000\n  end_ms: 91370\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91370\n  end_ms: 94760\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94760\n  end_ms: 97170\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97170\n  end_ms: 100270\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100270\n  end_ms: 102830\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102830\n  end_ms: 105500\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105500\n  end_ms: 108930\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108930\n  end_ms: 110300\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110300\n  end_ms: 111420\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111420\n  end_ms: 112830\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112830\n  end_ms: 114240\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114240\n  end_ms: 115640\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115640\n  end_ms: 116910\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116910\n  end_ms: 118260\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118260\n  end_ms: 119580\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119580\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122090\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122090\n  end_ms: 123470\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123470\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126480\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126480\n  end_ms: 127540\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127540\n  end_ms: 129020\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129020\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137450\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137450\n  end_ms: 140560\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140560\n  end_ms: 142750\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142750\n  end_ms: 144140\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144140\n  end_ms: 145400\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145400\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149470\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149470\n  end_ms: 150830\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150830\n  end_ms: 153390\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153390\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155940\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155940\n  end_ms: 157520\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157520\n  end_ms: 159010\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159010\n  end_ms: 160560\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160560\n  end_ms: 161670\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161670\n  end_ms: 163250\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163250\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170920\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170920\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175330\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175330\n  end_ms: 178020\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178020\n  end_ms: 180570\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180570\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188500\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188500\n  end_ms: 191510\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191510\n  end_ms: 195120\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195120\n  end_ms: 197020\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197020\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199890\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199890\n  end_ms: 202860\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202860\n  end_ms: 204660\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204660\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208310\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208310\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213320\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213320\n  end_ms: 214840\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214840\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218650\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218650\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221230\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221230\n  end_ms: 222760\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222760\n  end_ms: 223750\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223750\n  end_ms: 224890\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224890\n  end_ms: 226720\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226720\n  end_ms: 229260\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229260\n  end_ms: 231870\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231870\n  end_ms: 233850\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233850\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236700\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236700\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242930\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242930\n  end_ms: 246300\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246300\n  end_ms: 248270\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248270\n  end_ms: 249850\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249850\n  end_ms: 251620\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251620\n  end_ms: 253400\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253400\n  end_ms: 256450\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256450\n  end_ms: 257510\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257510\n  end_ms: 259570\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259570\n  end_ms: 261710\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261710\n  end_ms: 264360\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264360\n  end_ms: 267190\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267190\n  end_ms: 269790\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269790\n  end_ms: 271170\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271170\n  end_ms: 272700\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272700\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277410\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277410\n  end_ms: 279120\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279120\n  end_ms: 280580\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280580\n  end_ms: 282500\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282500\n  end_ms: 284460\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284460\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288550\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288550\n  end_ms: 290650\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290650\n  end_ms: 292880\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292880\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300180\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300180\n  end_ms: 301740\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301740\n  end_ms: 303310\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303310\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313460\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313460\n  end_ms: 315690\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315690\n  end_ms: 316530\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316530\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319260\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319260\n  end_ms: 320860\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320860\n  end_ms: 323230\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323230\n  end_ms: 324850\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324850\n  end_ms: 325740\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325740\n  end_ms: 326700\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326700\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329470\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329470\n  end_ms: 331310\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331310\n  end_ms: 333380\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333380\n  end_ms: 334850\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334850\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340330\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340330\n  end_ms: 342610\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342610\n  end_ms: 343870\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343870\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349190\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349190\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352920\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352920\n  end_ms: 353730\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353730\n  end_ms: 355880\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355880\n  end_ms: 358250\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358250\n  end_ms: 359040\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359040\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362490\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362490\n  end_ms: 363620\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363620\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366150\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366150\n  end_ms: 367620\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367620\n  end_ms: 369010\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369010\n  end_ms: 370220\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370220\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373070\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373070\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378510\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378510\n  end_ms: 379750\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379750\n  end_ms: 381100\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381100\n  end_ms: 382580\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382580\n  end_ms: 383860\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383860\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386840\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386840\n  end_ms: 387980\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387980\n  end_ms: 389320\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389320\n  end_ms: 390650\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390650\n  end_ms: 393060\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393060\n  end_ms: 394610\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394610\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397550\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397550\n  end_ms: 398630\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398630\n  end_ms: 400180\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400180\n  end_ms: 401540\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401540\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404720\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404720\n  end_ms: 406740\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406740\n  end_ms: 408180\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408180\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412330\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412330\n  end_ms: 413530\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413530\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417850\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417850\n  end_ms: 420450\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420450\n  end_ms: 421970\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421970\n  end_ms: 423420\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423420\n  end_ms: 424610\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424610\n  end_ms: 426310\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426310\n  end_ms: 428140\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428140\n  end_ms: 433460\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433460\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442410\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442410\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445820\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445820\n  end_ms: 447530\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447530\n  end_ms: 450630\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450630\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456050\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456050\n  end_ms: 458390\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458390\n  end_ms: 461340\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461340\n  end_ms: 463990\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463990\n  end_ms: 466770\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466770\n  end_ms: 469280\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469280\n  end_ms: 471980\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471980\n  end_ms: 474700\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474700\n  end_ms: 476430\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476430\n  end_ms: 477870\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477870\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480560\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480560\n  end_ms: 484920\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484920\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488720\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488720\n  end_ms: 490370\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490370\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495830\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495830\n  end_ms: 496990\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496990\n  end_ms: 498550\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498550\n  end_ms: 500060\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500060\n  end_ms: 501310\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501310\n  end_ms: 503380\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503380\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507090\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507090\n  end_ms: 509010\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509010\n  end_ms: 510800\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510800\n  end_ms: 512530\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512530\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521550\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521550\n  end_ms: 522800\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522800\n  end_ms: 525210\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525210\n  end_ms: 528140\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528140\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533520\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533520\n  end_ms: 534670\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534670\n  end_ms: 536310\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536310\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539820\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539820\n  end_ms: 541930\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541930\n  end_ms: 544910\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544910\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565280\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565280\n  end_ms: 568780\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568780\n  end_ms: 571850\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571850\n  end_ms: 574540\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574540\n  end_ms: 578290\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578290\n  end_ms: 581540\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581540\n  end_ms: 584610\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584610\n  end_ms: 587190\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587190\n  end_ms: 591560\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591560\n  end_ms: 594820\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594820\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601040\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601040\n  end_ms: 605430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605430\n  end_ms: 622880\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622880\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629280\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629280\n  end_ms: 632540\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632540\n  end_ms: 634540\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634540\n  end_ms: 637000\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 637000\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644450\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644450\n  end_ms: 648140\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648140\n  end_ms: 654410\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654410\n  end_ms: 658130\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658130\n  end_ms: 660060\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660060\n  end_ms: 665050\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665050\n  end_ms: 666460\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666460\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":4536335,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.38] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.94] The same background or same place\n[00:19.30] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.39] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.02] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.68] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.65] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.31] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.72] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.48] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.05] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.95] But she said, she said\n[00:48.40] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.28] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.76] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.58] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.94] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.78] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.12] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.45] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.85] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.45] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.29] All the signs were there\n[01:22.72] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.14] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.68] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.65] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.03] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.33] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.78] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.15] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.87] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.52] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.31] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.86] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.22] More to the story than that\n[01:55.62] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.57] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.92] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.03] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.43] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.98] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.59] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.04] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.19] Cared for her\n[02:12.87] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.78] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.50] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.73] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.17] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.46] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.44] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.82] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.38] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.95] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.58] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.59] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.66] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.26] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.97] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.31] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.00] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.56] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.13] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.05] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.84] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.60] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.32] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.33] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.82] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.83] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.64] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.78] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.78] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.85] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.74] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.84] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.81] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.39] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.75] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.02] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.28] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.84] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.68] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.44] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.44] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.59] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.59] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.34] I don't know myself\n[04:27.12] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.73] It's 3:30\n[04:31.16] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.75] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.85] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.17] Have that conversation\n[04:40.50] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.59] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.47] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.08] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.57] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.62] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.82] Touched her destination\n[04:54.47] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.86] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.16] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.72] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.37] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.88] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.26] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.85] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.93] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.45] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.60] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.58] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.85] So she bursts in\n[05:19.29] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.84] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.28] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.81] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.75] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.33] You just wanna love\n[05:34.82] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.74] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.30] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.60] One more line, before\n[05:43.81] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.13] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.98] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.77] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.20] Fitter than me\n[05:59.03] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.04] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.46] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.10] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.69] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.06] And give it to me,\n[06:10.24] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.09] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.33] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.00] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.56] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.17] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.59] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.10] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.99] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.31] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.62] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.00] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.63] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.50] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.12] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.55] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.82] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.76] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.70] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.19] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.59] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.95] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.94] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.44] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.68] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.47] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.64] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.46] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.89] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.58] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.62] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.32] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.08] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.38] I don't know myself\n[07:41.30] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.90] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.23] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.72] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.45] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.98] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.97] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.76] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.32] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.34] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.95] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.59] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.38] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.33] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.48] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.05] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.03] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.87] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.58] You see, this time that\n[08:33.55] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.36] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.05] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.56] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.82] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.29] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.95] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.58] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.63] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.32] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.74] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.98] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.97] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.42] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.96] \n[09:18.43] Angel without wings\n[09:23.02] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.21] To bring her peace\n[09:28.79] A song without a voice\n[09:31.81] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.53] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.55] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.62] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.12] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.59] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.20] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.86] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.36] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.29] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.52] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.99] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.06] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.43] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.13] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.44] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.17] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.09] And are in control\n[11:06.50] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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that\n  start_ms: 64450\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69850\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69850\n  end_ms: 71450\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71450\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81290\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81290\n  end_ms: 82720\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82720\n  end_ms: 85140\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85140\n  end_ms: 86680\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86680\n  end_ms: 88650\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88650\n  end_ms: 90030\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90030\n  end_ms: 91330\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91330\n  end_ms: 94780\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94780\n  end_ms: 97150\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97150\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102870\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102870\n  end_ms: 105520\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105520\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110310\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110310\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112860\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112860\n  end_ms: 114220\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114220\n  end_ms: 115620\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115620\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119570\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119570\n  end_ms: 120920\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120920\n  end_ms: 122030\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122030\n  end_ms: 123430\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123430\n  end_ms: 124980\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124980\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127590\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127590\n  end_ms: 129040\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129040\n  end_ms: 131190\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131190\n  end_ms: 132870\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132870\n  end_ms: 134780\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134780\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140500\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140500\n  end_ms: 142730\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142730\n  end_ms: 144170\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144170\n  end_ms: 145460\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145460\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149440\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149440\n  end_ms: 150820\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150820\n  end_ms: 153380\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153380\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155950\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155950\n  end_ms: 157580\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157580\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160590\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160590\n  end_ms: 161660\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161660\n  end_ms: 163260\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163260\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170970\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170970\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175310\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175310\n  end_ms: 178000\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178000\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188560\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188560\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195130\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195130\n  end_ms: 197050\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197050\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202840\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202840\n  end_ms: 204600\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204600\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208320\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208320\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213330\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213330\n  end_ms: 214820\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214820\n  end_ms: 215830\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215830\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218640\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218640\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222780\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222780\n  end_ms: 223780\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223780\n  end_ms: 224850\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224850\n  end_ms: 226740\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226740\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231840\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231840\n  end_ms: 233810\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233810\n  end_ms: 235390\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235390\n  end_ms: 236750\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236750\n  end_ms: 240020\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240020\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248280\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248280\n  end_ms: 249840\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249840\n  end_ms: 251680\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251680\n  end_ms: 253440\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253440\n  end_ms: 256440\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256440\n  end_ms: 257590\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257590\n  end_ms: 259590\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259590\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264340\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264340\n  end_ms: 267120\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267120\n  end_ms: 269730\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269730\n  end_ms: 271160\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271160\n  end_ms: 272750\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272750\n  end_ms: 274850\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274850\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279170\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279170\n  end_ms: 280500\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280500\n  end_ms: 282590\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282590\n  end_ms: 284470\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284470\n  end_ms: 287080\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287080\n  end_ms: 288570\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288570\n  end_ms: 290620\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290620\n  end_ms: 292820\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292820\n  end_ms: 294470\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294470\n  end_ms: 296860\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296860\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300160\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300160\n  end_ms: 301720\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301720\n  end_ms: 303370\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303370\n  end_ms: 305880\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305880\n  end_ms: 307260\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307260\n  end_ms: 309850\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309850\n  end_ms: 311930\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311930\n  end_ms: 313450\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313450\n  end_ms: 315600\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315600\n  end_ms: 316580\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316580\n  end_ms: 317850\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317850\n  end_ms: 319290\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319290\n  end_ms: 320840\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320840\n  end_ms: 323280\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323280\n  end_ms: 324810\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324810\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326750\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326750\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333330\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333330\n  end_ms: 334820\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334820\n  end_ms: 337740\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337740\n  end_ms: 340300\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340300\n  end_ms: 342600\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342600\n  end_ms: 343810\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343810\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349130\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349130\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352980\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352980\n  end_ms: 353770\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353770\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358200\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358200\n  end_ms: 359030\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359030\n  end_ms: 361040\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361040\n  end_ms: 362460\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362460\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366100\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366100\n  end_ms: 367690\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367690\n  end_ms: 369060\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369060\n  end_ms: 370240\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370240\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373090\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373090\n  end_ms: 374330\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374330\n  end_ms: 377000\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377000\n  end_ms: 378560\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378560\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381170\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381170\n  end_ms: 382590\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382590\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385100\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385100\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387990\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387990\n  end_ms: 389310\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389310\n  end_ms: 390620\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390620\n  end_ms: 393000\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393000\n  end_ms: 394630\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394630\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397500\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397500\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400120\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400120\n  end_ms: 401550\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401550\n  end_ms: 402820\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402820\n  end_ms: 404760\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404760\n  end_ms: 406700\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406700\n  end_ms: 408190\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408190\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413590\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413590\n  end_ms: 414950\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414950\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421940\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421940\n  end_ms: 423440\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423440\n  end_ms: 424680\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424680\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433470\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433470\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440640\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440640\n  end_ms: 442460\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442460\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445890\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445890\n  end_ms: 447580\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447580\n  end_ms: 450620\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450620\n  end_ms: 453320\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453320\n  end_ms: 456080\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456080\n  end_ms: 458380\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458380\n  end_ms: 461300\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461300\n  end_ms: 463900\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463900\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469230\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469230\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474720\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474720\n  end_ms: 476450\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476450\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478980\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478980\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484970\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484970\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488760\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488760\n  end_ms: 490320\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490320\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494340\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494340\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496950\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496950\n  end_ms: 498590\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498590\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501380\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501380\n  end_ms: 503330\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503330\n  end_ms: 505480\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505480\n  end_ms: 507050\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507050\n  end_ms: 509030\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509030\n  end_ms: 510870\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510870\n  end_ms: 512580\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512580\n  end_ms: 513550\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513550\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517360\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517360\n  end_ms: 520050\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520050\n  end_ms: 521560\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521560\n  end_ms: 522820\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522820\n  end_ms: 525290\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525290\n  end_ms: 528130\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528130\n  end_ms: 529950\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529950\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533580\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533580\n  end_ms: 534630\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534630\n  end_ms: 536320\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536320\n  end_ms: 538740\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538740\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541980\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541980\n  end_ms: 544970\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544970\n  end_ms: 547420\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547420\n  end_ms: 550960\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550960\n  end_ms: 558430\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558430\n  end_ms: 563020\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563020\n  end_ms: 565210\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565210\n  end_ms: 568790\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568790\n  end_ms: 571810\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571810\n  end_ms: 574530\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574530\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581550\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581550\n  end_ms: 584620\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584620\n  end_ms: 587120\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587120\n  end_ms: 591590\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591590\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597200\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597200\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622860\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622860\n  end_ms: 625360\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625360\n  end_ms: 629290\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629290\n  end_ms: 632520\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632520\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636990\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636990\n  end_ms: 641060\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641060\n  end_ms: 644430\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644430\n  end_ms: 648130\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648130\n  end_ms: 654440\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654440\n  end_ms: 658170\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658170\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665090\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665090\n  end_ms: 666500\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666500\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":14376871,"name":"Lesley Ft. Ruelle","trackName":"Lesley Ft. Ruelle","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":667.742041,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.39] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.96] The same background or same place\n[00:19.31] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.07] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.69] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.61] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.79] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.66] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.43] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.03] But she needs it\n[00:43.35] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.70] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.91] But she said, she said\n[00:48.44] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.20] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.97] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.71] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.42] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.83] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.84] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.48] She's in a situation\n[01:12.81] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.58] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.25] All the signs were there\n[01:22.74] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.19] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.64] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.61] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.09] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.12] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.24] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.88] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.54] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.98] He was all that she had\n[01:50.34] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.29] More to the story than that\n[01:55.65] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.94] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.53] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.05] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.90] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.46] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.50] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.09] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.16] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.43] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.52] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.77] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.16] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.44] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.46] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.88] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.37] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.65] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.93] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.54] Young and neglected\n[02:39.00] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.58] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.29] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.53] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.56] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.06] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.05] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.36] \n[03:08.53] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.14] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.00] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.82] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.63] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.29] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.38] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.15] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.30] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.83] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.06] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.69] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.79] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.76] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.84] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.79] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.83] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.80] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.79] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.99] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.20] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.69] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.41] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.42] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.50] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.53] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.30] I don't know myself\n[04:27.13] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.72] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.72] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.86] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.20] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.58] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.50] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.54] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.84] Touched her destination\n[04:54.44] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.88] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.24] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.86] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.68] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.52] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.83] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.80] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.73] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.35] You just wanna love\n[05:34.88] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.77] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.36] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.67] One more line, before\n[05:43.86] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.11] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.55] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.94] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.02] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.08] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.43] And you did this to me\n[06:03.68] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.05] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.13] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.67] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.07] And give it to me,\n[06:10.25] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.76] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.06] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.06] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.13] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.55] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.83] Quick as could be\n[06:27.92] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.34] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.67] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.12] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.53] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.11] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.59] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.81] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.73] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.77] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.15] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.62] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.32] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.58] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.99] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.80] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.43] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.96] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.46] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.69] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.32] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.18] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.48] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.93] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.44] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.85] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.68] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.33] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.06] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.30] I don't know myself\n[07:41.37] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.98] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.71] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.27] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.90] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.75] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.44] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.97] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.95] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.77] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.43] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.13] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.86] She's dozing off\n[08:16.92] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.57] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.30] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.06] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.86] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.52] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.73] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.07] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.52] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.83] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.24] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.99] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.79] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.59] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.36] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.84] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.94] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.92] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.47] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:11.01] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.24] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.87] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.56] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.57] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.63] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.54] A song without a voice\n[09:54.80] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.84] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.21] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.56] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.97] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.47] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.15] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.48] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.14] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.02] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.02] And are in control\n[11:06.43] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley Ft. 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that\n  start_ms: 64420\n  end_ms: 65830\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65830\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69840\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69840\n  end_ms: 71480\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71480\n  end_ms: 72810\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72810\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78580\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78580\n  end_ms: 81250\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81250\n  end_ms: 82740\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82740\n  end_ms: 85190\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85190\n  end_ms: 86640\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86640\n  end_ms: 88610\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88610\n  end_ms: 90090\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90090\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97120\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97120\n  end_ms: 100240\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100240\n  end_ms: 102880\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102880\n  end_ms: 105540\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105540\n  end_ms: 108980\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108980\n  end_ms: 110340\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110340\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114290\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114290\n  end_ms: 115650\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115650\n  end_ms: 116940\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116940\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119530\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119530\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122050\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122050\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124900\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124900\n  end_ms: 126460\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126460\n  end_ms: 127500\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127500\n  end_ms: 129090\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129090\n  end_ms: 131160\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131160\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137430\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137430\n  end_ms: 140520\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140520\n  end_ms: 142770\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142770\n  end_ms: 144160\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144160\n  end_ms: 145440\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145440\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149460\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149460\n  end_ms: 150880\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150880\n  end_ms: 153370\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153370\n  end_ms: 154650\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154650\n  end_ms: 155930\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155930\n  end_ms: 157540\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157540\n  end_ms: 159000\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159000\n  end_ms: 160580\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160580\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163290\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163290\n  end_ms: 165530\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165530\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172560\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172560\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178060\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178060\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183050\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183050\n  end_ms: 186360\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186360\n  end_ms: 188530\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188530\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195140\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195140\n  end_ms: 197000\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197000\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202820\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202820\n  end_ms: 204630\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204630\n  end_ms: 206290\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206290\n  end_ms: 208380\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208380\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212150\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212150\n  end_ms: 213300\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213300\n  end_ms: 214830\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214830\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217060\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217060\n  end_ms: 218690\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218690\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222790\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222790\n  end_ms: 223760\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223760\n  end_ms: 224840\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224840\n  end_ms: 226790\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226790\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231830\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231830\n  end_ms: 233800\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233800\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236790\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236790\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242990\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242990\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248200\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248200\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251690\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251690\n  end_ms: 253410\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253410\n  end_ms: 256420\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256420\n  end_ms: 257500\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257500\n  end_ms: 259530\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259530\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264300\n  end_ms: 267130\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267130\n  end_ms: 269720\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269720\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272720\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272720\n  end_ms: 274860\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274860\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279200\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279200\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282580\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282580\n  end_ms: 284500\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284500\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288540\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288540\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292840\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292840\n  end_ms: 294440\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294440\n  end_ms: 296880\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296880\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307240\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307240\n  end_ms: 309860\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309860\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315680\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315680\n  end_ms: 316520\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316520\n  end_ms: 317830\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317830\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324800\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324800\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326730\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326730\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333350\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333350\n  end_ms: 334880\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334880\n  end_ms: 337770\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337770\n  end_ms: 340360\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340360\n  end_ms: 342670\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342670\n  end_ms: 343860\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343860\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349110\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349110\n  end_ms: 350550\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350550\n  end_ms: 352940\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352940\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359020\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359020\n  end_ms: 361080\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361080\n  end_ms: 362430\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362430\n  end_ms: 363680\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363680\n  end_ms: 365050\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365050\n  end_ms: 366130\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366130\n  end_ms: 367670\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367670\n  end_ms: 369070\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369070\n  end_ms: 370250\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370250\n  end_ms: 371760\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371760\n  end_ms: 373060\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373060\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377060\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377060\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381130\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381130\n  end_ms: 382550\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382550\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386830\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386830\n  end_ms: 387920\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387920\n  end_ms: 389340\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389340\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394670\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394670\n  end_ms: 396120\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396120\n  end_ms: 397530\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397530\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400110\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400110\n  end_ms: 401590\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401590\n  end_ms: 402810\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402810\n  end_ms: 404730\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404730\n  end_ms: 406770\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406770\n  end_ms: 408150\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408150\n  end_ms: 409620\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409620\n  end_ms: 412320\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412320\n  end_ms: 413580\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413580\n  end_ms: 414990\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414990\n  end_ms: 417800\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417800\n  end_ms: 420430\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420430\n  end_ms: 421960\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421960\n  end_ms: 423460\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423460\n  end_ms: 424690\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424690\n  end_ms: 426320\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426320\n  end_ms: 428180\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428180\n  end_ms: 433480\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433480\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437930\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437930\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442440\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442440\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445850\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445850\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450680\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450680\n  end_ms: 453330\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453330\n  end_ms: 456060\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456060\n  end_ms: 458300\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458300\n  end_ms: 461370\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461370\n  end_ms: 463980\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463980\n  end_ms: 466710\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466710\n  end_ms: 469270\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469270\n  end_ms: 471900\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471900\n  end_ms: 474750\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474750\n  end_ms: 476440\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476440\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478970\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478970\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484950\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484950\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488770\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488770\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491430\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491430\n  end_ms: 493130\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493130\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495860\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495860\n  end_ms: 496920\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496920\n  end_ms: 498570\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498570\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503300\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503300\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509060\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509060\n  end_ms: 510860\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510860\n  end_ms: 512520\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512520\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515730\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515730\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520070\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520070\n  end_ms: 521520\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  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people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544920\n  end_ms: 547470\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547470\n  end_ms: 551010\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 551010\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565240\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565240\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571870\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571870\n  end_ms: 574560\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574560\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581570\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581570\n  end_ms: 584630\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584630\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591540\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591540\n  end_ms: 594800\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594800\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622840\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622840\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629210\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629210\n  end_ms: 632560\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632560\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636970\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636970\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644470\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644470\n  end_ms: 648150\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648150\n  end_ms: 654480\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654480\n  end_ms: 658140\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658140\n  end_ms: 660020\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660020\n  end_ms: 665020\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665020\n  end_ms: 666430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666430\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":26471660,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle) (Paused)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle) (Paused)","artistName":"Dave","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":667.706,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.37] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.98] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.33] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.38] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.06] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.62] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.67] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.36] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.67] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.44] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.36] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.99] But she said, she said\n[00:48.43] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.77] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.52] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.93] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.74] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.13] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.49] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.89] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.49] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.86] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.46] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.75] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.22] All the signs were there\n[01:22.77] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.18] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.60] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.64] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.00] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.37] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.76] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.17] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.27] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.83] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.50] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.93] He was all that she had\n[01:50.30] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.42] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.83] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.24] More to the story than that\n[01:55.64] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.91] But according to that\n[01:58.26] He went missing one day\n[01:59.58] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.96] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.09] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.47] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.48] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.54] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.02] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.88] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.77] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.45] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.56] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.75] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.14] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.40] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.47] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.83] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.39] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.94] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.52] Young and neglected\n[02:39.01] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.56] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.67] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.25] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.92] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.33] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.02] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.57] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.50] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.51] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.12] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.02] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.89] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.86] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.66] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.31] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.32] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.84] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.84] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.65] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.23] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.76] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.75] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.89] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.72] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.26] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.87] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.85] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.36] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.70] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.07] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.93] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.30] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.27] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.85] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.62] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.40] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.45] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.51] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.57] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.71] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.36] I don't know myself\n[04:27.19] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.79] It's 3:30\n[04:31.17] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.70] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.41] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.12] Have that conversation\n[04:40.58] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.50] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.46] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.05] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.55] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.65] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.88] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.18] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.74] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.31] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.82] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.97] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.46] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.69] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.53] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.26] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.86] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.23] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.85] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.74] What the fuck?\n[05:26.70] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.47] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.31] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.38] You just wanna love\n[05:34.85] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.33] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.61] One more line, before\n[05:43.87] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.19] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.92] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.73] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.88] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.25] Fitter than me\n[05:59.04] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.49] And you did this to me\n[06:03.62] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.15] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.62] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.01] And give it to me,\n[06:10.22] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.07] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.35] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.51] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.75] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.10] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.58] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.86] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.18] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.84] Quick as could be\n[06:27.98] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.32] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.65] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.06] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.61] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.55] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.63] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.18] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.54] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.72] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.74] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.18] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.33] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.53] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.85] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.45] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.97] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.42] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.61] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.31] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.14] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.46] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.63] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.41] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.82] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.53] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.63] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.05] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.39] I don't know myself\n[07:41.34] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.99] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.77] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.28] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.98] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.70] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.43] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.87] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.56] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.92] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.72] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.37] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.38] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.83] She's dozing off\n[08:16.99] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.55] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.06] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.31] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.38] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.47] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.09] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.01] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.80] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.53] You see, this time that\n[08:33.59] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.55] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.80] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.21] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.14] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.52] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.67] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.31] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.73] This shit's awful\n[08:59.82] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.93] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.91] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.48] Angel without wings\n[09:23.00] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.28] To bring her peace\n[09:28.78] A song without a voice\n[09:31.85] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.54] A child without a name\n[09:38.29] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.54] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.61] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.19] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.56] A song without a voice\n[09:54.82] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.22] A child without a name\n[10:01.04] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.43] \n[10:22.88] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.34] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.28] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.54] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.54] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:37.00] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.09] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.45] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.14] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.41] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.13] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.06] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.05] And are in control\n[11:06.46] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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her know that\n  start_ms: 64490\n  end_ms: 65890\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65890\n  end_ms: 68490\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68490\n  end_ms: 69860\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69860\n  end_ms: 71460\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71460\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75750\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75750\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81220\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81220\n  end_ms: 82770\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82770\n  end_ms: 85180\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85180\n  end_ms: 86600\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86600\n  end_ms: 88640\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88640\n  end_ms: 90000\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90000\n  end_ms: 91370\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91370\n  end_ms: 94760\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94760\n  end_ms: 97170\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97170\n  end_ms: 100270\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100270\n  end_ms: 102830\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102830\n  end_ms: 105500\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105500\n  end_ms: 108930\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108930\n  end_ms: 110300\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110300\n  end_ms: 111420\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111420\n  end_ms: 112830\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112830\n  end_ms: 114240\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114240\n  end_ms: 115640\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115640\n  end_ms: 116910\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116910\n  end_ms: 118260\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118260\n  end_ms: 119580\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119580\n  end_ms: 120960\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120960\n  end_ms: 122090\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122090\n  end_ms: 123470\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123470\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126480\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126480\n  end_ms: 127540\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127540\n  end_ms: 129020\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129020\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132880\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132880\n  end_ms: 134770\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134770\n  end_ms: 137450\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137450\n  end_ms: 140560\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140560\n  end_ms: 142750\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142750\n  end_ms: 144140\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144140\n  end_ms: 145400\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145400\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149470\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149470\n  end_ms: 150830\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150830\n  end_ms: 153390\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153390\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155940\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155940\n  end_ms: 157520\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157520\n  end_ms: 159010\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159010\n  end_ms: 160560\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160560\n  end_ms: 161670\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161670\n  end_ms: 163250\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163250\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170920\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170920\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175330\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175330\n  end_ms: 178020\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178020\n  end_ms: 180570\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180570\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188500\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188500\n  end_ms: 191510\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191510\n  end_ms: 195120\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195120\n  end_ms: 197020\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197020\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199890\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199890\n  end_ms: 202860\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202860\n  end_ms: 204660\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204660\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208310\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208310\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213320\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213320\n  end_ms: 214840\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214840\n  end_ms: 215840\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215840\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218650\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218650\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221230\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221230\n  end_ms: 222760\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222760\n  end_ms: 223750\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223750\n  end_ms: 224890\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224890\n  end_ms: 226720\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226720\n  end_ms: 229260\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229260\n  end_ms: 231870\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231870\n  end_ms: 233850\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233850\n  end_ms: 235360\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235360\n  end_ms: 236700\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236700\n  end_ms: 240070\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240070\n  end_ms: 242930\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242930\n  end_ms: 246300\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246300\n  end_ms: 248270\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248270\n  end_ms: 249850\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249850\n  end_ms: 251620\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251620\n  end_ms: 253400\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253400\n  end_ms: 256450\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256450\n  end_ms: 257510\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257510\n  end_ms: 259570\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259570\n  end_ms: 261710\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261710\n  end_ms: 264360\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264360\n  end_ms: 267190\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267190\n  end_ms: 269790\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269790\n  end_ms: 271170\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271170\n  end_ms: 272700\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272700\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277410\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277410\n  end_ms: 279120\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279120\n  end_ms: 280580\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280580\n  end_ms: 282500\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282500\n  end_ms: 284460\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284460\n  end_ms: 287050\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287050\n  end_ms: 288550\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288550\n  end_ms: 290650\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290650\n  end_ms: 292880\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292880\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300180\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300180\n  end_ms: 301740\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301740\n  end_ms: 303310\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303310\n  end_ms: 305820\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305820\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311970\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311970\n  end_ms: 313460\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313460\n  end_ms: 315690\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315690\n  end_ms: 316530\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316530\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319260\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319260\n  end_ms: 320860\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320860\n  end_ms: 323230\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323230\n  end_ms: 324850\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324850\n  end_ms: 325740\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325740\n  end_ms: 326700\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326700\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329470\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329470\n  end_ms: 331310\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331310\n  end_ms: 333380\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333380\n  end_ms: 334850\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334850\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340330\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340330\n  end_ms: 342610\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342610\n  end_ms: 343870\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343870\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349190\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349190\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352920\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352920\n  end_ms: 353730\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353730\n  end_ms: 355880\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355880\n  end_ms: 358250\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358250\n  end_ms: 359040\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359040\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362490\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362490\n  end_ms: 363620\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363620\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366150\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366150\n  end_ms: 367620\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367620\n  end_ms: 369010\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369010\n  end_ms: 370220\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370220\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373070\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373070\n  end_ms: 374350\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374350\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378510\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378510\n  end_ms: 379750\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379750\n  end_ms: 381100\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381100\n  end_ms: 382580\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382580\n  end_ms: 383860\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383860\n  end_ms: 385180\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385180\n  end_ms: 386840\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386840\n  end_ms: 387980\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387980\n  end_ms: 389320\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389320\n  end_ms: 390650\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390650\n  end_ms: 393060\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393060\n  end_ms: 394610\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394610\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397550\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397550\n  end_ms: 398630\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398630\n  end_ms: 400180\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400180\n  end_ms: 401540\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401540\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404720\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404720\n  end_ms: 406740\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406740\n  end_ms: 408180\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408180\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412330\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412330\n  end_ms: 413530\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413530\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417850\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417850\n  end_ms: 420450\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420450\n  end_ms: 421970\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421970\n  end_ms: 423420\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423420\n  end_ms: 424610\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424610\n  end_ms: 426310\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426310\n  end_ms: 428140\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428140\n  end_ms: 433460\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433460\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440630\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440630\n  end_ms: 442410\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442410\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445820\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445820\n  end_ms: 447530\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447530\n  end_ms: 450630\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450630\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456050\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456050\n  end_ms: 458390\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458390\n  end_ms: 461340\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461340\n  end_ms: 463990\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463990\n  end_ms: 466770\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466770\n  end_ms: 469280\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469280\n  end_ms: 471980\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471980\n  end_ms: 474700\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474700\n  end_ms: 476430\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476430\n  end_ms: 477870\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477870\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480560\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480560\n  end_ms: 484920\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484920\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488720\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488720\n  end_ms: 490370\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490370\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494380\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494380\n  end_ms: 495830\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495830\n  end_ms: 496990\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496990\n  end_ms: 498550\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498550\n  end_ms: 500060\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500060\n  end_ms: 501310\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501310\n  end_ms: 503380\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503380\n  end_ms: 505470\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505470\n  end_ms: 507090\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507090\n  end_ms: 509010\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509010\n  end_ms: 510800\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510800\n  end_ms: 512530\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512530\n  end_ms: 513590\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513590\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521550\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521550\n  end_ms: 522800\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522800\n  end_ms: 525210\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525210\n  end_ms: 528140\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528140\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531740\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531740\n  end_ms: 533520\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533520\n  end_ms: 534670\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534670\n  end_ms: 536310\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536310\n  end_ms: 538730\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538730\n  end_ms: 539820\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539820\n  end_ms: 541930\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541930\n  end_ms: 544910\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544910\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558480\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558480\n  end_ms: 563000\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563000\n  end_ms: 565280\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565280\n  end_ms: 568780\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568780\n  end_ms: 571850\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571850\n  end_ms: 574540\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574540\n  end_ms: 578290\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578290\n  end_ms: 581540\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581540\n  end_ms: 584610\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584610\n  end_ms: 587190\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587190\n  end_ms: 591560\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591560\n  end_ms: 594820\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594820\n  end_ms: 597220\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597220\n  end_ms: 601040\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601040\n  end_ms: 605430\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605430\n  end_ms: 622880\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622880\n  end_ms: 625340\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625340\n  end_ms: 629280\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629280\n  end_ms: 632540\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632540\n  end_ms: 634540\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634540\n  end_ms: 637000\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 637000\n  end_ms: 641090\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641090\n  end_ms: 644450\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644450\n  end_ms: 648140\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648140\n  end_ms: 654410\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654410\n  end_ms: 658130\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658130\n  end_ms: 660060\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660060\n  end_ms: 665050\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665050\n  end_ms: 666460\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666460\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":2501008,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","artistName":"Dave, Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.38] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.94] The same background or same place\n[00:19.30] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.39] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.02] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.68] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.65] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.31] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.72] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.48] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.05] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.95] But she said, she said\n[00:48.40] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.28] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.76] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.58] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.94] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.78] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.12] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.45] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.85] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.45] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.29] All the signs were there\n[01:22.72] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.14] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.68] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.65] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.03] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.33] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.78] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.15] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.87] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.52] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.31] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.86] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.22] More to the story than that\n[01:55.62] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.57] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.92] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.03] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.43] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.98] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.59] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.04] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.19] Cared for her\n[02:12.87] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.78] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.50] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.73] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.17] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.46] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.44] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.82] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.38] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.95] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.58] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.59] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.66] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.26] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.97] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.31] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.00] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.56] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.13] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.05] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.84] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.60] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.32] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.33] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.82] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.83] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.64] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.78] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.78] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.85] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.74] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.84] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.81] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.39] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.75] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.02] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.28] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.84] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.68] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.44] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.44] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.59] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.59] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.34] I don't know myself\n[04:27.12] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.73] It's 3:30\n[04:31.16] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.75] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.85] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.17] Have that conversation\n[04:40.50] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.59] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.47] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.08] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.57] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.62] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.82] Touched her destination\n[04:54.47] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.86] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.16] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.72] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.37] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.88] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.26] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.85] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.93] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.45] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.60] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.58] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.85] So she bursts in\n[05:19.29] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.84] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.28] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.81] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.75] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.33] You just wanna love\n[05:34.82] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.74] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.30] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.60] One more line, before\n[05:43.81] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.13] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.98] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.77] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.20] Fitter than me\n[05:59.03] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.04] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.46] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.10] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.69] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.06] And give it to me,\n[06:10.24] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.09] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.33] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.00] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.56] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.17] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.59] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.10] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.99] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.31] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.62] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.00] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.63] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.50] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.12] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.55] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.82] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.76] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.70] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.19] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.59] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.95] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.94] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.44] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.68] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.47] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.64] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.46] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.89] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.58] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.62] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.32] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.08] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.38] I don't know myself\n[07:41.30] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.90] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.23] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.72] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.45] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.98] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.97] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.76] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.32] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.34] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.95] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.59] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.38] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.33] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.48] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.05] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.03] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.87] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.58] You see, this time that\n[08:33.55] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.36] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.05] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.56] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.82] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.29] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.95] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.58] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.63] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.32] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.74] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.98] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.97] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.42] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.96] \n[09:18.43] Angel without wings\n[09:23.02] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.21] To bring her peace\n[09:28.79] A song without a voice\n[09:31.81] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.53] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.55] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.62] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.12] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.59] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.20] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.86] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.36] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.29] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.52] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.99] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.06] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.43] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.13] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.44] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.17] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.09] And are in control\n[11:06.50] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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her know that\n  start_ms: 64450\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69850\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69850\n  end_ms: 71450\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71450\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81290\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81290\n  end_ms: 82720\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82720\n  end_ms: 85140\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85140\n  end_ms: 86680\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86680\n  end_ms: 88650\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88650\n  end_ms: 90030\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90030\n  end_ms: 91330\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91330\n  end_ms: 94780\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94780\n  end_ms: 97150\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97150\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102870\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102870\n  end_ms: 105520\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105520\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110310\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110310\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112860\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112860\n  end_ms: 114220\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114220\n  end_ms: 115620\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115620\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119570\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119570\n  end_ms: 120920\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120920\n  end_ms: 122030\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122030\n  end_ms: 123430\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123430\n  end_ms: 124980\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124980\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127590\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127590\n  end_ms: 129040\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129040\n  end_ms: 131190\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131190\n  end_ms: 132870\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132870\n  end_ms: 134780\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134780\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140500\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140500\n  end_ms: 142730\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142730\n  end_ms: 144170\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144170\n  end_ms: 145460\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145460\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149440\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149440\n  end_ms: 150820\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150820\n  end_ms: 153380\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153380\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155950\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155950\n  end_ms: 157580\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157580\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160590\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160590\n  end_ms: 161660\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161660\n  end_ms: 163260\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163260\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170970\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170970\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175310\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175310\n  end_ms: 178000\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178000\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188560\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188560\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195130\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195130\n  end_ms: 197050\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197050\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202840\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202840\n  end_ms: 204600\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204600\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208320\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208320\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213330\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213330\n  end_ms: 214820\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214820\n  end_ms: 215830\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215830\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218640\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218640\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222780\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222780\n  end_ms: 223780\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223780\n  end_ms: 224850\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224850\n  end_ms: 226740\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226740\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231840\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231840\n  end_ms: 233810\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233810\n  end_ms: 235390\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235390\n  end_ms: 236750\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236750\n  end_ms: 240020\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240020\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248280\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248280\n  end_ms: 249840\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249840\n  end_ms: 251680\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251680\n  end_ms: 253440\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253440\n  end_ms: 256440\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256440\n  end_ms: 257590\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257590\n  end_ms: 259590\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259590\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264340\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264340\n  end_ms: 267120\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267120\n  end_ms: 269730\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269730\n  end_ms: 271160\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271160\n  end_ms: 272750\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272750\n  end_ms: 274850\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274850\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279170\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279170\n  end_ms: 280500\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280500\n  end_ms: 282590\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282590\n  end_ms: 284470\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284470\n  end_ms: 287080\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287080\n  end_ms: 288570\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288570\n  end_ms: 290620\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290620\n  end_ms: 292820\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292820\n  end_ms: 294470\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294470\n  end_ms: 296860\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296860\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300160\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300160\n  end_ms: 301720\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301720\n  end_ms: 303370\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303370\n  end_ms: 305880\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305880\n  end_ms: 307260\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307260\n  end_ms: 309850\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309850\n  end_ms: 311930\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311930\n  end_ms: 313450\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313450\n  end_ms: 315600\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315600\n  end_ms: 316580\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316580\n  end_ms: 317850\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317850\n  end_ms: 319290\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319290\n  end_ms: 320840\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320840\n  end_ms: 323280\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323280\n  end_ms: 324810\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324810\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326750\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326750\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333330\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333330\n  end_ms: 334820\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334820\n  end_ms: 337740\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337740\n  end_ms: 340300\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340300\n  end_ms: 342600\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342600\n  end_ms: 343810\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343810\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349130\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349130\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352980\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352980\n  end_ms: 353770\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353770\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358200\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358200\n  end_ms: 359030\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359030\n  end_ms: 361040\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361040\n  end_ms: 362460\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362460\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366100\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366100\n  end_ms: 367690\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367690\n  end_ms: 369060\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369060\n  end_ms: 370240\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370240\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373090\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373090\n  end_ms: 374330\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374330\n  end_ms: 377000\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377000\n  end_ms: 378560\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378560\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381170\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381170\n  end_ms: 382590\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382590\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385100\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385100\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387990\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387990\n  end_ms: 389310\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389310\n  end_ms: 390620\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390620\n  end_ms: 393000\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393000\n  end_ms: 394630\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394630\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397500\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397500\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400120\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400120\n  end_ms: 401550\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401550\n  end_ms: 402820\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402820\n  end_ms: 404760\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404760\n  end_ms: 406700\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406700\n  end_ms: 408190\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408190\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413590\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413590\n  end_ms: 414950\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414950\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421940\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421940\n  end_ms: 423440\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423440\n  end_ms: 424680\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424680\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433470\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433470\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440640\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440640\n  end_ms: 442460\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442460\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445890\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445890\n  end_ms: 447580\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447580\n  end_ms: 450620\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450620\n  end_ms: 453320\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453320\n  end_ms: 456080\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456080\n  end_ms: 458380\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458380\n  end_ms: 461300\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461300\n  end_ms: 463900\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463900\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469230\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469230\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474720\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474720\n  end_ms: 476450\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476450\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478980\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478980\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484970\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484970\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488760\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488760\n  end_ms: 490320\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490320\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494340\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494340\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496950\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496950\n  end_ms: 498590\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498590\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501380\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501380\n  end_ms: 503330\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503330\n  end_ms: 505480\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505480\n  end_ms: 507050\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507050\n  end_ms: 509030\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509030\n  end_ms: 510870\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510870\n  end_ms: 512580\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512580\n  end_ms: 513550\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513550\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517360\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517360\n  end_ms: 520050\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520050\n  end_ms: 521560\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  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people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544970\n  end_ms: 547420\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547420\n  end_ms: 550960\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550960\n  end_ms: 558430\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558430\n  end_ms: 563020\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563020\n  end_ms: 565210\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565210\n  end_ms: 568790\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568790\n  end_ms: 571810\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571810\n  end_ms: 574530\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574530\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581550\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581550\n  end_ms: 584620\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584620\n  end_ms: 587120\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587120\n  end_ms: 591590\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591590\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597200\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597200\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622860\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622860\n  end_ms: 625360\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625360\n  end_ms: 629290\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629290\n  end_ms: 632520\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632520\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636990\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636990\n  end_ms: 641060\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641060\n  end_ms: 644430\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644430\n  end_ms: 648130\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648130\n  end_ms: 654440\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654440\n  end_ms: 658170\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658170\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665090\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665090\n  end_ms: 666500\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666500\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":36935805,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","artistName":"Dave, Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":null,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.38] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.94] The same background or same place\n[00:19.30] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.39] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.02] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.68] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.65] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.31] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.72] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.48] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.05] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.95] But she said, she said\n[00:48.40] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.28] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.76] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.58] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.94] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.78] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.12] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.45] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.85] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.45] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.29] All the signs were there\n[01:22.72] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.14] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.68] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.65] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.03] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.33] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.78] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.15] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.87] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.52] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.31] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.86] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.22] More to the story than that\n[01:55.62] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.57] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.92] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.03] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.43] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.98] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.59] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.04] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.19] Cared for her\n[02:12.87] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.78] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.50] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.73] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.17] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.46] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.44] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.82] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.38] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.95] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.58] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.59] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.66] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.26] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.97] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.31] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.00] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.56] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.13] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.05] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.84] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.60] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.32] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.33] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.82] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.83] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.64] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.78] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.78] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.85] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.74] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.84] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.81] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.39] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.75] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.02] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.28] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.84] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.68] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.44] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.44] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.59] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.59] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.34] I don't know myself\n[04:27.12] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.73] It's 3:30\n[04:31.16] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.75] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.85] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.17] Have that conversation\n[04:40.50] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.59] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.47] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.08] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.57] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.62] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.82] Touched her destination\n[04:54.47] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.86] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.16] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.72] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.37] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.88] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.26] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.85] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.93] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.45] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.60] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.58] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.85] So she bursts in\n[05:19.29] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.84] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.28] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.81] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.75] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.33] You just wanna love\n[05:34.82] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.74] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.30] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.60] One more line, before\n[05:43.81] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.13] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.98] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.77] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.20] Fitter than me\n[05:59.03] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.04] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.46] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.10] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.69] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.06] And give it to me,\n[06:10.24] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.09] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.33] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.00] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.56] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.17] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.59] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.10] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.99] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.31] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.62] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.00] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.63] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.50] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.12] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.55] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.82] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.76] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.70] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.19] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.59] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.95] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.94] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.44] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.68] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.47] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.64] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.46] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.89] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.58] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.62] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.32] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.08] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.38] I don't know myself\n[07:41.30] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.90] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.23] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.72] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.45] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.98] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.97] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.76] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.32] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.34] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.95] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.59] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.38] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.33] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.48] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.05] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.03] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.87] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.58] You see, this time that\n[08:33.55] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.36] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.05] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.56] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.82] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.29] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.95] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.58] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.63] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.32] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.74] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.98] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.97] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.42] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.96] \n[09:18.43] Angel without wings\n[09:23.02] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.21] To bring her peace\n[09:28.79] A song without a voice\n[09:31.81] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.53] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.55] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.62] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.12] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.59] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.20] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.86] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.36] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.29] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.52] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.99] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.06] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.43] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.13] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.44] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.17] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.09] And are in control\n[11:06.50] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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start_ms: 64450\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69850\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69850\n  end_ms: 71450\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71450\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81290\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81290\n  end_ms: 82720\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82720\n  end_ms: 85140\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85140\n  end_ms: 86680\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86680\n  end_ms: 88650\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88650\n  end_ms: 90030\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90030\n  end_ms: 91330\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91330\n  end_ms: 94780\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94780\n  end_ms: 97150\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97150\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102870\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102870\n  end_ms: 105520\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105520\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110310\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110310\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112860\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112860\n  end_ms: 114220\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114220\n  end_ms: 115620\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115620\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119570\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119570\n  end_ms: 120920\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120920\n  end_ms: 122030\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122030\n  end_ms: 123430\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123430\n  end_ms: 124980\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124980\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127590\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127590\n  end_ms: 129040\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129040\n  end_ms: 131190\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131190\n  end_ms: 132870\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132870\n  end_ms: 134780\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134780\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140500\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140500\n  end_ms: 142730\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142730\n  end_ms: 144170\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144170\n  end_ms: 145460\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145460\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149440\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149440\n  end_ms: 150820\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150820\n  end_ms: 153380\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153380\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155950\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155950\n  end_ms: 157580\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157580\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160590\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160590\n  end_ms: 161660\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161660\n  end_ms: 163260\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163260\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170970\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170970\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175310\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175310\n  end_ms: 178000\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178000\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188560\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188560\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195130\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195130\n  end_ms: 197050\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197050\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202840\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202840\n  end_ms: 204600\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204600\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208320\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208320\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213330\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213330\n  end_ms: 214820\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214820\n  end_ms: 215830\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215830\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218640\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218640\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222780\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222780\n  end_ms: 223780\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223780\n  end_ms: 224850\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224850\n  end_ms: 226740\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226740\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231840\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231840\n  end_ms: 233810\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233810\n  end_ms: 235390\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235390\n  end_ms: 236750\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236750\n  end_ms: 240020\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240020\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248280\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248280\n  end_ms: 249840\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249840\n  end_ms: 251680\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251680\n  end_ms: 253440\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253440\n  end_ms: 256440\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256440\n  end_ms: 257590\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257590\n  end_ms: 259590\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259590\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264340\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264340\n  end_ms: 267120\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267120\n  end_ms: 269730\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269730\n  end_ms: 271160\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271160\n  end_ms: 272750\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272750\n  end_ms: 274850\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274850\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279170\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279170\n  end_ms: 280500\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280500\n  end_ms: 282590\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282590\n  end_ms: 284470\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284470\n  end_ms: 287080\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287080\n  end_ms: 288570\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288570\n  end_ms: 290620\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290620\n  end_ms: 292820\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292820\n  end_ms: 294470\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294470\n  end_ms: 296860\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296860\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300160\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300160\n  end_ms: 301720\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301720\n  end_ms: 303370\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303370\n  end_ms: 305880\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305880\n  end_ms: 307260\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307260\n  end_ms: 309850\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309850\n  end_ms: 311930\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311930\n  end_ms: 313450\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313450\n  end_ms: 315600\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315600\n  end_ms: 316580\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316580\n  end_ms: 317850\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317850\n  end_ms: 319290\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319290\n  end_ms: 320840\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320840\n  end_ms: 323280\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323280\n  end_ms: 324810\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324810\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326750\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326750\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333330\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333330\n  end_ms: 334820\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334820\n  end_ms: 337740\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337740\n  end_ms: 340300\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340300\n  end_ms: 342600\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342600\n  end_ms: 343810\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343810\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349130\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349130\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352980\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352980\n  end_ms: 353770\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353770\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358200\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358200\n  end_ms: 359030\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359030\n  end_ms: 361040\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361040\n  end_ms: 362460\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362460\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366100\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366100\n  end_ms: 367690\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367690\n  end_ms: 369060\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369060\n  end_ms: 370240\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370240\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373090\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373090\n  end_ms: 374330\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374330\n  end_ms: 377000\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377000\n  end_ms: 378560\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378560\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381170\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381170\n  end_ms: 382590\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382590\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385100\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385100\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387990\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387990\n  end_ms: 389310\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389310\n  end_ms: 390620\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390620\n  end_ms: 393000\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393000\n  end_ms: 394630\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394630\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397500\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397500\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400120\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400120\n  end_ms: 401550\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401550\n  end_ms: 402820\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402820\n  end_ms: 404760\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404760\n  end_ms: 406700\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406700\n  end_ms: 408190\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408190\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413590\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413590\n  end_ms: 414950\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414950\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421940\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421940\n  end_ms: 423440\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423440\n  end_ms: 424680\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424680\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433470\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433470\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440640\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440640\n  end_ms: 442460\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442460\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445890\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445890\n  end_ms: 447580\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447580\n  end_ms: 450620\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450620\n  end_ms: 453320\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453320\n  end_ms: 456080\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456080\n  end_ms: 458380\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458380\n  end_ms: 461300\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461300\n  end_ms: 463900\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463900\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469230\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469230\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474720\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474720\n  end_ms: 476450\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476450\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478980\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478980\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484970\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484970\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488760\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488760\n  end_ms: 490320\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490320\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494340\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494340\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496950\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496950\n  end_ms: 498590\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498590\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501380\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501380\n  end_ms: 503330\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503330\n  end_ms: 505480\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505480\n  end_ms: 507050\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507050\n  end_ms: 509030\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509030\n  end_ms: 510870\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510870\n  end_ms: 512580\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512580\n  end_ms: 513550\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513550\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517360\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517360\n  end_ms: 520050\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520050\n  end_ms: 521560\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521560\n  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takin'\n  start_ms: 544970\n  end_ms: 547420\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547420\n  end_ms: 550960\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550960\n  end_ms: 558430\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558430\n  end_ms: 563020\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563020\n  end_ms: 565210\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565210\n  end_ms: 568790\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568790\n  end_ms: 571810\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571810\n  end_ms: 574530\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574530\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581550\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581550\n  end_ms: 584620\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584620\n  end_ms: 587120\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587120\n  end_ms: 591590\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591590\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597200\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597200\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622860\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622860\n  end_ms: 625360\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625360\n  end_ms: 629290\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629290\n  end_ms: 632520\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632520\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636990\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636990\n  end_ms: 641060\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641060\n  end_ms: 644430\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644430\n  end_ms: 648130\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648130\n  end_ms: 654440\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654440\n  end_ms: 658170\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658170\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665090\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665090\n  end_ms: 666500\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666500\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":36785880,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","artistName":"Dave, Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":null,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.38] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.95] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.94] The same background or same place\n[00:19.30] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.39] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.02] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.68] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.65] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.31] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.72] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.48] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.05] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.95] But she said, she said\n[00:48.40] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.28] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.76] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.58] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.94] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.78] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.12] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.45] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.41] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.85] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.45] She's in a situation\n[01:12.84] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.79] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.54] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.29] All the signs were there\n[01:22.72] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.14] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.68] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.65] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.03] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.33] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.78] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.15] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.87] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.52] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.31] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.44] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.86] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.22] More to the story than that\n[01:55.62] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.57] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.92] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.03] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.43] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.98] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.59] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.04] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.19] Cared for her\n[02:12.87] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.78] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.50] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.73] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.17] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.46] There's no income\n[02:26.86] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.31] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.44] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.82] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.38] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.61] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.95] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.58] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.59] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.66] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.26] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.51] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.38] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.97] Clinical depression\n[02:52.59] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.31] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.00] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.52] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.09] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.40] \n[03:08.56] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.52] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.13] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.05] Late in December\n[03:18.20] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.81] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.84] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.60] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.32] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.17] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.11] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.33] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.82] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.83] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.64] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.88] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.20] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.78] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.78] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.85] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.74] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.29] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.84] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.81] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.39] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.75] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.02] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.34] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.28] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.84] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.68] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.44] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.44] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.59] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.59] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.75] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.34] I don't know myself\n[04:27.12] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.73] It's 3:30\n[04:31.16] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.75] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.85] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.40] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.17] Have that conversation\n[04:40.50] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.59] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.47] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.08] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.57] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.62] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.82] Touched her destination\n[04:54.47] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.86] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.14] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.16] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.72] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.37] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.88] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.26] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.85] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.93] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.45] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.60] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.58] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.85] So she bursts in\n[05:19.29] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.84] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.28] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.81] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.76] What the fuck?\n[05:26.75] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.42] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.35] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.33] You just wanna love\n[05:34.82] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.74] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.30] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.60] One more line, before\n[05:43.81] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.32] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.13] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.59] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.98] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.77] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.85] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.20] Fitter than me\n[05:59.03] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.04] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.46] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.08] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.10] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.69] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.06] And give it to me,\n[06:10.24] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.79] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.09] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.33] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.00] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.56] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.79] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.17] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.59] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.84] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.10] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.99] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.31] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.62] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.00] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.63] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.50] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.62] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.12] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.55] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.82] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.76] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.70] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.19] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.65] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.59] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.95] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.94] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.44] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.68] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.47] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.02] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.92] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.64] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.46] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.17] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.89] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.58] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.62] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.32] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.08] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.38] I don't know myself\n[07:41.30] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.90] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.23] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.72] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.45] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.85] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.98] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.57] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.97] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.67] But when I heard about\n[08:08.76] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.32] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.41] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.15] They said her baby was\n[08:14.34] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.95] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.59] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.02] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.38] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.33] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.48] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.05] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.03] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.87] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.58] You see, this time that\n[08:33.55] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.76] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.36] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.05] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.56] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.82] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.29] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.13] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.95] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.74] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.58] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.63] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.32] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.74] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.98] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.97] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.42] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.96] \n[09:18.43] Angel without wings\n[09:23.02] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.21] To bring her peace\n[09:28.79] A song without a voice\n[09:31.81] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.53] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.55] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.62] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.12] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.59] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.20] A child without a name\n[10:01.03] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.42] \n[10:22.86] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.36] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.29] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.52] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.58] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.99] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.06] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.43] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.13] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.44] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.17] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.09] And are in control\n[11:06.50] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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start_ms: 64450\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68410\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68410\n  end_ms: 69850\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69850\n  end_ms: 71450\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71450\n  end_ms: 72840\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72840\n  end_ms: 75790\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75790\n  end_ms: 78540\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78540\n  end_ms: 81290\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81290\n  end_ms: 82720\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82720\n  end_ms: 85140\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85140\n  end_ms: 86680\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86680\n  end_ms: 88650\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88650\n  end_ms: 90030\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90030\n  end_ms: 91330\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91330\n  end_ms: 94780\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94780\n  end_ms: 97150\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97150\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102870\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102870\n  end_ms: 105520\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105520\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110310\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110310\n  end_ms: 111440\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111440\n  end_ms: 112860\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112860\n  end_ms: 114220\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114220\n  end_ms: 115620\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115620\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119570\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119570\n  end_ms: 120920\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120920\n  end_ms: 122030\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122030\n  end_ms: 123430\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123430\n  end_ms: 124980\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124980\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127590\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127590\n  end_ms: 129040\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129040\n  end_ms: 131190\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131190\n  end_ms: 132870\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132870\n  end_ms: 134780\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134780\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140500\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140500\n  end_ms: 142730\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142730\n  end_ms: 144170\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144170\n  end_ms: 145460\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145460\n  end_ms: 146860\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146860\n  end_ms: 148310\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148310\n  end_ms: 149440\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149440\n  end_ms: 150820\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150820\n  end_ms: 153380\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153380\n  end_ms: 154610\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154610\n  end_ms: 155950\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155950\n  end_ms: 157580\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157580\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160590\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160590\n  end_ms: 161660\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161660\n  end_ms: 163260\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163260\n  end_ms: 165510\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165510\n  end_ms: 169380\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169380\n  end_ms: 170970\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170970\n  end_ms: 172590\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172590\n  end_ms: 175310\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175310\n  end_ms: 178000\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178000\n  end_ms: 180520\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180520\n  end_ms: 183090\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183090\n  end_ms: 186400\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186400\n  end_ms: 188560\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188560\n  end_ms: 191520\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191520\n  end_ms: 195130\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195130\n  end_ms: 197050\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197050\n  end_ms: 198200\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198200\n  end_ms: 199810\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199810\n  end_ms: 202840\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202840\n  end_ms: 204600\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204600\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208320\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208320\n  end_ms: 210170\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210170\n  end_ms: 212110\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212110\n  end_ms: 213330\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213330\n  end_ms: 214820\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214820\n  end_ms: 215830\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215830\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218640\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218640\n  end_ms: 219880\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219880\n  end_ms: 221200\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221200\n  end_ms: 222780\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222780\n  end_ms: 223780\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223780\n  end_ms: 224850\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224850\n  end_ms: 226740\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226740\n  end_ms: 229290\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229290\n  end_ms: 231840\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231840\n  end_ms: 233810\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233810\n  end_ms: 235390\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235390\n  end_ms: 236750\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236750\n  end_ms: 240020\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240020\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246340\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246340\n  end_ms: 248280\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248280\n  end_ms: 249840\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249840\n  end_ms: 251680\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251680\n  end_ms: 253440\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253440\n  end_ms: 256440\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256440\n  end_ms: 257590\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257590\n  end_ms: 259590\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259590\n  end_ms: 261750\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261750\n  end_ms: 264340\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264340\n  end_ms: 267120\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267120\n  end_ms: 269730\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269730\n  end_ms: 271160\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271160\n  end_ms: 272750\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272750\n  end_ms: 274850\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274850\n  end_ms: 277400\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277400\n  end_ms: 279170\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279170\n  end_ms: 280500\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280500\n  end_ms: 282590\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282590\n  end_ms: 284470\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284470\n  end_ms: 287080\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287080\n  end_ms: 288570\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288570\n  end_ms: 290620\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290620\n  end_ms: 292820\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292820\n  end_ms: 294470\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294470\n  end_ms: 296860\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296860\n  end_ms: 299140\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299140\n  end_ms: 300160\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300160\n  end_ms: 301720\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301720\n  end_ms: 303370\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303370\n  end_ms: 305880\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305880\n  end_ms: 307260\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307260\n  end_ms: 309850\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309850\n  end_ms: 311930\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311930\n  end_ms: 313450\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313450\n  end_ms: 315600\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315600\n  end_ms: 316580\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316580\n  end_ms: 317850\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317850\n  end_ms: 319290\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319290\n  end_ms: 320840\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320840\n  end_ms: 323280\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323280\n  end_ms: 324810\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324810\n  end_ms: 325760\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325760\n  end_ms: 326750\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326750\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329420\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329420\n  end_ms: 331350\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331350\n  end_ms: 333330\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333330\n  end_ms: 334820\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334820\n  end_ms: 337740\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337740\n  end_ms: 340300\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340300\n  end_ms: 342600\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342600\n  end_ms: 343810\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343810\n  end_ms: 345320\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345320\n  end_ms: 349130\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349130\n  end_ms: 350590\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350590\n  end_ms: 352980\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352980\n  end_ms: 353770\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353770\n  end_ms: 355850\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355850\n  end_ms: 358200\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358200\n  end_ms: 359030\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359030\n  end_ms: 361040\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361040\n  end_ms: 362460\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362460\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365080\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365080\n  end_ms: 366100\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366100\n  end_ms: 367690\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367690\n  end_ms: 369060\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369060\n  end_ms: 370240\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370240\n  end_ms: 371790\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371790\n  end_ms: 373090\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373090\n  end_ms: 374330\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374330\n  end_ms: 377000\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377000\n  end_ms: 378560\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378560\n  end_ms: 379790\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379790\n  end_ms: 381170\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381170\n  end_ms: 382590\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382590\n  end_ms: 383840\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383840\n  end_ms: 385100\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385100\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387990\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387990\n  end_ms: 389310\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389310\n  end_ms: 390620\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390620\n  end_ms: 393000\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393000\n  end_ms: 394630\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394630\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397500\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397500\n  end_ms: 398620\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398620\n  end_ms: 400120\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400120\n  end_ms: 401550\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401550\n  end_ms: 402820\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402820\n  end_ms: 404760\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404760\n  end_ms: 406700\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406700\n  end_ms: 408190\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408190\n  end_ms: 409650\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409650\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413590\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413590\n  end_ms: 414950\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414950\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421940\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421940\n  end_ms: 423440\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423440\n  end_ms: 424680\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424680\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433470\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433470\n  end_ms: 436020\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436020\n  end_ms: 437920\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437920\n  end_ms: 440640\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440640\n  end_ms: 442460\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442460\n  end_ms: 444170\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444170\n  end_ms: 445890\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445890\n  end_ms: 447580\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447580\n  end_ms: 450620\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450620\n  end_ms: 453320\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453320\n  end_ms: 456080\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456080\n  end_ms: 458380\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458380\n  end_ms: 461300\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461300\n  end_ms: 463900\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463900\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469230\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469230\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474720\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474720\n  end_ms: 476450\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476450\n  end_ms: 477850\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477850\n  end_ms: 478980\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478980\n  end_ms: 480570\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480570\n  end_ms: 484970\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484970\n  end_ms: 487670\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487670\n  end_ms: 488760\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488760\n  end_ms: 490320\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490320\n  end_ms: 491410\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491410\n  end_ms: 493150\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493150\n  end_ms: 494340\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494340\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496950\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496950\n  end_ms: 498590\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498590\n  end_ms: 500020\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500020\n  end_ms: 501380\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501380\n  end_ms: 503330\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503330\n  end_ms: 505480\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505480\n  end_ms: 507050\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507050\n  end_ms: 509030\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509030\n  end_ms: 510870\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510870\n  end_ms: 512580\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512580\n  end_ms: 513550\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513550\n  end_ms: 515760\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515760\n  end_ms: 517360\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517360\n  end_ms: 520050\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520050\n  end_ms: 521560\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521560\n  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takin'\n  start_ms: 544970\n  end_ms: 547420\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547420\n  end_ms: 550960\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550960\n  end_ms: 558430\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558430\n  end_ms: 563020\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563020\n  end_ms: 565210\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565210\n  end_ms: 568790\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568790\n  end_ms: 571810\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571810\n  end_ms: 574530\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574530\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581550\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581550\n  end_ms: 584620\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584620\n  end_ms: 587120\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587120\n  end_ms: 591590\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591590\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597200\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597200\n  end_ms: 601030\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601030\n  end_ms: 605420\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605420\n  end_ms: 622860\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622860\n  end_ms: 625360\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625360\n  end_ms: 629290\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629290\n  end_ms: 632520\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632520\n  end_ms: 634580\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634580\n  end_ms: 636990\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636990\n  end_ms: 641060\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641060\n  end_ms: 644430\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644430\n  end_ms: 648130\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648130\n  end_ms: 654440\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654440\n  end_ms: 658170\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658170\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665090\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665090\n  end_ms: 666500\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666500\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"},{"id":972357,"name":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","trackName":"Lesley (feat. Ruelle)","artistName":"Dave feat. Ruelle","albumName":"PSYCHODRAMA","duration":668.0,"instrumental":false,"hasWordSync":false,"plainLyrics":"Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\nAnd it must be true because we ain't from\nThe same background or same place\nBut me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\nI'm talkin' every day\n\nI used to wake up around seven or eight\nTo catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\nTwo different worlds in the same location\nOne day we ended up speaking\nAnd I would talk about college\nShe would talk about meetings\nAnd how she's plannin' on leavin'\nHow she hates what she does\nBut she needs it\nI asked her what she would do\nWhen it's the weekend\nBut she said, she said\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe used to be the life of the party for true\nBut now she goin' out hardly ever\nHer man got her in the yard forever\nAnd her friends wanna help\nBut it's hard to tell her\nHard to let her know that\nHer man's possessive and aggressive\nAnd she can't even see it\nBut for them it's clear as day\nShe's in a situation\n\nHer friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\nSo she can see it from a mile off\nTurtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\nAll the signs were there\nBut Leslie made it seem a light affair\nSaid it wasn't right to share\nHer boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\nI didn't know much about him\nBut he's been in the can\nName's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\nTo be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\nBut they both got demons in the deep past\nYou know opposites attract, apparently\n\nNever heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\nHe was all that she had\nUntil they had an argument\nAnd he stopped callin' her back\nAnd I don't know if there was\nMore to the story than that\n'Cause she plays things down\nBut according to that\n\nHe went missing one day\nIn the morning, he ran\nShe's doin' over-time\nStruggling affordin' a flat\n'Til she lost her job\nIt fucked all of her plans\nCouldn't pay the rent\nBorrowin' and callin' for cash\n\nBut Hannah, she was there for her\nCared for her\nWhen I saw Les, she told me\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nLes sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\nIt's been raw but, David,\nI ain't ever been this poor\nThere's no income\nMy boyfriend left me\nSo how the fuck am I gonna\nSurvive when this kid's born?\"\n\nAnd I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\nAnd, Les, I never even\nKnew that you were havin' a kid\"\nBro, she's four months pregnant\nYoung and neglected\nSingle, but I don't think\nShe wants to accept it\n\nSo she's still textin' exes\nTryna get this back on track\nBut I don't think that she gets it\nIt's emotional obsession\nClinical depression\nLife is a lesson\nAnd you ain't gotta sit and cry\n'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\nThere's no better gift than the gift of life\nSo, can you handle it?\"\n\n\"I don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nBut that changed here perspective\nLate in December\nHer baby's expected to drop\nShe's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\nOnly gotta wait a few months\nHer and Hannah had lunch\nTold her she's pregnant\nAnd they're the closest of bredren\n\nSo she didn't stop to tell her\nI think that's it's an error\nYou ain't a mum for a day\nYou're a mum forever\nWhatever, and you and\nJason break up whenever\nIf I'm honest, that's something\nYou shoulda done together\nShe doesn't know that her and\nJason goin' out again\nAnd Jason doesn't know that\nLesley's carrying a child for them\n\nShe had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\nBetter 'cause now they're together it's wild\nFeelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\nBut most of them are never around\nShe calls Hannah the next day\nStill tryna figure out the best way to tell her\nThat she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\nSo she left her a voicemail\n\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like\nI need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nIt's 3:30\nLesley was meant to get a scan\nBut today I think she's goin' home early\nTryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\nAddressing any reservations\nHave that conversation\n\nMiddle of the summer and it's rainin'\nWaitin' at the train station\nHella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\nSittin' in the back seat\nBlue jean jacket and a maxi\nActually tired and her legs are achin'\nTouched her destination\nWay faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\nShe put the key in the door\nShe couldn't believe\nWhat she see on the floor\nSome size-five trainers\nRagin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n'Cause they must be the neighbour's\nAnd Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\nLesley's runnin' up the stairs\nBut she's makin' noise\n\nAnd she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n\"Hide in the closet\"\nBut he's made his choice\nSo she bursts in\nSayin', \"What kind of person\nWould cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\nJason sayin', \"What the fuck?\nYou're pregnant?\nWhat the fuck?\nYou weren't even gonna tell me\nI mean, what the fuck\nWhat d'you want from us?\nNah, you ain't in love\nYou just wanna love\n\nLesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\nI don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\nAnd also, I don't wanna talk loads\nOne more line, before\nI dash like Morse code\nOpen the wardrobe\"\nAnd Jason's on the edge\n\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\nSlimmer than me\nMaybe your baby's similar to me\n\nMaybe you wanted someone thicker than me\nFitter than me\nTo satisfy you quicker than me\nI got your baby in my stomach\nAnd you did this to me\nWhat did I ever do to you\nFor you to finish with me?\n\nI didn't believe my girls\nBut they were thinkin' of me\nAnd give it to me,\nThe wardrobe, give me the key\"\nI was pullin' at the door\nBut Jason's bigger than me\nLiterally, I remember viscerally\n\nJason pullin' from behind me\nNow he's grippin' on me\nWhite flashes, eye gashes\nWhen he's hittin' me, see\nI just wanted to disappear\nI wasn't livin' for me\nPhysically, I shut the fuckin' doors\nQuick as could be\n\nHe's outside, askin' why\nI made him do what he did\nUsing a kick to open up the room that I'm in\nI'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\nWith a chair in the handle\nI'm hearin' sirens\nI just wanna run away, but I can't\n\nJason's gone by the time\nPolice have come and they saw that there\nAin't no one else in the house\nThe feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\nThere's blood all over the floor\nAnd it's splattered onto the wall\n\nLesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\nShe's deep in the stress\nAnd there's metres above her head\nIf anything she couldn't even say anything\nBut she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\nSo they call an ambulance\nLesley even had planned for this\nPolice are in the room tryna\nFind the missing piece of the puzzle\nUntil they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\nIt's a phone, in the wardrobe\nIt had five missed calls from Jason\nAnd also a couple other numbers\nSo they're thinkin' that it's no help\nUntil they play the voicemail\nLike \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\nCan you call me back?\nI wanna talk about the baby\nYou, me, Jason, all of that\nI been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\nI used to be so fuckin' confident\nBut these days, I swear that\n\nI don't know myself\nI don't know myself no more\"\n\nShe felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\nMind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\nBattlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\nTryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\nMeanwhile, she's on the deck\nTryna manage this piercing\nPain in her stomach\nShe couldn't handle it\nNow she's waiting for an ambulance\n\nLook, and I know she's strong\nBut when I heard about\nWhat happened I was over-shocked\nHer nose was gone\nHer jawline shattered and rot\nThey said her baby was\nThe reason she was holdin' on\n\nShe's dozing off\nDoctors gettin' no response\nHer heart rate's slowin' down\nAnd they don't know what's wrong\nPicked her up, got her out of the home\nAnd on to the stretcher for good measure\nBut she's fading out, uh\n\nShe took damage to the brain\nAnd now she's in a coma as we speak\nBut I ain't sure if she can make it out\nYou see, this time that\nI'm takin' out to tell you the story\nIs more that a song or track\nIt's a message to a woman with a toxic man\nI'm beggin' you to get support\nIf you're lost or trapped\nI understand that I can never under-stand\nAnd I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\nSome of your sisters, aunties\nMums or wives are fucked inside\nAnd they won't ever touch on why\nI'm touched, 'cause I've seen\nWomen that are loved or liked\nCry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\nThis shit's awful\nNo matter what culture, it ain't normal\nMen try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\nIn that train full of people that you're takin'\nHow many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\nAngel without wings\nLike the day without the night\nTo bring her peace\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nLike an ocean without a shore\nA soldier without a war\nHow can we do this anymore?\nA song without a voice\nA spark without a flame\nA child without a name\nOh it's just wrong\n\nWell, we've made a massive amount\nOf progress in this last year, haven't we?\nFeels like a long journey\nAnd I must say it's been a pleasure\nTo watch you mature and grow\nIn thought and in your career and life\n\nYou've opened up immensely\nI'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\nBut you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\nSo you're always welcome\nI'm just happy you're at a place now\nWhere you feel you understand your emotions\nAnd are in control","syncedLyrics":"[00:10.32] Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n[00:13.99] And it must be true because we ain't from\n[00:15.93] The same background or same place\n[00:19.32] But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n[00:22.37] I'm talkin' every day\n[00:24.09] I used to wake up around seven or eight\n[00:26.60] To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n[00:29.61] Two different worlds in the same location\n[00:32.63] One day we ended up speaking\n[00:35.32] And I would talk about college\n[00:36.70] She would talk about meetings\n[00:38.69] And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n[00:40.47] How she hates what she does\n[00:42.06] But she needs it\n[00:43.34] I asked her what she would do\n[00:44.71] When it's the weekend\n[00:45.97] But she said, she said\n[00:48.41] \"I don't know myself\n[00:51.22] I don't know myself no more\"\n[00:54.74] She used to be the life of the party for true\n[00:57.54] But now she goin' out hardly ever\n[00:59.91] Her man got her in the yard forever\n[01:01.75] And her friends wanna help\n[01:03.18] But it's hard to tell her\n[01:04.43] Hard to let her know that\n[01:05.86] Her man's possessive and aggressive\n[01:08.45] And she can't even see it\n[01:09.89] But for them it's clear as day\n[01:11.42] She's in a situation\n[01:12.87] Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n[01:15.78] So she can see it from a mile off\n[01:18.55] Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n[01:21.26] All the signs were there\n[01:22.70] But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n[01:25.17] Said it wasn't right to share\n[01:26.63] Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n[01:28.60] I didn't know much about him\n[01:30.07] But he's been in the can\n[01:31.35] Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n[01:34.72] To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n[01:37.10] 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n[01:40.25] But they both got demons in the deep past\n[01:42.81] You know opposites attract, apparently\n[01:45.57] Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n[01:48.91] He was all that she had\n[01:50.36] Until they had an argument\n[01:51.48] And he stopped callin' her back\n[01:52.89] And I don't know if there was\n[01:54.27] More to the story than that\n[01:55.60] 'Cause she plays things down\n[01:56.93] But according to that\n[01:58.21] He went missing one day\n[01:59.51] In the morning, he ran\n[02:00.98] She's doin' over-time\n[02:02.00] Struggling affordin' a flat\n[02:03.45] 'Til she lost her job\n[02:04.95] It fucked all of her plans\n[02:06.45] Couldn't pay the rent\n[02:07.55] Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n[02:09.08] But Hannah, she was there for her\n[02:11.12] Cared for her\n[02:12.82] When I saw Les, she told me\n[02:14.73] \"I don't know myself\n[02:17.49] I don't know myself no more\"\n[02:20.53] Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n[02:22.70] It's been raw but, David,\n[02:24.12] I ain't ever been this poor\n[02:25.43] There's no income\n[02:26.88] My boyfriend left me\n[02:28.37] So how the fuck am I gonna\n[02:29.45] Survive when this kid's born?\"\n[02:30.89] And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n[02:33.34] And, Les, I never even\n[02:34.67] Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n[02:35.96] Bro, she's four months pregnant\n[02:37.55] Young and neglected\n[02:39.03] Single, but I don't think\n[02:40.55] She wants to accept it\n[02:41.65] So she's still textin' exes\n[02:43.20] Tryna get this back on track\n[02:45.56] But I don't think that she gets it\n[02:49.37] It's emotional obsession\n[02:50.91] Clinical depression\n[02:52.58] Life is a lesson\n[02:55.35] And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n[02:58.01] 'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n[03:00.53] There's no better gift than the gift of life\n[03:03.01] So, can you handle it?\"\n[03:06.32] \n[03:08.57] \"I don't know myself\n[03:11.59] I don't know myself no more\"\n[03:15.19] But that changed here perspective\n[03:17.09] Late in December\n[03:18.22] Her baby's expected to drop\n[03:19.83] She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n[03:22.88] Only gotta wait a few months\n[03:24.65] Her and Hannah had lunch\n[03:26.24] Told her she's pregnant\n[03:28.30] And they're the closest of bredren\n[03:30.19] So she didn't stop to tell her\n[03:32.12] I think that's it's an error\n[03:33.38] You ain't a mum for a day\n[03:34.85] You're a mum forever\n[03:35.82] Whatever, and you and\n[03:37.01] Jason break up whenever\n[03:38.62] If I'm honest, that's something\n[03:39.89] You shoulda done together\n[03:41.27] She doesn't know that her and\n[03:42.75] Jason goin' out again\n[03:43.74] And Jason doesn't know that\n[03:44.81] Lesley's carrying a child for them\n[03:46.75] She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n[03:49.20] Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n[03:51.88] Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n[03:53.86] 'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n[03:55.38] But most of them are never around\n[03:56.74] She calls Hannah the next day\n[04:00.08] Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n[04:02.92] That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n[04:06.35] So she left her a voicemail\n[04:08.26] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[04:09.81] Can you call me back?\n[04:11.65] I wanna talk about the baby\n[04:13.45] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[04:16.43] I been feelin' like\n[04:17.58] I need to get my aura back\n[04:19.54] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[04:21.79] But these days, I swear that\n[04:24.32] I don't know myself\n[04:27.15] I don't know myself no more\"\n[04:29.78] It's 3:30\n[04:31.15] Lesley was meant to get a scan\n[04:32.73] But today I think she's goin' home early\n[04:34.83] Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n[04:37.48] Addressing any reservations\n[04:39.16] Have that conversation\n[04:40.55] Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n[04:42.57] Waitin' at the train station\n[04:44.43] Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n[04:47.01] Sittin' in the back seat\n[04:48.51] Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n[04:50.64] Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n[04:52.86] Touched her destination\n[04:54.42] Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n[04:56.82] She put the key in the door\n[04:59.13] She couldn't believe\n[05:00.11] What she see on the floor\n[05:01.78] Some size-five trainers\n[05:03.33] Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n[05:05.83] 'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n[05:07.23] And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n[05:09.88] Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n[05:11.95] But she's makin' noise\n[05:13.50] And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n[05:15.64] \"Hide in the closet\"\n[05:16.59] But he's made his choice\n[05:17.88] So she bursts in\n[05:19.28] Sayin', \"What kind of person\n[05:20.89] Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n[05:23.20] Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n[05:24.83] You're pregnant?\n[05:25.77] What the fuck?\n[05:26.76] You weren't even gonna tell me\n[05:27.96] I mean, what the fuck\n[05:29.41] What d'you want from us?\n[05:31.34] Nah, you ain't in love\n[05:33.32] You just wanna love\n[05:34.87] Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n[05:37.71] I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n[05:40.35] And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n[05:42.68] One more line, before\n[05:43.83] I dash like Morse code\n[05:45.39] Open the wardrobe\"\n[05:49.15] And Jason's on the edge\n[05:50.56] \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n[05:52.91] Slimmer than me\n[05:53.78] Maybe your baby's similar to me\n[05:55.87] Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n[05:58.29] Fitter than me\n[05:59.01] To satisfy you quicker than me\n[06:01.00] I got your baby in my stomach\n[06:02.42] And you did this to me\n[06:03.69] What did I ever do to you\n[06:05.06] For you to finish with me?\n[06:06.12] I didn't believe my girls\n[06:07.63] But they were thinkin' of me\n[06:09.05] And give it to me,\n[06:10.20] The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n[06:11.71] I was pullin' at the door\n[06:13.04] But Jason's bigger than me\n[06:14.30] Literally, I remember viscerally\n[06:17.04] Jason pullin' from behind me\n[06:18.52] Now he's grippin' on me\n[06:19.77] White flashes, eye gashes\n[06:21.11] When he's hittin' me, see\n[06:22.53] I just wanted to disappear\n[06:23.82] I wasn't livin' for me\n[06:25.13] Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n[06:26.81] Quick as could be\n[06:27.94] He's outside, askin' why\n[06:29.38] I made him do what he did\n[06:30.60] Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n[06:33.08] I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n[06:34.68] With a chair in the handle\n[06:36.15] I'm hearin' sirens\n[06:37.54] I just wanna run away, but I can't\n[06:38.69] Jason's gone by the time\n[06:40.14] Police have come and they saw that there\n[06:41.51] Ain't no one else in the house\n[06:42.89] The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n[06:44.75] \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n[06:46.72] There's blood all over the floor\n[06:48.12] And it's splattered onto the wall\n[06:49.64] Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n[06:52.38] She's deep in the stress\n[06:53.54] And there's metres above her head\n[06:54.98] If anything she couldn't even say anything\n[06:57.84] But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n[07:00.44] So they call an ambulance\n[07:01.99] Lesley even had planned for this\n[07:03.49] Police are in the room tryna\n[07:04.65] Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n[07:06.34] Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n[07:08.11] It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n[07:13.43] It had five missed calls from Jason\n[07:16.06] And also a couple other numbers\n[07:17.95] So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n[07:20.65] Until they play the voicemail\n[07:22.40] Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n[07:24.16] Can you call me back?\n[07:25.80] I wanna talk about the baby\n[07:27.59] You, me, Jason, all of that\n[07:30.66] I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n[07:33.38] I used to be so fuckin' confident\n[07:36.07] But these days, I swear that\n[07:38.32] I don't know myself\n[07:41.32] I don't know myself no more\"\n[07:43.97] She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n[07:46.76] Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n[07:49.24] Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n[07:51.96] Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n[07:54.71] Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n[07:56.46] Tryna manage this piercing\n[07:57.88] Pain in her stomach\n[07:58.96] She couldn't handle it\n[08:00.55] Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n[08:04.94] Look, and I know she's strong\n[08:07.64] But when I heard about\n[08:08.70] What happened I was over-shocked\n[08:10.38] Her nose was gone\n[08:11.44] Her jawline shattered and rot\n[08:13.19] They said her baby was\n[08:14.33] The reason she was holdin' on\n[08:15.88] She's dozing off\n[08:16.91] Doctors gettin' no response\n[08:18.56] Her heart rate's slowin' down\n[08:20.05] And they don't know what's wrong\n[08:21.36] Picked her up, got her out of the home\n[08:23.32] And on to the stretcher for good measure\n[08:25.45] But she's fading out, uh\n[08:27.03] She took damage to the brain\n[08:29.02] And now she's in a coma as we speak\n[08:30.84] But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n[08:32.51] You see, this time that\n[08:33.50] I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n[08:35.71] Is more that a song or track\n[08:37.32] It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n[08:40.03] I'm beggin' you to get support\n[08:41.59] If you're lost or trapped\n[08:42.88] I understand that I can never under-stand\n[08:45.27] And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n[08:48.15] Some of your sisters, aunties\n[08:49.90] Mums or wives are fucked inside\n[08:51.73] And they won't ever touch on why\n[08:53.54] I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n[08:54.66] Women that are loved or liked\n[08:56.39] Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n[08:58.78] This shit's awful\n[08:59.80] No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n[09:01.99] Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n[09:04.96] In that train full of people that you're takin'\n[09:07.44] How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n[09:10.98] \n[09:18.49] Angel without wings\n[09:23.09] Like the day without the night\n[09:25.23] To bring her peace\n[09:28.70] A song without a voice\n[09:31.86] A spark without a flame\n[09:34.59] A child without a name\n[09:38.27] Oh it's just wrong\n[09:41.59] Like an ocean without a shore\n[09:44.64] A soldier without a war\n[09:47.10] How can we do this anymore?\n[09:51.52] A song without a voice\n[09:54.89] A spark without a flame\n[09:57.21] A child without a name\n[10:01.02] Oh it's just wrong\n[10:05.41] \n[10:22.80] Well, we've made a massive amount\n[10:25.33] Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n[10:29.25] Feels like a long journey\n[10:32.50] And I must say it's been a pleasure\n[10:34.52] To watch you mature and grow\n[10:36.93] In thought and in your career and life\n[10:41.05] You've opened up immensely\n[10:44.42] I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n[10:48.16] But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n[10:54.40] So you're always welcome\n[10:58.19] I'm just happy you're at a place now\n[11:00.05] Where you feel you understand your emotions\n[11:05.08] And are in control\n[11:06.49] ","lyricsfile":"version: '1.0'\nmetadata:\n  title: Lesley (feat. 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64430\n  end_ms: 65860\n- text: Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  start_ms: 65860\n  end_ms: 68450\n- text: And she can't even see it\n  start_ms: 68450\n  end_ms: 69890\n- text: But for them it's clear as day\n  start_ms: 69890\n  end_ms: 71420\n- text: She's in a situation\n  start_ms: 71420\n  end_ms: 72870\n- text: Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  start_ms: 72870\n  end_ms: 75780\n- text: So she can see it from a mile off\n  start_ms: 75780\n  end_ms: 78550\n- text: Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  start_ms: 78550\n  end_ms: 81260\n- text: All the signs were there\n  start_ms: 81260\n  end_ms: 82700\n- text: But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  start_ms: 82700\n  end_ms: 85170\n- text: Said it wasn't right to share\n  start_ms: 85170\n  end_ms: 86630\n- text: Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n  start_ms: 86630\n  end_ms: 88600\n- text: I didn't know much about him\n  start_ms: 88600\n  end_ms: 90070\n- text: But he's been in the can\n  start_ms: 90070\n  end_ms: 91350\n- text: Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  start_ms: 91350\n  end_ms: 94720\n- text: To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  start_ms: 94720\n  end_ms: 97100\n- text: '''Cause she''s a good girl with a sweet heart'\n  start_ms: 97100\n  end_ms: 100250\n- text: But they both got demons in the deep past\n  start_ms: 100250\n  end_ms: 102810\n- text: You know opposites attract, apparently\n  start_ms: 102810\n  end_ms: 105570\n- text: Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  start_ms: 105570\n  end_ms: 108910\n- text: He was all that she had\n  start_ms: 108910\n  end_ms: 110360\n- text: Until they had an argument\n  start_ms: 110360\n  end_ms: 111480\n- text: And he stopped callin' her back\n  start_ms: 111480\n  end_ms: 112890\n- text: And I don't know if there was\n  start_ms: 112890\n  end_ms: 114270\n- text: More to the story than that\n  start_ms: 114270\n  end_ms: 115600\n- text: '''Cause she plays things down'\n  start_ms: 115600\n  end_ms: 116930\n- text: But according to that\n  start_ms: 116930\n  end_ms: 118210\n- text: He went missing one day\n  start_ms: 118210\n  end_ms: 119510\n- text: In the morning, he ran\n  start_ms: 119510\n  end_ms: 120980\n- text: She's doin' over-time\n  start_ms: 120980\n  end_ms: 122000\n- text: Struggling affordin' a flat\n  start_ms: 122000\n  end_ms: 123450\n- text: '''Til she lost her job'\n  start_ms: 123450\n  end_ms: 124950\n- text: It fucked all of her plans\n  start_ms: 124950\n  end_ms: 126450\n- text: Couldn't pay the rent\n  start_ms: 126450\n  end_ms: 127550\n- text: Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n  start_ms: 127550\n  end_ms: 129080\n- text: But Hannah, she was there for her\n  start_ms: 129080\n  end_ms: 131120\n- text: Cared for her\n  start_ms: 131120\n  end_ms: 132820\n- text: When I saw Les, she told me\n  start_ms: 132820\n  end_ms: 134730\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 134730\n  end_ms: 137490\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 137490\n  end_ms: 140530\n- text: Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  start_ms: 140530\n  end_ms: 142700\n- text: It's been raw but, David,\n  start_ms: 142700\n  end_ms: 144120\n- text: I ain't ever been this poor\n  start_ms: 144120\n  end_ms: 145430\n- text: There's no income\n  start_ms: 145430\n  end_ms: 146880\n- text: My boyfriend left me\n  start_ms: 146880\n  end_ms: 148370\n- text: So how the fuck am I gonna\n  start_ms: 148370\n  end_ms: 149450\n- text: Survive when this kid's born?\"\n  start_ms: 149450\n  end_ms: 150890\n- text: And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  start_ms: 150890\n  end_ms: 153340\n- text: And, Les, I never even\n  start_ms: 153340\n  end_ms: 154670\n- text: Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  start_ms: 154670\n  end_ms: 155960\n- text: Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  start_ms: 155960\n  end_ms: 157550\n- text: Young and neglected\n  start_ms: 157550\n  end_ms: 159030\n- text: Single, but I don't think\n  start_ms: 159030\n  end_ms: 160550\n- text: She wants to accept it\n  start_ms: 160550\n  end_ms: 161650\n- text: So she's still textin' exes\n  start_ms: 161650\n  end_ms: 163200\n- text: Tryna get this back on track\n  start_ms: 163200\n  end_ms: 165560\n- text: But I don't think that she gets it\n  start_ms: 165560\n  end_ms: 169370\n- text: It's emotional obsession\n  start_ms: 169370\n  end_ms: 170910\n- text: Clinical depression\n  start_ms: 170910\n  end_ms: 172580\n- text: Life is a lesson\n  start_ms: 172580\n  end_ms: 175350\n- text: And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  start_ms: 175350\n  end_ms: 178010\n- text: '''Cause Lesley, livin'' in this gift called life'\n  start_ms: 178010\n  end_ms: 180530\n- text: There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  start_ms: 180530\n  end_ms: 183010\n- text: So, can you handle it?\"\n  start_ms: 183010\n  end_ms: 186320\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 186320\n  end_ms: 188570\n- text: '\"I don''t know myself'\n  start_ms: 188570\n  end_ms: 191590\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 191590\n  end_ms: 195190\n- text: But that changed here perspective\n  start_ms: 195190\n  end_ms: 197090\n- text: Late in December\n  start_ms: 197090\n  end_ms: 198220\n- text: Her baby's expected to drop\n  start_ms: 198220\n  end_ms: 199830\n- text: She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  start_ms: 199830\n  end_ms: 202880\n- text: Only gotta wait a few months\n  start_ms: 202880\n  end_ms: 204650\n- text: Her and Hannah had lunch\n  start_ms: 204650\n  end_ms: 206240\n- text: Told her she's pregnant\n  start_ms: 206240\n  end_ms: 208300\n- text: And they're the closest of bredren\n  start_ms: 208300\n  end_ms: 210190\n- text: So she didn't stop to tell her\n  start_ms: 210190\n  end_ms: 212120\n- text: I think that's it's an error\n  start_ms: 212120\n  end_ms: 213380\n- text: You ain't a mum for a day\n  start_ms: 213380\n  end_ms: 214850\n- text: You're a mum forever\n  start_ms: 214850\n  end_ms: 215820\n- text: Whatever, and you and\n  start_ms: 215820\n  end_ms: 217010\n- text: Jason break up whenever\n  start_ms: 217010\n  end_ms: 218620\n- text: If I'm honest, that's something\n  start_ms: 218620\n  end_ms: 219890\n- text: You shoulda done together\n  start_ms: 219890\n  end_ms: 221270\n- text: She doesn't know that her and\n  start_ms: 221270\n  end_ms: 222750\n- text: Jason goin' out again\n  start_ms: 222750\n  end_ms: 223740\n- text: And Jason doesn't know that\n  start_ms: 223740\n  end_ms: 224810\n- text: Lesley's carrying a child for them\n  start_ms: 224810\n  end_ms: 226750\n- text: She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  start_ms: 226750\n  end_ms: 229200\n- text: Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  start_ms: 229200\n  end_ms: 231880\n- text: Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  start_ms: 231880\n  end_ms: 233860\n- text: '''Cause, while she''s lettin'' ''em down'\n  start_ms: 233860\n  end_ms: 235380\n- text: But most of them are never around\n  start_ms: 235380\n  end_ms: 236740\n- text: She calls Hannah the next day\n  start_ms: 236740\n  end_ms: 240080\n- text: Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  start_ms: 240080\n  end_ms: 242920\n- text: That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  start_ms: 242920\n  end_ms: 246350\n- text: So she left her a voicemail\n  start_ms: 246350\n  end_ms: 248260\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 248260\n  end_ms: 249810\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 249810\n  end_ms: 251650\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 251650\n  end_ms: 253450\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 253450\n  end_ms: 256430\n- text: I been feelin' like\n  start_ms: 256430\n  end_ms: 257580\n- text: I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 257580\n  end_ms: 259540\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 259540\n  end_ms: 261790\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 261790\n  end_ms: 264320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 264320\n  end_ms: 267150\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 267150\n  end_ms: 269780\n- text: It's 3:30\n  start_ms: 269780\n  end_ms: 271150\n- text: Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  start_ms: 271150\n  end_ms: 272730\n- text: But today I think she's goin' home early\n  start_ms: 272730\n  end_ms: 274830\n- text: Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  start_ms: 274830\n  end_ms: 277480\n- text: Addressing any reservations\n  start_ms: 277480\n  end_ms: 279160\n- text: Have that conversation\n  start_ms: 279160\n  end_ms: 280550\n- text: Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  start_ms: 280550\n  end_ms: 282570\n- text: Waitin' at the train station\n  start_ms: 282570\n  end_ms: 284430\n- text: Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  start_ms: 284430\n  end_ms: 287010\n- text: Sittin' in the back seat\n  start_ms: 287010\n  end_ms: 288510\n- text: Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  start_ms: 288510\n  end_ms: 290640\n- text: Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  start_ms: 290640\n  end_ms: 292860\n- text: Touched her destination\n  start_ms: 292860\n  end_ms: 294420\n- text: Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n  start_ms: 294420\n  end_ms: 296820\n- text: She put the key in the door\n  start_ms: 296820\n  end_ms: 299130\n- text: She couldn't believe\n  start_ms: 299130\n  end_ms: 300110\n- text: What she see on the floor\n  start_ms: 300110\n  end_ms: 301780\n- text: Some size-five trainers\n  start_ms: 301780\n  end_ms: 303330\n- text: Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  start_ms: 303330\n  end_ms: 305830\n- text: '''Cause they must be the neighbour''s'\n  start_ms: 305830\n  end_ms: 307230\n- text: And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  start_ms: 307230\n  end_ms: 309880\n- text: Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  start_ms: 309880\n  end_ms: 311950\n- text: But she's makin' noise\n  start_ms: 311950\n  end_ms: 313500\n- text: And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  start_ms: 313500\n  end_ms: 315640\n- text: '\"Hide in the closet\"'\n  start_ms: 315640\n  end_ms: 316590\n- text: But he's made his choice\n  start_ms: 316590\n  end_ms: 317880\n- text: So she bursts in\n  start_ms: 317880\n  end_ms: 319280\n- text: Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  start_ms: 319280\n  end_ms: 320890\n- text: Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n  start_ms: 320890\n  end_ms: 323200\n- text: Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 323200\n  end_ms: 324830\n- text: You're pregnant?\n  start_ms: 324830\n  end_ms: 325770\n- text: What the fuck?\n  start_ms: 325770\n  end_ms: 326760\n- text: You weren't even gonna tell me\n  start_ms: 326760\n  end_ms: 327960\n- text: I mean, what the fuck\n  start_ms: 327960\n  end_ms: 329410\n- text: What d'you want from us?\n  start_ms: 329410\n  end_ms: 331340\n- text: Nah, you ain't in love\n  start_ms: 331340\n  end_ms: 333320\n- text: You just wanna love\n  start_ms: 333320\n  end_ms: 334870\n- text: Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  start_ms: 334870\n  end_ms: 337710\n- text: I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  start_ms: 337710\n  end_ms: 340350\n- text: And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  start_ms: 340350\n  end_ms: 342680\n- text: One more line, before\n  start_ms: 342680\n  end_ms: 343830\n- text: I dash like Morse code\n  start_ms: 343830\n  end_ms: 345390\n- text: Open the wardrobe\"\n  start_ms: 345390\n  end_ms: 349150\n- text: And Jason's on the edge\n  start_ms: 349150\n  end_ms: 350560\n- text: '\"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me'\n  start_ms: 350560\n  end_ms: 352910\n- text: Slimmer than me\n  start_ms: 352910\n  end_ms: 353780\n- text: Maybe your baby's similar to me\n  start_ms: 353780\n  end_ms: 355870\n- text: Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  start_ms: 355870\n  end_ms: 358290\n- text: Fitter than me\n  start_ms: 358290\n  end_ms: 359010\n- text: To satisfy you quicker than me\n  start_ms: 359010\n  end_ms: 361000\n- text: I got your baby in my stomach\n  start_ms: 361000\n  end_ms: 362420\n- text: And you did this to me\n  start_ms: 362420\n  end_ms: 363690\n- text: What did I ever do to you\n  start_ms: 363690\n  end_ms: 365060\n- text: For you to finish with me?\n  start_ms: 365060\n  end_ms: 366120\n- text: I didn't believe my girls\n  start_ms: 366120\n  end_ms: 367630\n- text: But they were thinkin' of me\n  start_ms: 367630\n  end_ms: 369050\n- text: And give it to me,\n  start_ms: 369050\n  end_ms: 370200\n- text: The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  start_ms: 370200\n  end_ms: 371710\n- text: I was pullin' at the door\n  start_ms: 371710\n  end_ms: 373040\n- text: But Jason's bigger than me\n  start_ms: 373040\n  end_ms: 374300\n- text: Literally, I remember viscerally\n  start_ms: 374300\n  end_ms: 377040\n- text: Jason pullin' from behind me\n  start_ms: 377040\n  end_ms: 378520\n- text: Now he's grippin' on me\n  start_ms: 378520\n  end_ms: 379770\n- text: White flashes, eye gashes\n  start_ms: 379770\n  end_ms: 381110\n- text: When he's hittin' me, see\n  start_ms: 381110\n  end_ms: 382530\n- text: I just wanted to disappear\n  start_ms: 382530\n  end_ms: 383820\n- text: I wasn't livin' for me\n  start_ms: 383820\n  end_ms: 385130\n- text: Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  start_ms: 385130\n  end_ms: 386810\n- text: Quick as could be\n  start_ms: 386810\n  end_ms: 387940\n- text: He's outside, askin' why\n  start_ms: 387940\n  end_ms: 389380\n- text: I made him do what he did\n  start_ms: 389380\n  end_ms: 390600\n- text: Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  start_ms: 390600\n  end_ms: 393080\n- text: I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  start_ms: 393080\n  end_ms: 394680\n- text: With a chair in the handle\n  start_ms: 394680\n  end_ms: 396150\n- text: I'm hearin' sirens\n  start_ms: 396150\n  end_ms: 397540\n- text: I just wanna run away, but I can't\n  start_ms: 397540\n  end_ms: 398690\n- text: Jason's gone by the time\n  start_ms: 398690\n  end_ms: 400140\n- text: Police have come and they saw that there\n  start_ms: 400140\n  end_ms: 401510\n- text: Ain't no one else in the house\n  start_ms: 401510\n  end_ms: 402890\n- text: The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  start_ms: 402890\n  end_ms: 404750\n- text: '\"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"'\n  start_ms: 404750\n  end_ms: 406720\n- text: There's blood all over the floor\n  start_ms: 406720\n  end_ms: 408120\n- text: And it's splattered onto the wall\n  start_ms: 408120\n  end_ms: 409640\n- text: Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  start_ms: 409640\n  end_ms: 412380\n- text: She's deep in the stress\n  start_ms: 412380\n  end_ms: 413540\n- text: And there's metres above her head\n  start_ms: 413540\n  end_ms: 414980\n- text: If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  start_ms: 414980\n  end_ms: 417840\n- text: But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  start_ms: 417840\n  end_ms: 420440\n- text: So they call an ambulance\n  start_ms: 420440\n  end_ms: 421990\n- text: Lesley even had planned for this\n  start_ms: 421990\n  end_ms: 423490\n- text: Police are in the room tryna\n  start_ms: 423490\n  end_ms: 424650\n- text: Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  start_ms: 424650\n  end_ms: 426340\n- text: Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n  start_ms: 426340\n  end_ms: 428110\n- text: It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  start_ms: 428110\n  end_ms: 433430\n- text: It had five missed calls from Jason\n  start_ms: 433430\n  end_ms: 436060\n- text: And also a couple other numbers\n  start_ms: 436060\n  end_ms: 437950\n- text: So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  start_ms: 437950\n  end_ms: 440650\n- text: Until they play the voicemail\n  start_ms: 440650\n  end_ms: 442400\n- text: Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  start_ms: 442400\n  end_ms: 444160\n- text: Can you call me back?\n  start_ms: 444160\n  end_ms: 445800\n- text: I wanna talk about the baby\n  start_ms: 445800\n  end_ms: 447590\n- text: You, me, Jason, all of that\n  start_ms: 447590\n  end_ms: 450660\n- text: I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  start_ms: 450660\n  end_ms: 453380\n- text: I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  start_ms: 453380\n  end_ms: 456070\n- text: But these days, I swear that\n  start_ms: 456070\n  end_ms: 458320\n- text: I don't know myself\n  start_ms: 458320\n  end_ms: 461320\n- text: I don't know myself no more\"\n  start_ms: 461320\n  end_ms: 463970\n- text: She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  start_ms: 463970\n  end_ms: 466760\n- text: Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  start_ms: 466760\n  end_ms: 469240\n- text: Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  start_ms: 469240\n  end_ms: 471960\n- text: Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  start_ms: 471960\n  end_ms: 474710\n- text: Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  start_ms: 474710\n  end_ms: 476460\n- text: Tryna manage this piercing\n  start_ms: 476460\n  end_ms: 477880\n- text: Pain in her stomach\n  start_ms: 477880\n  end_ms: 478960\n- text: She couldn't handle it\n  start_ms: 478960\n  end_ms: 480550\n- text: Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n  start_ms: 480550\n  end_ms: 484940\n- text: Look, and I know she's strong\n  start_ms: 484940\n  end_ms: 487640\n- text: But when I heard about\n  start_ms: 487640\n  end_ms: 488700\n- text: What happened I was over-shocked\n  start_ms: 488700\n  end_ms: 490380\n- text: Her nose was gone\n  start_ms: 490380\n  end_ms: 491440\n- text: Her jawline shattered and rot\n  start_ms: 491440\n  end_ms: 493190\n- text: They said her baby was\n  start_ms: 493190\n  end_ms: 494330\n- text: The reason she was holdin' on\n  start_ms: 494330\n  end_ms: 495880\n- text: She's dozing off\n  start_ms: 495880\n  end_ms: 496910\n- text: Doctors gettin' no response\n  start_ms: 496910\n  end_ms: 498560\n- text: Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  start_ms: 498560\n  end_ms: 500050\n- text: And they don't know what's wrong\n  start_ms: 500050\n  end_ms: 501360\n- text: Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  start_ms: 501360\n  end_ms: 503320\n- text: And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  start_ms: 503320\n  end_ms: 505450\n- text: But she's fading out, uh\n  start_ms: 505450\n  end_ms: 507030\n- text: She took damage to the brain\n  start_ms: 507030\n  end_ms: 509020\n- text: And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  start_ms: 509020\n  end_ms: 510840\n- text: But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  start_ms: 510840\n  end_ms: 512510\n- text: You see, this time that\n  start_ms: 512510\n  end_ms: 513500\n- text: I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  start_ms: 513500\n  end_ms: 515710\n- text: Is more that a song or track\n  start_ms: 515710\n  end_ms: 517320\n- text: It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  start_ms: 517320\n  end_ms: 520030\n- text: I'm beggin' you to get support\n  start_ms: 520030\n  end_ms: 521590\n- text: If you're lost or trapped\n  start_ms: 521590\n  end_ms: 522880\n- text: I understand that I can never under-stand\n  start_ms: 522880\n  end_ms: 525270\n- text: And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n  start_ms: 525270\n  end_ms: 528150\n- text: Some of your sisters, aunties\n  start_ms: 528150\n  end_ms: 529900\n- text: Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  start_ms: 529900\n  end_ms: 531730\n- text: And they won't ever touch on why\n  start_ms: 531730\n  end_ms: 533540\n- text: I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  start_ms: 533540\n  end_ms: 534660\n- text: Women that are loved or liked\n  start_ms: 534660\n  end_ms: 536390\n- text: Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  start_ms: 536390\n  end_ms: 538780\n- text: This shit's awful\n  start_ms: 538780\n  end_ms: 539800\n- text: No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  start_ms: 539800\n  end_ms: 541990\n- text: Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  start_ms: 541990\n  end_ms: 544960\n- text: In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  start_ms: 544960\n  end_ms: 547440\n- text: How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n  start_ms: 547440\n  end_ms: 550980\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 550980\n  end_ms: 558490\n- text: Angel without wings\n  start_ms: 558490\n  end_ms: 563090\n- text: Like the day without the night\n  start_ms: 563090\n  end_ms: 565230\n- text: To bring her peace\n  start_ms: 565230\n  end_ms: 568700\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 568700\n  end_ms: 571860\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 571860\n  end_ms: 574590\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 574590\n  end_ms: 578270\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 578270\n  end_ms: 581590\n- text: Like an ocean without a shore\n  start_ms: 581590\n  end_ms: 584640\n- text: A soldier without a war\n  start_ms: 584640\n  end_ms: 587100\n- text: How can we do this anymore?\n  start_ms: 587100\n  end_ms: 591520\n- text: A song without a voice\n  start_ms: 591520\n  end_ms: 594890\n- text: A spark without a flame\n  start_ms: 594890\n  end_ms: 597210\n- text: A child without a name\n  start_ms: 597210\n  end_ms: 601020\n- text: Oh it's just wrong\n  start_ms: 601020\n  end_ms: 605410\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 605410\n  end_ms: 622800\n- text: Well, we've made a massive amount\n  start_ms: 622800\n  end_ms: 625330\n- text: Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  start_ms: 625330\n  end_ms: 629250\n- text: Feels like a long journey\n  start_ms: 629250\n  end_ms: 632500\n- text: And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  start_ms: 632500\n  end_ms: 634520\n- text: To watch you mature and grow\n  start_ms: 634520\n  end_ms: 636930\n- text: In thought and in your career and life\n  start_ms: 636930\n  end_ms: 641050\n- text: You've opened up immensely\n  start_ms: 641050\n  end_ms: 644420\n- text: I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  start_ms: 644420\n  end_ms: 648160\n- text: But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  start_ms: 648160\n  end_ms: 654400\n- text: So you're always welcome\n  start_ms: 654400\n  end_ms: 658190\n- text: I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  start_ms: 658190\n  end_ms: 660050\n- text: Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  start_ms: 660050\n  end_ms: 665080\n- text: And are in control\n  start_ms: 665080\n  end_ms: 666490\n- text: ''\n  start_ms: 666490\nplain: |-\n  Look, they say the universe, it works in a strange way\n  And it must be true because we ain't from\n  The same background or same place\n  But me and Lesley ended up on theat same train\n  I'm talkin' every day\n\n  I used to wake up around seven or eight\n  To catch the 9:06 to Norbury station\n  Two different worlds in the same location\n  One day we ended up speaking\n  And I would talk about college\n  She would talk about meetings\n  And how she's plannin' on leavin'\n  How she hates what she does\n  But she needs it\n  I asked her what she would do\n  When it's the weekend\n  But she said, she said\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She used to be the life of the party for true\n  But now she goin' out hardly ever\n  Her man got her in the yard forever\n  And her friends wanna help\n  But it's hard to tell her\n  Hard to let her know that\n  Her man's possessive and aggressive\n  And she can't even see it\n  But for them it's clear as day\n  She's in a situation\n\n  Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative\n  So she can see it from a mile off\n  Turtle-neck jumpers, make-up around the eye spots\n  All the signs were there\n  But Leslie made it seem a light affair\n  Said it wasn't right to share\n  Her boyfriend he was a mystery man\n\n  I didn't know much about him\n  But he's been in the can\n  Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasonin'\n  To be honest, I don't know what Les sees in him\n  'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart\n  But they both got demons in the deep past\n  You know opposites attract, apparently\n\n  Never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh\n  He was all that she had\n  Until they had an argument\n  And he stopped callin' her back\n  And I don't know if there was\n  More to the story than that\n  'Cause she plays things down\n  But according to that\n\n  He went missing one day\n  In the morning, he ran\n  She's doin' over-time\n  Struggling affordin' a flat\n  'Til she lost her job\n  It fucked all of her plans\n  Couldn't pay the rent\n  Borrowin' and callin' for cash\n\n  But Hannah, she was there for her\n  Cared for her\n  When I saw Les, she told me\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  Les sayin' \"I got nothin' to live for\n  It's been raw but, David,\n  I ain't ever been this poor\n  There's no income\n  My boyfriend left me\n  So how the fuck am I gonna\n  Survive when this kid's born?\"\n\n  And I said, \"It's a blessing, as mad as it is\n  And, Les, I never even\n  Knew that you were havin' a kid\"\n  Bro, she's four months pregnant\n  Young and neglected\n  Single, but I don't think\n  She wants to accept it\n\n  So she's still textin' exes\n  Tryna get this back on track\n  But I don't think that she gets it\n  It's emotional obsession\n  Clinical depression\n  Life is a lesson\n  And you ain't gotta sit and cry\n  'Cause Lesley, livin' in this gift called life\n  There's no better gift than the gift of life\n  So, can you handle it?\"\n\n  \"I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  But that changed here perspective\n  Late in December\n  Her baby's expected to drop\n  She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped\n  Only gotta wait a few months\n  Her and Hannah had lunch\n  Told her she's pregnant\n  And they're the closest of bredren\n\n  So she didn't stop to tell her\n  I think that's it's an error\n  You ain't a mum for a day\n  You're a mum forever\n  Whatever, and you and\n  Jason break up whenever\n  If I'm honest, that's something\n  You shoulda done together\n  She doesn't know that her and\n  Jason goin' out again\n  And Jason doesn't know that\n  Lesley's carrying a child for them\n\n  She had daydreams of settlin' down with Jason\n  Better 'cause now they're together it's wild\n  Feelin' like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em\n  'Cause, while she's lettin' 'em down\n  But most of them are never around\n  She calls Hannah the next day\n  Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her\n  That she's gettin' back together with her ex flame\n  So she left her a voicemail\n\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like\n  I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  It's 3:30\n  Lesley was meant to get a scan\n  But today I think she's goin' home early\n  Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid\n  Addressing any reservations\n  Have that conversation\n\n  Middle of the summer and it's rainin'\n  Waitin' at the train station\n  Hella cancellations, so she gets a taxi\n  Sittin' in the back seat\n  Blue jean jacket and a maxi\n  Actually tired and her legs are achin'\n  Touched her destination\n  Way faster that the cab driver's estimation\n\n  She put the key in the door\n  She couldn't believe\n  What she see on the floor\n  Some size-five trainers\n  Ragin', tears in her eyes, but it's cool\n  'Cause they must be the neighbour's\n  And Jason's in the bedroom, fully naked\n  Lesley's runnin' up the stairs\n  But she's makin' noise\n\n  And she can hear Jason's voice sayin'\n  \"Hide in the closet\"\n  But he's made his choice\n  So she bursts in\n  Sayin', \"What kind of person\n  Would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?\"\n\n  Jason sayin', \"What the fuck?\n  You're pregnant?\n  What the fuck?\n  You weren't even gonna tell me\n  I mean, what the fuck\n  What d'you want from us?\n  Nah, you ain't in love\n  You just wanna love\n\n  Lesley tellin' Jason,\"I don't wanna love\n  I don't want a you-and-I, I don't want a us\n  And also, I don't wanna talk loads\n  One more line, before\n  I dash like Morse code\n  Open the wardrobe\"\n  And Jason's on the edge\n  \"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me\n  Slimmer than me\n  Maybe your baby's similar to me\n\n  Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me\n  Fitter than me\n  To satisfy you quicker than me\n  I got your baby in my stomach\n  And you did this to me\n  What did I ever do to you\n  For you to finish with me?\n\n  I didn't believe my girls\n  But they were thinkin' of me\n  And give it to me,\n  The wardrobe, give me the key\"\n  I was pullin' at the door\n  But Jason's bigger than me\n  Literally, I remember viscerally\n\n  Jason pullin' from behind me\n  Now he's grippin' on me\n  White flashes, eye gashes\n  When he's hittin' me, see\n  I just wanted to disappear\n  I wasn't livin' for me\n  Physically, I shut the fuckin' doors\n  Quick as could be\n\n  He's outside, askin' why\n  I made him do what he did\n  Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in\n  I'm feelin' afraid, barricaded\n  With a chair in the handle\n  I'm hearin' sirens\n  I just wanna run away, but I can't\n\n  Jason's gone by the time\n  Police have come and they saw that there\n  Ain't no one else in the house\n  The feds are runnin' through the door, shoutin'\n  \"We have reports of an argument with a woman\"\n  There's blood all over the floor\n  And it's splattered onto the wall\n\n  Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds\n  She's deep in the stress\n  And there's metres above her head\n  If anything she couldn't even say anything\n  But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is\n  So they call an ambulance\n  Lesley even had planned for this\n  Police are in the room tryna\n  Find the missing piece of the puzzle\n  Until they stumble on somethin' that's kinda random\n\n  It's a phone, in the wardrobe\n  It had five missed calls from Jason\n  And also a couple other numbers\n  So they're thinkin' that it's no help\n  Until they play the voicemail\n  Like \"Yo, Hannah, it's Les\n  Can you call me back?\n  I wanna talk about the baby\n  You, me, Jason, all of that\n  I been feelin' like I need to get my aura back\n  I used to be so fuckin' confident\n  But these days, I swear that\n\n  I don't know myself\n  I don't know myself no more\"\n\n  She felt sick to her stomach, she started panickin'\n  Mind rattlin', tryna understand what Hannah did\n  Battlin' the shame 'cause the situation embarrassin'\n  Tryna fathom it, betrayed by her own garrison\n  Meanwhile, she's on the deck\n  Tryna manage this piercing\n  Pain in her stomach\n  She couldn't handle it\n  Now she's waiting for an ambulance\n\n  Look, and I know she's strong\n  But when I heard about\n  What happened I was over-shocked\n  Her nose was gone\n  Her jawline shattered and rot\n  They said her baby was\n  The reason she was holdin' on\n\n  She's dozing off\n  Doctors gettin' no response\n  Her heart rate's slowin' down\n  And they don't know what's wrong\n  Picked her up, got her out of the home\n  And on to the stretcher for good measure\n  But she's fading out, uh\n\n  She took damage to the brain\n  And now she's in a coma as we speak\n  But I ain't sure if she can make it out\n  You see, this time that\n  I'm takin' out to tell you the story\n  Is more that a song or track\n  It's a message to a woman with a toxic man\n  I'm beggin' you to get support\n  If you're lost or trapped\n  I understand that I can never under-stand\n  And I ain't sayin' that it's easy but it must be right\n\n  Some of your sisters, aunties\n  Mums or wives are fucked inside\n  And they won't ever touch on why\n  I'm touched, 'cause I've seen\n  Women that are loved or liked\n  Cry a little red tear through a bloodshot eye\n  This shit's awful\n  No matter what culture, it ain't normal\n  Men try and twist it and make it seem like it's your fault\n  In that train full of people that you're takin'\n  How many Lesley's are runnin' from their Jasons?\n\n  Angel without wings\n  Like the day without the night\n  To bring her peace\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Like an ocean without a shore\n  A soldier without a war\n  How can we do this anymore?\n  A song without a voice\n  A spark without a flame\n  A child without a name\n  Oh it's just wrong\n\n  Well, we've made a massive amount\n  Of progress in this last year, haven't we?\n  Feels like a long journey\n  And I must say it's been a pleasure\n  To watch you mature and grow\n  In thought and in your career and life\n\n  You've opened up immensely\n  I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions\n  But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself\n  So you're always welcome\n  I'm just happy you're at a place now\n  Where you feel you understand your emotions\n  And are in control\n"}]